hello.

hahaha.it was 3.33am just now.i think i'm really some night owl.not that i cant sleep..just that around 3+ am you'll find that kind of solitude and silence that you wont get to find during the day.its like everyone's asleep energizing for the new day and you are caught in between this blank period.its almost like time stopping.

and its like..the bestest time to think about so many stuff.

haaa.okay it shall end abruptly here.lol.

haahahaha.well..today was a touching touching day.haahaha.



thanks ying.for the..book.haha.i momentarily forgot what is it called.eh so touching la.hahaha.its alot of effort man.and you never cease to amaze me. :) love you!



its always during birthdays that i realise that little acts of care and love actually matter alot.and its really a very nice feeling when people actually remember your birthday.even though theres like..friendster reminders nowadays,its still a very nice feeling of being remembered!i'll learn from this and appreciate others' birthdays more. :) birthdays always make me learn to appreciate more.



but its really really amazing you know..one pri school friend whom i havent seen for like 6 years,always always remembers my birthdays and send me this email wishing me happy birthday every year.i'm really so amazed can.and we are not exactly very close friends either.



jackson and glenn!i'm so touched by your present too!even though its quite stupid la but still!haaahha.that painting and the newspaper pieces and breakfast!hahaha.thanks alot alot! :)



not forgetting dear cally's oreo cheesecake!hahaha.its really quite yummy la really.haha.even though a bit more solid will be much much better.haha.and huiying's book! :)so touched man.haha.



i feel so loved today.haha.



and thank God too for the bestest present ever.make me realised some stuff and that..ya..its possible!its absolutely possible.



eh and i told my sis what you guys said about her gracefulness/elegance/prettiness etc etc etc.and she was like laughing la!hahaha!eh and we different style one okay.cannot compare!and yulan,my sis actually commented that you look mature.haha!funny sia..

eh you all must be convinced we different style okay!like that then unique right.hahaha.



and omg i was looking through the photos and half of it we were either sleeping or lying on each other that kinda thing!haha!so funny la!and i lazy go upload all those pics but theres one that i must mention!

huiying!i'm really really seriously scared of your toes!!how did you train from young lor??its like..soooo scary can!!and i'm not exaggerating!!

thankyou all of you!for the most loved and heartwarming birthday ever.even smses i can like feel the love coming out of it.hahaha. :)

ANYWAY.omg peter always makes me laugh out loud can!!hahaha!!first to wish me happy belated birthday!!hahaha!SO FUNNY LA.

AND YULAN CHANGED HER BLOG ADD AGAIN. http://ohwhatyulan.blogspot.com. hahaha!!made me laugh at my computer man!!huiying/ying/cally must go okay!!

:) i was sooo touched okay.cos maybe today alot stuff happened and so i was emotionally unstable already and when i saw those smses i was sooo touched. :)thankyou thankyou.very much.



anyway.today we went for vertical marathon.haahaha.its still so wow that we actually finished.i was just surviving on God's strength seriously.i just kept praying and praying and we finished the race!i am so proud of you wongyingying! :)


haaahahaha.ying copied me!hahaha.wearing the sama stuff again.lol!like we really love ahs or something.


128(ying) and 129(me!) finished the race!! :)

anyway.theres so many little little things in life that can make me feel so contented easily.its nice to see the world through love.haaaha.theres like so many things that when i look at it,it just brings a smile to my face.and it makes me really appreciate all the little things.like ytd,while going home,this little girl,her hands were full carrying a subway drink and stuff so i was behind her when i wanna enter the gate and she very sweetly used her leg to hold the gate open for me.i was like awww can.so nice! :)

HAHAHAHA.so hilarious!me+ying were listening to 883 so i just randomly called their hotline and he actually picked it up!hahaha!and i'll be on air later la.and i laughed half the way.lol.hahaha.

i'm staying over at ying's house. :) cos we accompanying her through the night as she attempts to finish her 50 art pieces.hahaha.

oooh ya.i was bathing just now and i realised some stuff.that i am so glad to have ying/yulan/huiying/cally in my lives.haha.cos i deposited a part of me in them and that each of them has got different purposes and roles in my life.haaa.i cant imagine how are we gonna live our lives without one of us.haha.

and thank God that all of us in the sama church.

i think they are tearing as they read this hahahaha!

I LOVE YOU GUYS.HAHA.

okay just some random thoughts cos i realise really close friends are hard to come by.

haaahahhaaa.i have nothing to say already.goodbye. :)

omg.i am still in a state of disbelief and shock.can you feel it?

ohyes..i'm tearing too.

the last few mins..it was agony.i was on the phone with jackson and there was just silence and it pretty much summed up the whole thing.

when we scored at the min,i was practically screaming,i really really hang on to that last goal..after last final..nothing seemed impossible.

now the tv's muted cos i dont wanna hear milan celebrating.and the colours in white rather than red.

i still cant believe it.....

and its so touching still that pool fans were singing and still singing even after the final whistle.

and the saddest and heartbreaking part is when you see all the players' faces.

finals like this can give heart attacks.seriously.
if one healthy person like me can be so ?!?!?!??!!! over the last few mins.

it hurts.but with fans like this,with my gerrard still as gracious in defeat,i'm sure theres still the next season.

its okay,failure means more to come.
means we'll win the treble the next season! :)

thats what i love about soccer.the passion,the love,the loyalty.you cant even get close to describing the emotions what all the fans and players go through.

i miss this.i'm still very sad.but..sounds cheesy but it made me love liverpool more.

omg i was going crazy editing all the htmls and all!and well,just make do with this okay marcus!haaa.i dont feel like changing again seriously.i'm lazy.content is more important than surface okay!lol.

and well..witnessed some very ugly side of some friends in school..and its yuck.seriously.so double face so fake so act so plastic.i'm seriously amazed how people can still like,surround themselves with people like that..it irritates me and makes me cherish my sec sch/church friends more.if poly is really like that..then well..good luck for the 3 years man.

theres so many artificial friends around that..you dont know who to trust anymore.

awww and i'm listening to no doubt's 'running'.its such a pretty song. :)

hahaha.i may go vietnam during june hols man.hahaha.of all places!lol!thats the ho chi ming or something like that one right..?haahaha.

just ate oreo cheesecake.not the yummiest but theres the made-at-home kinda feel so its nice after all.lol.

and i was wearing my beloved liverpool's jersey today and was hoping to bump into any fellow liverpool fan so i can smile at him and he can smile at me but didnt!so was kinda sad.hahaaaa.think everyone is reserving the shirt for tmr's use.haha.

theres this new anything/whatever drink in town now.haha.i think its sooo creative!hahaha.

eh i realised nowadays i always blog random and senseless stuff hahahaha.its gonna be holidays soon!like after one month of school.haha.

and the stupid price of the sports channel will increase again!so 3 months without sports channel till the new season starts again..

omg the finals is less than 7 hours away..!!

i've decided to upload some pics. :) cos i finally sent those pics over to my comp.hahahaa.and some really made me laugh out loud!

me and the birthday boy!so obvious hes in army la!hahaha.

hahahaha.our dearest yulan's an idiot. :)


the vampire game!its pretty fun! :)

not forgetting the sooooooooooooooooooo yuuummmmyy black and white brownie!!!!

i think this picture is funny!!!hahahaha!!and its like so rare three of us can actually eat a meal together la. :)

hahaha!the three of us with funny poses. :) so sweeeet man!
omg!this is the funny one!!lol!the very sly and cunning ying asked us to make ugly faces in the end we did she didnt so she end up looking pretty and all!lol!and yulan really looks cuteeee!! lol :)

hahaha!and this was the day when tingting looked the prettiest!hahaha!after the photo shoot the other time!loolll. :) eh but i look so different here.lol.

okay i'm gonna watch tv now.goodbye my friend.

hahahaha.the old one looks screwed up on my sis's laptop and its giving me the goosebumps so i changed again.lol!

omg i'm so frustrated now can.but i think its rebelling.so i should control myself!i will remain calm calm calm calm...

omgggg i'm going crazy researching on some stupid stuff like finishes to your fabric and all sorts of stuff???like how in the world will that change the world or something.okay maybe it does change the world..considering fabric is everywhere.but still! :(

watched the stupidest horror show today la.haha.dont know whether to laugh or cry.the whole movie we were practically laughing.not that scared-but-trying-to-look-unscared kind but really hilarious kind!omggggg..and to think the ghost got exorcised into a corn.and a very lowbudget movie cos i think they were trying to create some mysterious effect by having very dusty air all around which failed very badly..!

....just got my pocket money ytd and now its half gone already.lol.

its nice to hang out with your besties.haaa.it has been ages since we've gone out.and ytd's little dinner with ying+yulan.today's movie with cally+ying. :)and to laugh at stupid things.hahaha.
and big bag=excuse to have the free seat in the train.hahaha!i was secretly an shuanging.lol!eh but the auntie got there first so dont have.haha.

i just ate a mango.lol.

back to the fabric world....

welll at this hour,i'm still awake.i was reading all my past entries..haaaha.and it really made me think.i'm missing something in my life.cant exactly pinpoint what but..ya.theres something about the old tingting which is missing..spiritually.i must get it back.

and i was reading the first ever entry on this blog and i was just like..smiling to myself.lol!cos!i'm going mayday's concert soooon again! :)

omg.thinking back,two years already passed.from dec 11 2005 mayday's concert.its kinda scary..haha.

and man..brings back so many things.remember the devotion???hahaha!the topic:responsibility.it was such a big step of faith!and how God moved was amazing.

and i was reminded too.. a friend stayed over at my house like..one year before.and i was just asking her..why did she backslide?she said she dont feel anything anymore.and i was so sad that i turned to the other side and i practically cried the whole night to sleep..cos i was feeling so so so sad for her.

i need that spirit back.so urgently.

hahahaha!i can come online!omgomg.hahaha.i have been trying like since 10pm.and the connection was down.so my sis asked me to call starhub.hahaha.

so i was like..talking to this starhub guy for ten over twenty mins and i find it so amusing!the idea that hes trying to fix something that he cant see and just giving me instructions over the phone is like..so amusing seriously.haha.i kept laughing.and cos the laptop and the wireless thing in two different rooms,i gotta run here and there and he even offered to call me on my handphone to save the trouble.lol!so funny la!

welll watching pos really made me want to join east again..seriously!the fun and everything.and cheesiang is like soooo comical and cute la!lol.but cant join liao.so we are sk warriors.whatever that means.lol.

time is gone like wind man.it feels like yesterday when i got back my o level results.and yesterday that we just had christmas.when we just had easter.that kinda thing.and then....
ITS MAY ALREADY.

christmas is coming soon.hahaha.

tmr is off-day!yay!watching some stupid horror show!heee.

i need new songs man i need new revelations new thoughts new insights about everything to think through cos it kinda sucks that i dont have any new songs anymore and new inspirations.

God is good all the time. :)

God always says that we have to be strong ourselves before we can become a pillar in other people's life

when God place u above someone
He has a reason
his/her hardenness is an xray to you

lol.what somebody told me just now.haha.

btw our dear yulan finally changed to blogger.
http://yulanwong.blogspot.com :) yulan's an idiot.

weelll..i'm so so so tired of doing the wrong things..i cant stand doing things wrong.i seriously need to learn to be more spirit-led instead of making my own decisions.

these few weeks are so important..cant afford to slack.i still need to learn soooo many things..its like everyday,i find something in me that i must change.its like God blotting out all the seemingly minute stuff.but then again,they are important to God even if it looks small..its like going through a cleansing machine.

but i know its going to be good and i'll emerge to be a better person.

but thank God for friends around that even when you are at your tiredest,they still somehow cheer you up.hahaha.

i'll keep fighting and fighting on.

this post is all mixed up cos my thoughts running all over the place.but well..you dont need to understand anyway.haaaa.

back to busying myself! :)

oooohhhyaaa!!hahaha!xiaoting sort of like..made it 'complusory' for the whole cell group to be with jianguang for vertical marathon.omg!hahaha.43 storeys!i cant even survive tp the two floors thing.lol.its times 21!

i'm talking to cally now and i think its so amusing!she is at singapore poly at 12.49am staying over for some stupid thing and then they are going to have steamboat later.like at 1am??lol??

hahaha.having cell group on friday night means everyone rushing for the last train/bus at the end of the meeting.lol.so it was pretty hilarious to see everyone running after cell group to catch the cab to the mrt station kinda thing.haha.but!nowadays at pasir ris.haha.so hosay liao.

anyway today yulan told me God spoke to her about 2 cor 4:17-18.and i was like..wow.God spoke to me about that exact passage too.and then,xiaoting was saying that this afternoon,she spoke the exact same verse to this SOT friend too.so its like..wow.haaa.

our cupcakes are really really yummy okay.and we finished selling everything.hahaha.sad la ying!couldnt meet you.yulan tried though.hahahaaa.

okay i dont know what to say already.goodbye. :)

hahaha.there were some problems with the old skin and stuff..so i gotta change.and then..well..i think i really suck.lol.cos i removed the pictures and everything again.hahaha.

well,i still cant find the perfect skin so..hahaha.make do with this till i find one la okayyyy...lol.

yay!going school now!sell some cupcakes.hahaha. :)

hahahaha.i think its very funny.cos nowadays my house use the mango shower gel thing.so after bathing i'll smell like a mango.haha.the toilet will also smell like a mango.lol.and nowadays my mum buys alot of mangoes.seriously.hahhaha!so i think its really so funny!hahaha!

haha.everytime i play solitaire i'll have this feeling that its so much like..life's crossroads.lol.like if theres one card but two ways to place it,you must choose either place and then sometimes if you are lucky,both can succeed,if not,only one can and you gotta choose.haahaha.

okay i think its pretty funny but thats what i think.haha.i am so bored that i'm actually playing solitaire.lol!then i'll get really frustrated when i get stuck.haha.so gotta deal all over again.

and i dont really know how to pronounce solitaire.haha!

hahaha.alot of friends called/smsed me after reading my previous entry.haha.was kinda amused.haha.even very weird people who dont usually call me,did.lol!

welll..actually these past few days very not tingting.cos i believe in every sad sad situation there'll always be another angle to look at it and turn it all around again.so i got so lost in my sorrow that i didnt bother.

so well,you dont need to worry about me anymore cos i'll be very very fine.haha.theres still alot of things for me to laugh at.haha. :)

anyway!omg!everytime i see SHE's new mv i'll have like..mixed feelings.hahaha.omggg ashin is soooo cuteee cann!!!hahaha!but then!his first kiss on screen!hahahaha.omg.haha.

i dont know what to wear tmr man..lol.

i left my house with my ipod and phone and wallet today..

then i sat beside the canal and stared and stared..playing slow songs..

and then i realised that i have been so wrong.so so wrong.

always thought that i'll move on,it'll be okay.but then..its actually the opposite.i have been shutting myself up in this area for so long.

so when i heard you crying your heart out outside my door,and i was crying too in my room,i was surprised by myself..how hardened my heart is.

so my tears just kept falling down..
and how i wished someone would just call me and be there for me.
i have never really opened up to anyone before in my life..esp in this area.till now.
i just needed someone to hear me..and not talk.not judge me.not criticise me.

its the first time in my life that i felt so..forsaken.
its as if i'm mute i cant talk i dont know what to reply you when you cried so heartbrokenly.

i am imperfect i still do need to learn a lot of things.

i sat there for hours.

in as much as i try to make everything look perfect,i realised in the end,i am still very much imperfect.was trying so hard to 'appear strong',but realised everything that i can do,theres a limit.

i still do fall sometimes.

i was so blessed talking to jackson today.seriously..learnt a lot of things and was wowed by alot of things.hahaha.we were randomly just telling each other what God is speaking to us recently then on the train just flip the Bible and stuff..and its so cool can.haha.and unknowingly,its at tanah merah already.

and i dont know about him,but he unknowingly spoke issues and problems right at where i'm most stuck at currently.and i was..amazed can.how God can just use people around me to remind me of things and we that should really carry the fear of God around.

eg. i realised that i have been making a lot of decisions without asking God and its only mine.and though i know its not right and stuff,God just used jackson to remind me so strongly the seriousness of it.why still ask God when i already made my decision?no wonder God didnt really speak to me these few days even though i really need it because i wasnt willing to give up what i've decided on.God's no fool.we need to come to a place of brokenness and total giving of our lives to God that we can truly experience.

and you'll come to realise too that you wont be genuinely happy when you make your own decisions.

so so so so blessed by Sermon On The Mount series.i learned so many things!and these few weeks its like,wow after wow after wow.and its only lesson 4!i'm so looking forward to weekends to come can.and to think xiaoting get to be around all these stuff EVERYDAY.omg.so cooool la!i want!

haa.its okay.i shall bring all the presence and stuff to my own room during my own quiet time. :)

"i can do all things".haha.emerge the slogan at the bottom. :)

i thank God that i can be part of this exciting church.am forever challenged and to bring myself up another level.

acquiesce
–verb (used without object), -esced, -esc·ing.
to assent tacitly; submit or comply silently or without protest; agree; consent

thats the title of one of oasis's song and i thought its really interesting.it was supposed to be a friendship song haha but it turned out more like a love song.

sometimes oasis write the most beautiful songs ever.

hahaha omg ke you lun having 2nd album soon!hahaha.it brings back lots of sec sch memories hahaha!though his hair is kinda..long.but i still think hes kinda cute!hahaha.but nobody ever agrees with me.lol.

ohman..all jc people are busy busy busy.

anyway!i think facade has got weird pronunciation.hahaha.so i'll try my best not to use that word at all.lol.cos i dont think i can pronounce it.hahaha!

all the little things..

-recently i bought new colour pencils and i was sharpening them when i was suddenly reminded of how we used to strive to have the sharpest colour pencils in primary school and the memory of that kinda innocence warmed my heart. :)

-today i drank my bubble tea on the way home and was thinking about some stuff when the drink finished and i didnt realise so i was pretty sad that i didnt cherish the pearls more.lol.and then i realised theres still one hidden in between all the ice and that made my night.haha

-when i walked into class today and saw all the different types of personalities and uniqueness and it amazed me..somehow.that each individual is trying to live their passion and stuff..

-when some random friend smsed and told me a joke that they are supposed to assign roles and they didnt bother so they had 1 leader and 5 assistant leaders.lol!

-when i was on the train today and i saw people seated and it fascinates me still that it just so happened that all of us met on the exact same train at that exact moment.and as if like for a few mins,our roads intersected,after that,we gotta branch out into all sorts of ways again.and i think its kinda amazing..hahaha.

all these made my day!hahaha. :)

WASSUP MAN.i'm back.hahaha.

hmmm in short,everything's happening so fast.these few days..full of discouragements misunderstandings and all.esp that night when my sis said some stuff.BUT.i realised everything happened so the next can happen.(LOL.chim sia!)and so,everything leads to another and so on.haha.

and cally,you dont know how big an encouragement your decision was.i was practically blown away and it came at the time when i most needed encouragement and some confirmation. :)i hope you'll start to realise and experience the kind of EXCITING life you'll get.heee.

YAY GOD IS SO SO GOOD.have been like crying so many times these few days.hahaha.in a good way!touched by God. :)

I WANT TO BE PART OF IT! :)

OMG OMG OMG.WE ARE GOING TO THE ATHENS.HAAAAHAHA.

ytd the match ended like,5.30am??and i gotta get up by 7 so i have only one plus hour sleep.but ITS ALL WORTH IT MAN.omg!i was practically screaming for joy!its the FINALS OF CHAMPIONS LEAGUE!and if we win,it'll be the sixth title!omggg ytd's penalties was so nerve wrecking!reina was awesome!hahaha.aiya,actually other than surina no one knows what i'm talking about but sharing joy!hahaha!through to finals!

today really no energy sia hahaha.sleep is really important.hahaha.i was sitting there and staring at the teacher and almost fell asleep.haha.

gotta do lots of research man.glamour!haha.

hahaha!this is one of the cooooolest music video i've ever seen!



broken social scene almost crime

haaaa today's the first day of school for only 3 hours.haha.

to be honest,i still seriously dont really like fashion and stuff.i dont know whats going on when i put that as my first choice now that i think back.always thought that fashion is so fake and so..materialistic.whats the true meaning of fashion?its such a on-the-surface thing that i dont really want to get into but now i am in it for 3 years.

was looking through some books in the library today.saw alot of people's definition of fashion and noticed one of them said fashion is only bad when people forget that the person wearing it is more important than what they are wearing.haaa.

i am still looking for something to break this mindset of mine.cos i'm still gotta be in it for 3 years so i might as well do something that others dont even think of.

ohwell..