hello.

i miss my home. the little corner on the 4th floor of dear tampines. there is this close feeling you have when you are on familiar ground. and i miss that feeling. of going home.

i miss my sofa. though its black and unwelcoming, but it is so comfortable and i can just sleep on it the whole afternoon.

i miss my bed. i miss how soft it is but at the same time, it is hard. i miss the wholeness of it, the feeling that i own the world cos i can roll about all i want on the big queen size bed. i miss the cleanness of it. that i know my clean-freak mum will keep it dirt-free, and even if its dirty, its cos of me. so i can still rest in peace.

i miss my quilt. on how it understands that i need a nice welcoming embrace at the end of every day. i love how it gives me warmth and keep me safe every night. how it engulfs me with its hug, and telling me that tomorrow will be a better day.

i miss my toilet bowl. miss the cleanness of it, miss having it clean all the time. miss me not having to do housework and it can still be spot-free.

i miss my toilet. the showers. how it understands my exact mix of cold + hot, and i know exactly the position of the handle to give me the exact temperature. the showering thing is so unpredictable here cos i can suddenly get super cold water, and suddenly get super hot water that i'll probably scald myself and end up with 3rd degree burns or something.

i even miss the microwave and oven at home. just because i can cook just about anything in it. with all the potatoes in the world. i also miss all the pots and pans and stove. that i can cook my restaurant standard steak. and how awesome you feel after cooking something nice.

i miss my wardrobe. miss the five doors to it. miss the feeling of waking every morning looking at my wardrobe. and filling the shelves with all my clothes. i miss my full length mirror in my room. i can look at myself from the tip of my head to my toes. and i miss being able to do that, without looking retarded trying to tip-toe, jump, stretch myself, just so i can see how i look whole body.

i miss my room. the cosy little space with red ceilings and awesome lighting. the whole messy feeling of it, but yet, it is so cosy you can fall asleep right away.

:( i'm not emo la. haha. i just suddenly miss all these things back at home :( 3 more months to go!

do you have your own guilty pleasures? those singers/songs that you wouldnt be caught dead in listening to them. haha. secretly enjoying them in your own comfort zone cos saying them out would be somewhat uncool and makes you totally weird.

well my uncool playlist would include lots of avril lavigne. i know i know. its so out! but i just love listening to her at times! her screamy, heck care attitude. sometimes you just need that kinda thing to let loose you know? haha. and her slow songs (some of them) are reallyyyy nice. my all time faves have got to be 'things i'll never say' and 'runaway'. i esp listen to runaway alot when i feel like the end of myself and when i just wanna give in to everything.

my playlist would also include ashlee simpson, and some atomic kitten. i know! who still listen to them right?! well i do, sometimes. i loveeee ashlee while she just started out. i really liked her first album! i thought it was well done. and erm, atomic kitten was just for old times sake. haha.

recently i've dug out a couple more that i havent listened to in YEARS. my absolute fave after so many years since secondary school is, guess what, hoobastank's the reason. it got really popular that period of time. and it is still one of my fave songs somehow over the years! whenever i listen to that song, a part of me melts. i dont know why! hahaha. and hmmm.. matchbox twenty's unwell.


one thing about me, i can never be doing and looking at one thing for a long period of time. within the last hour or so, i have started by looking at scarves online, shopping online for cardigans, to talking to my sis about apple, to editing my blog post that i wanna post, to reading a bunch of blogs i havent read for long, to surfing a graphics blog for very long, and then jumping to downloading random songs, and to stop and think about the random songs that i'm listening to, and back to scrapbooking kits online, and now youtubing music videos. my line of thoughts sure can jump to extreme ends that i dont even know how i manage to do that. and all the while while listening to old school britney hits.


PS that glee episode of britney was AWESOME!!!! I AM A CONVERTED BRITNEY FAN NOW, THOUGH TEN YEARS LATE. BUT BETTER LATE THAN NEVER RIGHT???

just that day i probably spent hours or so spamming britney's MV and replaying them over and over. and gaped at all her dance moves and abs. haha. she makes me wanna go to the gym and work out! (LOL I JUST TYPED MAKE OUT JUST NOW HAHAHA)

okay back to being the disorganised internet surfer. byeeee.

PPS i absolutely loveeeee scrapbooking! i have fallen completely in love with this craft and wish i have all the resources in the world. scrapbooking as a hobby is an expensive one! :(

haha theres this very fun and awesome website http://laphotocabine.com/ you just need a webcam. that is 8 tings for you, the first few trying to figure out how that thing worked. haha. nice effectttt. and nice photobooth french woman speaking!

as i do not have access to blogger, and am like too lazy sometimes to borrow comp, so i typed out my posts as and when i have inspiration to. so do expect a whole chunk of posts every now and then. haha.

PEACE OUT.

I always find it very interesting to find out the degree of Cness in a person. And, being C, it is also very easy to identify one who is not.

Since i knew what C was, it has been like my secret hobby to spot C people. you'll actually start to appreciate being a C. because its all the small little details that matter and piece things together. A group working together, MUST have a C person. To go through every nitty gritty grammar mistake/punctuation error, and to just be cek ark about the alignment.

I dont know how/when did i become so concerned about Cness. but sometimes, i do appreciate it. because i LIKE being able and more likely to spotting small things. (maybe thats why i am always so good at spot the difference LOL!) but sometimes, being so C, also makes you critical and... well. judgmental even sometimes.

and all these translate to the area of housekeeping as well i realised. all those small small things, i do care alot! (that being said, lam if you are reading this i think we will be the best room mates cos of all of our weird similarities)

just last week i opened the 19 weeks present thing from the girls. and inside it they wrote 'and knowing what an organised freak you are, we got you a nice black board!' i laughed when i saw that! do i really come across as an 'organised freak'? but well after all these weeks, i realised that i am! i am a messy, lazy organised freak, if it makes any sense.

i'm a to-do list kinda person, a dumping-everything-of-the-same-category-tgt kinda person, a writing down everything i remember now so i wont forget later on kinda person. but i am also someone who wont do anything until i cant stand it kinda person. but i guess that has to do with discipline also. i am MUCH more disciplined here! strange as it is, i wake up way earlier than back in sg, am way neater than back at home. i am ALWAYS early for classes now (only once when i saw the time wrongly). haha. i guess throwing yourself in a totally different environment does wonders to yourself. seeing who you become, and its quite interesting.

okay i dont know why did i venture and talk about all these. the mind of a female is as easily distracted as an...ant?

IM DOING GOOD! SEE U ALL IN 103 DAYS!

PS i LOVE fall! and i am DYING to wear my jeffrey campbells. i miss wearing them so much! miss feeling so on top of the world! but its very kuazhang to wear to classes. and to climb those stairs up to 4/6th storeys is no joke. but i wanna wear them so much :( but i will feel so out of place in my class. this is called peer pressure.

i dont know why, but recently i am very into Britney! maybe its PITNB's fault, cos he likes britney so much! and seeing him talk about her so much, it gets to me too, and exposed me to her! and somemore, this week's glee is on britney!

only remember growing up, watching MTV, this young girl making a storm in MTV with all her hit songs and dance moves. would remember listening to all her hit songs and somehow, you just know how to sing them pretty easily! and watching all her dance moves, and be so fixated i would just stare at the tv screen for 4mins watching her.

only until recently that i started developing an interest in her. (late by 10 years i'm sorry). what intrigued me wasnt all her songs, melodies, lyrics and all. but by what this 29 year old achieved in 13 years! and whatever that happened in these 13 years, isnt normal at all.

i imagine if i were to grow up in her position, forced to be under the spotlight since forever, i dont know how i will turn out like. and she going through some really silly and hard times. when the world was super harsh to her. it was really like she alone against the world. who would really understand her inner struggles?

but she overcame all her addictions, overcame herself, overcame what the world thinks, and now stood up again, being who she really is. i think that story itself is really positive! it shows alot. shows that kinda character and strength and determination this girl has inside her core.

and i guess thats why i'm so drawn to artistes like her, and nicole richie etc. cos they truly showed the world what they are made of, and became wonderful mums.

and that got me thinking, i truly believe anyone who has got 'family' as one of their priorities and core, that individual wouldnt err very far in life. thats how important a healthy family is.


everyone has a story to tell. and it just shows no one is really that screwed up to not have a second chance at anything in life. :)

its a glee night! been replaying all the glee songs. i love how intense, how relatable the series and songs are. they come to life and really speaks to you.

fave song at the moment: taking chances


miss 90210, glee, GG, cougar town! really anticipating them to come back!

PS i've been working hard hard! i hope to do well!

tried to pass time by playing around with photoshop. and came out with these!





sharing rooms isnt all that bad, but it has its own cons. i am pretty much a person who needs my own personal time/space. i'm not saying anything, but i guess, all of us do have our own little likes and donts right? so yeah. tonight i settled down with chen qi zhen's playlist and found peace inside of me. she brings such comfort to me.. shes so unbelievable.

after adjusting to life after a week, things are pretty much going well here. only focus here is to study, shop, eat. that is basically what we do everyday. it is quite a different feeling from when i was in singapore. when i had to sometimes care for so many things you forget who you are. but here, you arent able to control anything thats happening back in sg, so you are kinda forced to be left alone. and sometimes, it is good medicine for the soul.

slow-paced. thats how life is here right now. but i guess things will change when projects start to bomb in.

all these aside, i really hate how china is so mac unfriendly! down to internet banking to everything else. i have to depend on my friends' windows, and i hate being reliant on windows! but that just kinda shows how china is slowly being more developed i guess.

walking down the streets that day, observing the manner and the way of life these wuhan people have, it kinda brought me thinking. civilization, culture, technology, the people, government, etc. all these change little by little over the months, years, decades, centuries. we are lucky to be in singapore, where we have been growing so rapidly and so in tune with globalisation. but being here, really allow your eyes to see, the process that china is going through, to establish their own world. the people are still learning, the transportation is still under construction, and there are still lots of changes this country have to go through to 'get there'. the people i've met, they were all so curious about singapore. how is it like there, the economy etc.

being in a country with 5000 years history, and becoming where they are today. it is a great deal of process. learning in classes those very events that happened on the same ground that i am standing on, sometimes makes it feel so surreal. but i guess, thats the whole beauty of it all. china is one unique country.

PS big congrats to xiaoting and peter! was so excited when he facebook messaged me about it. you are finally getting married. i still cant get myself around it! anticipating a great wedding, and lots of changes for you as you embark on the next phase of your life :) knew you for about 6 years, and the time has finally come! you are way too fast for me to catch on! but congrats anyway! :)