hello.

SLEEP.

Sleep.

sleep.



i want to sleep.

i need to sleep.


grrrrrrrrrrrrr.


zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

时间快转它不停的快转
旋转我跟着旋转
失去方向我没有方向
迷失方向我模糊了焦点
想不通太多道理呀


i remember last year it was during this time this period that i went thru quite alot and been stretched like alot.. had alot of stress.. emotionally physically mentally.

and this year.. it is the same but different measure in different aspects.

sometimes you wish as if at a word '遗忘' and things will be gone. but no.



things that i yearn to do:
1) reread ALL my HP series.
2) finish my ‘活着’.
3) read lam's bday present.
4) arrange and clean my room.
5) do some DIY stuff on my old clothes.
6) cut and paint my nails a pretty shade of pink/shocking blue.
7) watch useless movies.
8) basically just finish the whole book list in my mind. it has been getting quite long and i havent been ticking off any books.



for once, i really wish the hols will be here like, tmr.

my sis said: we'll go london next year, but you'll have to save up $3000 on your own for your air ticket and accommodation.

knowing myself.. hmmm..

okay..i'm starting to feel the stress now..

Grrrrr..

God!you must help me thru!

since ytd 2am, this caused quite an uproar till today..




HAHAHA! seriously i was laughing all the way when i read all the comments.
awww so sweet sia. jo is really pro. :)





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haha.

HAHAHA i totally LOLed when i saw this.

1) congratulations you got my name correct without spacing.
2) i love smsing. :)
3) i'm NOT being emo!

hahaha. so cute hor you little girl.
i think one day when i decide to go online, i'll be bombarded by ALL your offline msgs.
hahahaha.

i loveeee being online but not online nowadays. dont feel like facing the world being on msn.
haha. i guess this feeling/mood will go away soon.
so for now! sms me! hahahahaha.
GO GET A NEW PHONE!

whats your childhood ice-cream?


was craving for some ice-cream love just now. so val n cally went with me to 7-11. and i saw my fave fave fave ice-cream of all time. and i was so happy and bought one each for the four of us.
:)

its hazelnut bar! the one with colourful packaging.


(i closed my eyes. :( )

alwayssssssssss makes me feel like a little girl and sooooooooo happy when i eat one.
remember when i was young, i LOVE it when my dad came home with a whole packet of them. every night, i would excitedly finish dinner and grab the ice-cream and start eating.
i would even lick the plastic to get everything off cleanly. haha. (cally and yulan didnt finish!!!)



there is something just sooooo nice abt the choco layer and the ice-cream inside. and i remember there was this period when i couldnt find it anymore anywhere and i was highly sad.


oh but other than this, i had potong ice-cream when young too. those super cheap ones when you cant really afford the higher class ice-cream. red-bean and durian flavour. :) and they normally place them at the side of the ice cream storage thing. so it is always frosted with ice and all when you take it out. haha.



val and i were so happy that we were giggling away and laughing randomly. :)




val is a highly cute and adorable and funny girl. haha! :) makes me laugh everyday everytime.

今天是石老师教我们的最后一堂课。

她说：“文学，就是人生。”

在心里，有股莫名的感动和认同。

还记得，第一堂课，倪老师说：“读文学的人，不会坏到哪里去。”
想了想，文学真的越读越有趣。想的更多，发现的更多。
什么事都有更深的意思。

对啊，文学，就是人生的写照。点点滴滴..




她也说，一个人长大是个怎么样的人，跟小时候发生过的事很有关系。
就比如 Michael Jackson 一样。其实仔细解读，他的生命种种发生的，是跟小时候息息相关的。
意识到，小时候可以带来的伤害、创伤是那么的大，在成长的当儿，扮演的角色是那么的重要。伤深深的割了下去，跳出来的时间就越久。我想..我们都需要体验一种无私、无回报的爱吧。才会了解..伤痕也是一种骄傲..



我爱文学。:)


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watched MJ's memorial svc the other day too. yep, i'm not his fan. i've never really listened to all of his songs before. just the more catchy ones.

but that svc alone can touch even the hardest of hearts. hes such a talented guy. so do we focus on the negativity or the positivity? he brought such life and such joy into people's lives..


when everyone was on the stage singing that last song, i felt goosebumps. i felt so touched. what can we bring back? that there is something stronger, something more worthwhile, that in the face of death.. it prevails. it stands strong. it is love.. as simple as that.

"Heal the world", he sang. and it'll continue to sing..

she wins the chioest hair ever.
this will be my goal!

was interviewing my sis for the assignment.
wow i sure did learn something new about her.
another side of her that she doesnt really show me.



i think a huge part of me being who am i today largely is because of my sister too.
shes so practical, so sensible, yet at the same time, she dreams and she dares.


seriously speaking, how many people today, will have the courage to give up a stable and 'glamorous' job and give up everything, to dive into something new and unknown?
she is not as well-paid now, not as 'glamorous' as before, but hey, shes much happier, much fulfilled.


she said that she realised young, that money is not what she wants and cannot satisfy her. and that was why she gave up everything and went to pursue her dreams and to get a degree.


and shes doing soooo well now. going to graduate, living her dream, doing what she loves. and even being a part-time lecturer in Lasalle soon. wow or wow?




and to think shes only 25.


i seriously think i have the greatest sister ever on earth. :)

i've always felt that 7th July, 07/07 has something special about it.

so i must blog before it ends. haha.
on 07/07.lol.




lovelyyy people:

we ate like, 3.5h of buffet i think. (and i'm craving for the cream puff now).
and we just kept talking n eating n talking n eating.
till we were all sleepy. lol.

awesome bunch of friendsss.. :)

though i look like i have short hair and dont have a ponytail. haha.




okayyy happy 07/07 to you! whatever it may mean to you! :)

it was quite a stressful weekend. so many times had to react on the spot and so many times my heart was beating soooo fast.

on saturday, i told sihui that i truly understand and experience how she feels. how joanna up to sihui/kel/darren they all. its something that i guess only chorus boarders will ever understand. like what meiyan said, she never realised all these until she took charge of chorus board for the first time.



but yeah. overall it was good. and i was happy.
glad that juanjie stood in the gap and helped. and jordan/marwin doing such an awesome job.



i am so sleep deprived. i slept for so many hours when i reached home and i still feel the sleepiness in me. shall zzzzzz.

recalled..
the many years and things that i've been through..

amazed.


thank You for the great great work that You have done in me. and is still doing..

i'm forever grateful..


i can now laugh and share about my experiences because of You. really..

i just found the randomest pics in my comp that i didnt even know existed:






HAHA! (dated back to last year)


dear caryn,

you are seriously.. (dont know how to describe).
stop showing me things online.. seriously..!




online shopping is x100 more lethal than shopping itself seriously.


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haha. my aunt just won 2nd prize for toto.
while i was bathing i could hear screams n jumping n laughters.
so so adorable.
i was like really smiling to myself while i was bathing.


IMO, i have the most amazing and strongest ever mum in the WWW.
she has been through and is going through such hardships and challenges that are seriously not for the fainthearted.


and IMO, the most sensible, most intelligent, most hardworking sister ever in the WWW.
she works works n works. but always having the ability and capability to handle anything that comes her way.


money couldnt buy that kinda joy and happiness that flowed from my heart at these thoughts.. :)

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for a few weeks now, i've been going over to my ex-nanny's place for dinner on one of the weekdays every week.

and its one of my most anticipated nights in the whole week. i just loveee going there.
they have a 9month old baby and shes just soooo adorable..
she smiles at me whenever i smile at her..! so cute..!
and i've tried to better my handling kids skills. i now dare to carry them alr! haha.


and every week.. eating dinner.. listening to my 奶妈 talking about her problems..
about how Yishun's market recently has got cheaper fish than Tampines',
how on the bus back to Tampines, which old neighbour did she meet,
and how Yishun has got like, cheaper and much nicer plates nowadays, which cost like 40cents lesser than Tampines',
how she discovered this new recipe of how to cook this certain vegetable which tastes superb..


and my heart just smiles.. you know it is sometimes so refreshing..
to know that like other than all those things that are on my mind..
to her, everything that matters is which market's price is better, which neighbour has been really nice to her etc.


and i loveeeee to just sit there and listen to her ranting on.. :)


also, money can never buy all these..



okay! BTW! (back to work)




OH and to dearest shumin and daphne if you are reading. HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY! love you girls!! :)

i'm constantly very amazed with my long hair. haha.

this has got to be my longest since like, p3? haha. and ya.. when i've got nothing to do i play with my hair. haha.



i'm so proud of it. one dayyy it'll be as longgggg.. like a 'l' as compared to a '.' :)



anyhow after i move, i'll miss my cousin + my spontaneous hunger pangs in the night. we always somehow always get hungry together and search for all kinds of food. like tonight.. we ordered mac. lol!


oh i wanted to talk about another thing but i totally forgot what i was supposed to say. nvm!