5.

So many people have asked if I'm okay, and if I'm better.

I guess I am? But I still do feel it... sometimes. But thinking back on how much I've grown and how much happier I've become since it happened, I guess I came a long way.

I literally cringed last night when I thought of the many nights I spent in tears... And I do not wish to go back to those days. I am happy being where and who I am now... Contented. 

But yet I am also human... My heart still jump at every mention of his name, photo, online or offline. Am I completely over it?

Who knows? How can I know when am I exactly over it?
It isn't exactly very long ago, yet it is still quite some time ago.

Sometimes questions still swim in my mind... But I choose to believe in Him. I really do. I think this has made me see a lot of things clearer, about myself and about relationships.

Being honestly raw, I think I might have lost some faith in relationships. As of now... I am just a little bit afraid. So... I'm comfortable at where I am now. 

But of course... God I'm willing to be shaped through this process... into someone much better, stronger and wiser.