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ANGELS exist but sometimes, since they don't all have wings, we call them FRIENDS.

The will of God will never take you
Where the grace of God cannot keep you,
Where the arms of God cannot support you,
Where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,
Where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you
Where the spirit of God cannot work through you,
Where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,
Where the army of God cannot protect you,
Where the hands of God cannot mold you.

The will of God will never take you
Where the love of God cannot enfold you,
Where the mercy of God cannot sustain you,
Where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,
Where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you
Where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,
Where the Word of God cannot feed you,
Where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,
Where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

ohno..stumbled upon someone's blog and i thought it was very meaningful.esp 'the comfort of God cannot dry your tears'.cos it happened so very often in my life.(:

if you just hover underneath this sentence,there's a link.
http://rjwprayers.blogspot.com/

ANOTHER DAY

haa.another day.went band today.haa.okay i saw yulan,but she wasnt as hyper as i thought she would when she saw me.haha.what a funny girl.

ooh i think benedict is sucha nice guy.was chatting with him in parade square.he really has the faith.and i think he has got the character to go far too.so far havent seen him lose his temper or something,so hes a very nice guy.haa.hes actually very nice to talk to.and can crap with him things like that.haha.and he praised my singin k!hahaha.and hes so funny,he said hold clarinet high can swallow it.hahaha.

hmmm,think going countdown with ying and cally and yulan tmr.still dont know where.i just wanna chill at someone's house,dont wanna go squeeze with the people at orchard lei.but that stupid cally want to play bangla-dodgin.what crap lor.haaha.but i'll be missin liverpool's match and i'm really reluctant to..and so sad huiying cant spend countdown with us la!aiyo..fat little girl.

hmmm,ya,having arguements over stupid stuff with a friend.i think the reason why is cos we didnt understand each other at all and we thought we did.i know you care and stuff like that,but,you are thinkin all of the wrong things abt me lor.i've tried to explain to you but you just seemed to think that i want you to please me which is so far from the truth.okay i admit i was kinda pissed after reading your blog entry.ah well,we dont know each other.but i realised i still love you or else i wouldnt have been hurt when you didnt give me anything.hmmm,maybe i'm just not the number one or whatever in your life at any point like you said i was last time.i really thank you for all the concern.you were there for me and you will console me.and at times,you really did make me feel better.i still cant forget when you consoled me and you and me were laughin abt the camels.haa.and you used to open up to me a bit and talk abt your problems too.hmmm,whats the past is the past anyway.think you have got many new friends and all the son-in-laws and daughter-in-laws and mistresses to be there for you now.and its really quite hurtful anyway.

going to print programme booklet tmr and mervin insisted on taggin along.he just cant trust us and its quite irritatin.things have been hard on him recently but he shouldnt have thrown his temper abt.

hmmm,happy new year everyone.(:

THANKSGIVING

went for cell group today.thanksgiving.first time thanksgiving.my impression of thanksgiving is turkeys.haa.hmph,really glad huiying came!hee,got someone pei.and ya,i look back at what God has done in my life.and i realised he changed me alot.alot.i shall share what He has done in my life.(:

there was once i fought with my father over something stupid,faxing the wrong things to the companies for him,so he was like scolding me stupid and things like that.so i was really angry cos i didnt even do anything wrong,and hes scolding me stupid.so i got really mad,so i talked back and said instead of sayin thankyou he scolded me when i was late meetin my friends while helpin him fax.so he got really angry too and he slapped me.of course i was shocked.i was so angry and i was cryin and cryin that my voice trembled and it was very difficult to talk.my dad and mum were even talkin abt divorcing.i ran inside my sis's room and started blastin music real loud and i cried and cried.i called elaine.but it wasnt of much use la,not sayin shes not good or what.haa.so after that i started prayin and prayin and prayin and i was asking God,why did He give me this family?why didnt He give me a happy family,a close family like everyone else's?why must i have a broken family?why must i even go through this at all?so i cried and cried.and i cried myself to sleep.

after that,it was really really hard to forgive my dad,previous arguements,the next day it was okay le.but this time it was really very hard cos when i think of what he did to me,my heart hurts and i still felt so angry that he actually slapped me.so i totally didnt talk to him.and i was readin the bible and God reminded me of his forgivefulness.so from then,i really tried very hard to forgive my dad.but it was so difficult.i still felt the hurt.and i saw this wrapped present on my table.and i unwrapped it and i saw a pooh bear thing.i couldnt stand it anymore,i kept crying.my dad actually said sorry to me.his way of sayin sorry-the pooh bear.but even so,i still felt that i cant forgive.you can never understand the hurt he inflicted on me.so i was very touched but another side of me was speechless,i didnt know what to do.and suddenly,the hurt just disappear.i realised that for a guy to say sorry to admit his mistake must take alot of courage.and since my dad can put away his pride,why cant i forgive?so after that i forgave him.

and its really amazing because the hurt really just disappeared.and i've learnt a very important lesson of forgiving.and i think God is just so amazing.and as the year comes to an end,i want to thank God for what He always bless me with.financially,relationships,and things like when we are down,God always has a way to cheer us up.

i think God has done so many things in our life that we may not even realise that God actually took the trouble to do this do that.or we may even take for granted of God's love.and for one period of time,i really did.but as the year ends,i really thank God for what He did,small things big things.and especially,my salvation.its the greatest thing i can ever receive.

hope theres a greater year ahead and that i can grow in Him even more.and bring more people to know Him.(:

thank you God.

hmmm,i'm tryin hard to change about me not being enthu in band and all that k.its actually very hurtful.okay,guess you wont know what i'm talkin abt but.steffi and i will sort the problems out.

DOING MY HOMEWORK

haa.liverpool won 2-0 newcastle!so happy now.seems like the previous 4-1 by chelsea is nothing.haa.yay!

ohno..i'm like dreadin to go band everytime.its like a burden to me now.i would prefer to stay at home and do my homework.now i'm like suddenly havin the urge to finish all my homework.heee.i'm currently doing my lit.its so exciting to do homework.hmmm,not exactly enjoyin band at the moment.its like,the fire's gone.not like i have loved band like what last time,but ya,that tiny little flame that kept me going was gone.and i'm not really keen to ignite it again.yes,people may say that i'm influenced by ying cally they all,but..i'm not lor.playin an instrument is just not my thing.and i'm not going to be a world class clarinetist in my life,so why am i always doing something that i'm not gonna be?in simpler words,i'm just wasting my time away.yes i know i've got a post and i've got responsibilities,but theres too many things in my life now that i'm questionin myself.i want to be committed to the church,i want to start my work afresh cos i wanna get into poly below 10 points,i want to enjoy the holidays and just give myself space to relax,i want to finish the vcds.theres so many things that i want to do and adding band on top on it is just like a burden.the only reason why i keep going is cos theres too many unsaved peeps in band.and i want to see them saved.thats all,thats my motivation.

hmmm,i'm still not quite certain on where to go after secondary school,but i'm pretty sure its a poly.i dont want to continue another secondary school life.okay its quite weird to talk about this now..haha.

i think those school superstars are so daring.theyve got the courage to stand in front of people to sing to realise their dreams.something that is so..wow.haa.but anyway i looked at all of them and i couldnt spot any superstar-in-the-making.they just look so..normal.haa.

hmmm,back to doing my homework!

TIRING TIRING

hmmm,was doing the programme booklet.kinda busy nowadays.busy invitin friends,busy sellin concert tics,busy being a librarian,busy doing the programme booklet.so its like i sleep at 2+ every night..haa,was so tired that i didnt realise,i slept while watching kingkong.haa.

at first the newspaper idea sounded exciting,though not the best idea.we didnt have enough time,so we had to choose something fast.the cd case was pretty okay but i was in shanghai,when i got back i felt so lost..and nobody bothered to even explain it to me..and i didnt know what songs we playin for combine what songs need to photocopy.it made me feel so down.cos i felt that i cant do anything and its like,library might as well let steffi do it on her own.i really tried to get involved,but i've not been doing anything..even when we collect back american graffiti scores,why cant it be me who keep the scores..?why must it always be steffi..?and i wasnt even doing anything,i was just keepin my instrument.its not her fault,i forgot to keep once,but that really was my carelessness..and i know its good to initiate but..she bought markers on her own.i thought we are supposed to do things together..?and i really wanted to buy the markers cos i heard elaine said markers no ink.i dont know if its selfish or what,but..i dont feel involved at all.i was once even thinkin of quittin being a librarian.i think so many people can do an even better job.i've always had confidence in myself doing a good job.but somehow..i dont now.i just feel so not like a librarian.and everytime when we take scores to give out,why is it always that people will ask steffi but not me..?can see one lor,weitheng wanted scores and he would just ask steffi and she will just stand up and go take.what about me?nobody ask scores from me before,except those one or two parts only..and if steffi is there,they will ask her,and it wont be my turn.its kinda hurtful,but i'm trying hard not to think about it.i think its my character because i'm always a 'leader'..but now shes more a 'leader' in library,so i'm not used to it.be it in 3rds or class,i've always been a 'leader',as in..the one who ordered people around.haa.ya..so i'm really tryin very hard to change this part of me now..but maybe i think library one person is actually enough to control.

hmm,city slickers/sleekers coming up.havent even thought of what to do yet.and i thought it would be yujie with me,but now she cant,so its like..nobody to nag me ard to do things earlier.now with ying and cally.sure last minute kind.but used to it le.haa.but i kind of dont like the feelin of not being prepared..i want so much for people to enjoy themselves at our station and get the deepest impression of.

really trying very hard to bring band people to church..and i seriously hope they will!

yulan bought a bag.and i'm kind of excited to see it.haha.(:

EXPO

Im having muscle aches from yesterday.aiyo.haha and today wore a bit bit of heels and so it was even more tiring.haa.

todays service was SUPERB.i suddenly realized that,yes,we can just be like Dayan,carried by our daddy and comforted to sleep even if we are very very tired and frustrated.i was so so touched by this story..and i just suddenly realized God's love is really THAT great..and i realized i need Him ever more..its so amazing..our Daddy!and pastor shared about the fear of failures.and i thought it was so good..because thats what happened to me before.i was afraid to accept Christ,because i was afraid of my parents finding out,that i will fail to convince them that Christianity is not just a religion..but in the end,i took a step of faith and accepted..even though it wasnt all teary and things like that,but still..ya..

and expo is AMAZING.its like more of a concert.hahaha.our view not very good though but we have got three screens to watch from.haha.i'm excited about next week's service.candlelit!thats so cool!haha.i cant wait for Christmas!

ooh,i think the part when pastor said when God praises you,the devil will come all the way out to destroy you is so true..haa.ya.

ohno,my table is full of ants..eew.haa.

gotta go watch miss world.haa.iceland and spain are so pretty!

and my links are kinda screwed up but you can still go to the links though,you just cant see it.

MAYDAY CONCERT

its the BEST BEST BEST concert i've ever EVER EVER attended.the songs they chose were PERFECT.and everything was so so so so high!i was jumping/waving my hands the WHOLE concert and it lasted till about 12.it was so good!and i think guys who rock are the most good looking.you know the serious look they have when they play their guitars but you can also see they all enjoying the music.like IMMERSED in it and its really amazing how MAYDAY can produce such AMAZING songs..

wen rou was super uber nice and touching tonight.it was perfect..ah shin added a few sentences and it was so touching.yuneng almost cried too.this is the only concert that i was totally immersed in the music and just like my body go and move with the music and all the jumping and stuff just comes naturally.MAYDAY JUST ROCKS.and i saw some ah mas and i was wondering why did they come.and in the end havent even finish one song they left.haha.still saw some super not high people who sat through out the concert.spoiler lor,like if mayday saw,what will they think?

but they are all super sweet talkers.say singapore is their second home and stuff.and its the only place they can put all the worries away and just play their music.haa.was so happy when i heard it.and it was shi tou's birthday!!and we all sang happy birthday to him.haa.

the openin was so funny.guan you was the superman and he looked so cute.and 'interval' was cute too,they prepared this short clip and it was very funny!all of us were like super high.hahaha.

MAYDAY JUST ROCKS.all of you should go their concert two years later.it will be the best concert you've ever ever EVER attend.

AND THE BEST PART IS.....*drumroll* I GOT SHI TOU'S GUITAR PICK!IT WAS THE ONE HE USED FOR JUE JIANG,ENCORE PIECE,AND PROBABLY EVEN FOR WEN ROU TOO.AND ITS SO SO SO SO SO SO COOL!ITS THE BIRTHDAY BOY'S PICK!AND IT FLEW IN FRONT OF ME QUITE FAR I HAD TO CLIMB OVER TO FIND IT,IT WAS UNDER SOMEONE'S FEET BUT NOBODY SAW!A BUNCH OF GIRLS WERE LIKE SEARCHIN WITH ME,BUT I SAW IT!THEY GAVE UP EVENTUALLY.HAHAHAHAHAHA!I FEEL LIKE THE LUCKIEST GIRL ON EARTH!(: (: (:

after that my sis and yu neng and i went crazy and we shouted 'WE GOT SHI TOU'S GUITAR PICK' everywhere and people were like looking at us.hahahaha.i kinda pity those sitting at the back.i think my seat is not bad! (:

MAYDAY ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS!(:

and i cant wait for service tmr! (:

THIS IS A CRAZY DAY!

LIVERPOOL WON AND CLEAN SHEET AGAIN!WOO~~!what a good day.perfect! (: (: