i actually really kinda realise it sucks having your life in such a routine..wake up prepare for work,on the way buy some bread,and then being treated like a maid by some taitais,then leave work at 9.30,go home maybe theres dinner,then cant even watch my fave show at 9pm.then too tired already must sleep.its so meaningless its so not purposeful and i really hate it.cos theres so many things i wanna do that i cant!but still..for the sake of money,i'll survive.haha.what will the world be like without money?haha.

and dont know why is it that nowadays people around being all emo and stuff?and i really really wanna be like the old tingting when i can talk on the phone till late at night and cheer people up or write some letters and stuff..but the flesh is weak.i'm so tired nowadays you just cant really care.and it sucks seriously.like jiaxin..i want so much to get down to write a letter to you just to catch up and stuff but i have no time!i want to help you so much and that kinda feel that i want to but cant is so helpless..

so today was my off day and then suddenly its like theres nothing to do cos my routine was broken so i spent the day catching up with my sleep and watching all the tv shows in the world like twice,seriously.haha.then laughing my ass off and just enjoying nothing.haaa.

and now its like 3am waiting for time to pass to 3.30am as its the very impt event which involves not only the results but pride and bragging rights with west ham vs liverpool!muahahaha.

i wanna catch up with all of you so damn much!ying cally hui yu jiaxin elaine! :( lets really have an outing next friday okay.life is really bad without friends around.i gotta learn to be really independent like having lunches alone. (sad!) and it can be awkward sometimes cos the food havent arrive so you have two options a)to act auntie and be like yingying to ask abt the food or b)wait.hahaha.so obviously im not ying kind so i'll wait.and that alone feeling really sucks.but i'm getting used to it nowadays.cos i'll da bao back to eat.haha.

i actually dont really like the commission part of the job cos it involves some very ugly human side but though those people dont show it you can feel it one.but its just one or two out of the so many but still..yeah.

thank God for the ipod and newpaper while going to work.hahaha.

cally like i've said i really think its your choice cos i know you are strong you are a very strong-willed individual and stubborn in a way too so i really hope you'll use this side of you to get through yeah.

its actually really kinda scary to live life routinely.it makes you tired it makes you meaningless.before i get used to this kinda life i really hope a challenge can come soon.i do hope my future job is full of challenges and not as boring as this!now really kinda realise its soooo much better to live with obstacles and tribulations.though tough but hey,you are experiencing some real stuff.and well,i really miss studying as well.haha.at least you know what you can do and achieve.

well its long since i've been online!hahahha.but i'm going off now!heee.byeeee. :(