heyooo.haa.

so nowadays of course my fave music to listen to is mayday's and i was thinking about the message that they wanna convey and then i realised..to be able to write music to this kinda extent and to this standard,you can almost imagine the type of pain and tribulations they went through.its so amazing how tribulations and obstacles and challenges can change you.

so i wanna say that i wanna experience that pain that valley that darkness.people always seek happiness people want comfort they want familiarity.you are deep down that valley no one to help you out you are alone.isnt it the best time to get hurt to the max,to go through every single torturous thought?instead of saying enjoy it,i would say that is what experience is all about.i always hate people saying they cant do that they cant get through this they cant get out of the pain but that is the best time to fight,to experience that pain to the fullest.then you can emerge to say you have loved.if you are always trying to get back to the past,to numb yourself,lie to yourself,whats the point?

people always want what they dont have.in the midst of all your troubles and valleys,we often get so immersed in the idea that we are suffering,we are in pain,we pity ourselves that more than often,the pain inflicted is more of yourself in yourself than the situation.because at that point,you do not have the happiness you desire.but after gaining your happiness,people forget to cherish.and then,isnt it back to where you started?so in the end,lesson learned:process.its the process that matters dear.if we dont realise the importance of process and let it pass us by each time,then we are actually living our lives in a circle,back to where we were.

so let me say,if you are in the middle of a process called pain.live it.make the fullest out of it,and when you finally gained your happiness,you know you have learned something important.you have finally experienced the deepest valley and the highest mountain.dont try to escape or run away from it,cos its in you.you cant run away forever.

thats what life is about.

曾经灿烂 曾经沸腾 才不会有悔恨
if you cant see,encode it.

so i say,16 years of life,yet still green about everything.family problems?friends?relationships?no i havent experience enough of it yet to say i have no regrets..and so,dont complain.i'm still learning and its a wonderful experience so far.i dream that someday i can write things that can send people thinking,someone like ashin whom i really really put at the highest because the things that he write and the stuff that he think,its so amazing.

i'm like playing treasure hunt la.i keep listening to their songs to get that piece of treasure.

its a wonderful wonderful thing to be able to think and imagine. :)

okay this post is kinda..chim?but i really hope you understand what i'm trying to say.

and i dont care if you people say this is not tingting,to write this kinda stuff.cos i realised my mindset and thinking is already different,changed from 2006. i love to think.if theres a job that wants me to think and write only but still be able to get a paycheck,i'm most willing to do it..haa.

in anyway,happy new year!mayday's album is great and you guys should buy it!every song is about a different kind of love different stages that everyone go through so its really cool.and it ends off with that baby track.haha.