oh yesss! :) today's my first time witnessing the whole chorus board operating and its really pretty cool.haha.behind-the-scene.

anyway after fellowshipping we went lasalle!the green grass patch!and spent a lazy afternoon/evening playing monopoly and sleeping.lol.

but the exciting part is after that we ended up playing AEIOU and 'eagle catch chick' and 'ice and water'.SO FUN LA.brought me back to my primary school days.

such non-expensive fun that sometimes we just forget about.all we need is loads of space to runnnn.dont even need to spend a single cent.i was pretty glad we ended up playing those childhood games instead cos we would have spent big bucks on mind's cafe for the same amount of fun.just that its more tiring. :)

was thinking..as singapore is trying to build resorts and casinos and all to rival that of Las Vegas,apartments and more luxurious hotels will spring up in our midst,how will the next generation of childhood games be like?

sometimes,i dont think singapore is conservative.but somehow this sudden 'upgrade' into this 15million tourists-attraction country and $30billion in tourists' spending is like so sudden.(anyway just read the newpaper on the IR's plans in sentosa and it really looks fab! imagine london's toy shop HAMLEY's in singapore!thats like so exciting!)

perhaps next time our kids dont even know what is AEIOU or 'ice and water'.all they know is expensive fun,instead of things that give simple pleasures.

of course,all these benefits the economy.but i really wonder sometimes,what kind of culture will be slowly rooted next?

one thing's for sure,i'll surely bring my kids out to play stupid games like AEIOU and 'ice and water'. :)

eh actually hor,i actually didnt want to talk about all these at first.but somehow everything came out.haaha.

but yes,i really do enjoy running about and playing catching.help to lose weight too.haha.

:) yay!lets play stupid games again!

hellllooo.hahaha.i changed blogskin as you can see.

well i guess i'm not that 'click-here,click-there' kinda person cos i got really irritated with my blog just now when i got to 'click-here,click-there' to get where i want to go.

HAHA.i think some of you will probably moan and all thinking, 'tingting is going all grey and boring again'.but well..i really like this!alot!haha.now you know hows tingting like.

as in,i dont mean to say that i'm boring (eh if you really think so then i dont know what to say.lol.) i just dont like the limelight and all to be on the beautiful blogskin but on what i'm writing instead.so ya.not as exciting at all. :)

AND.this motivates me to put some pictures up cos it really is quite boring without any pictures.lol.and somehow,this skin really makes the pictures look good.at least to me.heee.

since i do not have a camera phone now,i shall post random pictures.

the cutest for many..
but my hero is always him.the one so willing to dive right into tackles. :)

HAHA.a bit lag.but seriously!we shouldnt draw la!the ref say sorry also cant salvage the situation.but still..things like this happen all the time in soccer so look forward!and the title is ours!


yayyy!

i shall blog about something that changed my life unknowingly.

i grew up with it and it has been like this 'background' shadowing me all along.it greets me upon reaching home and fills the emptiness in this house during dinners.it brings me swinging up and down with my emotions.eh,it sounds like a riddle,but haha,its the radio la.

today i just randomly switched on the radio and was switching between the 3 chinese channels (i just cant listen to english ones really.),waiting for THE song.you know its such a joy and excitement to hear your fave song playing through the radio,and that kind of connection?singing to your heart's content..

and really,i remember theres this slogan 933 came up with,something that goes along the line of,somehow,there'll always be this song at that exact minute that you can connect and totally describes your emotions at that point of time.i find it totally true!there'll always be a song out there that can help you express what you've gone through and felt.

even with the such advanced technology to podcasts ipods itunes online downloading limewire and whatnots,i still choose the radio anytime.its this classic feeling that you cant forget.and even if i still love my ipod,sometimes,you'll find it such a chore to find a playlist that you can truly connect to at that point of time.

radio is like totally different.its almost like a 'reward system', where your patience pays off when THE song is played.while enjoying other songs that connect instead with other people listening.

radio is like,my cheap karaoke set at home.i used to know all the hits,big ones small ones.cos seriously i listen to 933 everyday.whenever my mum cooks,when dinner is served,sunday morning while my mum is ironing the clothes,while studying,when my family just dont feel like watching tv.so i used to like,can identify a song within 5 secs into the intro that kinda thing.

now is like,i need to listen 30sec?haha.

but the point is,i realised that this 'radio' is like this link between all of us at home.like the answer to the sometimes too-loud silence around.and even as we all grow up,reaching home later,this 'radio' is forgotten and pushed back into the background.

reminiscing the past..

and actually,this radio really motivated me in studying chinese and all.haha.made me interested.

so yes!i love listening to the radio. :) its such an amazing invention.haha.

okay now for the post that i wanna share.

wed's bible study really impacted me alot.and wow,the crowd was overwhelming,theres around 3-4 brothers who had to stand throughout the onehour odd long bible study cos there wasnt enough chairs,but even if theres chairs,there wasnt enough room to accommodate.i was so pleasantly surprised!its the first time ever.

but its a good problem i guess. :)

well,towards the last part,darren actually talked about a verse that i didnt quite get still.and he was explaining the real meaning to that verse and it was such a revelation!then he shared his testimony and how his dad got saved even though he was all cynical about darren's faith at first.

and he said,he was wondering why God always divides the believer from the family and let him go through persecution and stuff when He loves both parties?

then he said this that really impacted me alot:
God first divides to reconcile on the right values.
--to divide the right from the bad,to divide the righteous from the unrighteous.

well,it has everything to do with what i believe in.what i've been through what i'm forced to face.everything's very rocky back here at home.my house finally got sold.moving where to i still dont know we havent found a place yet.but well,nights were spent arguing over the division of the money.

it was the first time i saw my dad cry.first time i saw my sister cry.not the first time i saw my mum,still trying to be strong in front of me.theres obviously this crack between both sides,due to the many years spent not communicating and understanding each other,thus this division in ideas.

i stood at one corner watching the whole episode happening in front of me on wed.i can totally see and understand both sides.but you know,in an argument,it doesnt matter who win,but if theres an agreement that is to be reached by both parties.

theres even times when i lie on my bed,staring at the ceiling,late in the night,wondering what is it that i'm holding on for?why am i still so optimistic even though everything looks bleak?why am i still believing and having trust in God that everything will be fine?

but always,i'm like the only one believing.

but still,you wont ever see tingting giving up or getting too messed up by this whole saga.yes,it'll probably be really messy from now onwards,what with all the procedures and signing of all the papers.arguments,people screaming at each other's faces,tensed up atmosphere at home..i've been facing all these all along.its a terrible feeling.

but God.
already gave me the victory.
already promised me He'll walk this long stretch of road with me.
was there when i really needed someone to understand and comfort me.
is always faithful.
gave me the hope and joy that this world cant take away.
made me whole.

and even as i'm typing this right now,i can feel my eyes filling up with tears.

you who are reading this now will probably never understand how i feel.but its okay,cos my Daddy does.

its such a joy,that after experiencing all these,i know i can find Him in that secret place,waiting for me,embracing me,fulfilling all that i ever need,reassuring me.He's so real.

thats the reason why tingting doesnt fear or worry or feel sad.cos i'm staying optimistic as long as God is with me. :)

hahaha.this was supposed to be yesterday's post but i got to run off so here it is. :)


cos sometimes,people still think its very amazing and will constantly remind me that its like,really extreme makeover.and some (actually only one la haha) even suggested that i endorse some plastic surgeon to help them advertise or something.lol!


the transformation!

eh,centre parting was quite 'in' last time no?haha.i thought everyone had this sort of style before.

HAHA.the pretty one!

actually hor,hairstyle is very important.

hahaha.okay i shall update okay. :)(the radio is playing that mayday and chenqizhen's song now and its making me happyhappy. :) )

i've been listening to my breakaway cd!and its sooo nice!even though the music is somewhat different from what we sing in church,with a twist of change here and there,but its very refreshing and cool man.never cease to amaze me.

anyway,just a quick one.
its really really good to pray while showering.hee.i remember Pst Tan was telling those newborns in Christ that they can pray anywhere,even in the car,even while showering.dont know why that day this really hit me hard,i was like,wow!and from that day onwards i've been trying praying while showering.

and somehow i always get inspirations and ideas and revelations while bathing.cos like what Pst Kong said,we cant run away while covered with soap.haha.

so everytime i step out of the toilet feeling all excited and energised.seriously its the coolest feeling!haaaa.you should try it! :)

and i'll always have ideas that really work and ways how to solve some sticky situations that come my way.hee.

i'm excited!the future holds so much. :)

YAY DINNERTIME.btw its weird knowing that your sis started school already and you dont have school.HAHA.

oh jiaxin,my sis sama school as you.theatre stuff i think.haaha.


PS.by the way,i missed all the action of the long-awaited kickoff last weekend!awwww.and my dear gerrard scored an awesome goal i heard. (oh,i just ran out and watched the highlights.SO NICE!).awwwwwwwwwwww.


i really miss miss miss gerrard and co.!!riise finnan and all the new guys on the block.ohyes!it means going back to buying newpaper.hahaha.


i'm so fascinated by soccer really.

the greatest captain on planet earth doing his thing.(i'm biased.haha.)

can you feel the emotions almost at bursting point?haahaha.

i've been like listening to mayday and chen qi zhen's song for the past few days.its really so nice!seriously!just now the play count was 6,now its 25 already.haha.

and its a weird and nice feeling.like last time you were so close to a friend and then,you guys drifted (or more like,decided not to be so close) then after some time you guys talk and man,its such a nice feeling to see them doing well and stuff.

haaaa.okay its random.

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okay.i've been staring at this screen for 37 mins deciding on what to blog.

random: suddenly thought of arthur miller's "enemy of the people" quote: "without power,what good is the truth?"

truth: conformity to fact or actuality.

yet,in so many circumstances we just want the truth.

because truth sets us free.

okayyyyy i dont know what got into me.

i really think jay chou is very talented and worthy to be celebrated.

i just realised celebrity sama sama with celebrated.

hmmm..isnt it interesting?haha.celebrated celebrity.coool.

HEY YOU.
i was reading yujie's blog and ohman!i suddenly feel like blogging!cos i miss london totally!

and yes marcus,i know you can relate.lol.

more than being in a place where no one knows who are you,its just the pace and the buildings and the weather and the SHOPS(YES!I MISS HARRODS.AND ALL THE COOL SHOPS SELLING CLOTHES I CAN NEVER AFFORD NOW.) and the hothot hot chocolate or mocha and TOPSHOP(its still the most amazing i've ever seen) and the underground! and all the stuff seriously i cant find anything that i dont miss from london. :(

sitting in the rented room back at holborn street (i think its spelt like that) uploading all the pictures and getting excited.

and the hype!all soccer-crazy over there.i mean,whats the point of going london if you dont catch a match??

and i miss waking up and wearing all the longsleeves and wearing my boots and setting off excitedly!

and harrods!

I SHALL GO LONDON AGAIN SOON SOON.

okay i got to run,peter is arriving real soon to fetch me to kallang.haahaha!cant wait!

OH.i remember already!my grandpa is out of the hospital already.1week plus in the hospital.my mum was commenting that hes gonna be like that from now on,going in and out of hospitals.

and its really scary cos everyday when you go and visit him,he'll tell you a different story.like the other day when i went he was like narrating how his father (who passed away like,100000years ago) wants to visit him and how his older brother (who passed away 90000years ago) visited him at 4-5am and wanted money from him and how he kicked him away.

and he was going on about all the late relatives wanting to visit him and all.

hes so skinny and bony now that its kinda hard to imagine him being the chubby and big-belly grandpa i grew up knowing.

hello ha ha ha(it sounds like a big fat old man,really.lol).

okay,your beloved zhangtingting is officially down with flu.hahaha.ying commented that its very very rare to see me with flu.with all the rubbing of the nose and all.hahaha.i was practically dying just now so tired and all from all the sniffing and rubbing.and i woke up with a bit of fever this morning too.

but i'll be alright!hee.i just ate flu medicine.it causes drowsiness so i may fall asleep anytime.haha..

and theres so many books to read i dont know which to start first on and all.

happy birthday cally loy kai lei.
hope you'll have a big fat birthday.lol.i mean..in the chinese sort of way la!hahaha..i think you are like,so touched.and i was trying hard to not burst or something cos i needed the toilet badly outside your house just now!

anyway,its like,a scene that i think its real heart warming.so one week or so ago i was like,sweeping the floor,while my mum took time out and watched tv.so you can like,imagine me sweeping the floor around the living room while my mum qiaoed her legs and watched tv.very heartwarming right!the scene!so i decided to do housework more often now cos its a blessing to see your mum resting after her work while you slog it out for her instead.

HAHA.cally+ying+me all blogging at the same time same place.lol.

anyway!i forgot what i want to say already.so goodbye.lol.
back to trying to find out how to write a resume.

and somehow,i am so amazed and wowed by jay chou nowadays.haha.
and!i still like ke you lun alot!