hello.

i'm gonna leave in about 8-9 hours time. wowwww. hahaha. for those of you who dont know, to KL Emerge! :)

anyhow, today went to celebrate joanna's birthday after BS. haha. (laura is super efficient in uploading pictures).


phileo jiahao shing me laura joanna. hahaha. see all the smiley faces. haha. (laura's tee is 'i love london' hahaha.)

happy birthday! if you happen to read this. hahaha.


and then the sot graduates from chorus board taken on sundayyy.

shing me joanna laura tangy. hahaha.

see how happyyy everyone is. haha.


i cant wait for KL! i havent packed though. gonna wake up early tmr to pack. haha.


i'll be back on mondayyyy! :)

i was playing a game based in london today. and that got me missing london vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv much. so i went to research and look at all the london pictures again. haha.


Piccadilly Circus! see the lillywhites? its the shop that i got all the gifts! surina! your unopened chelsea calender! it has been there since 1925. aint it amazing. haha. and i remember that whole place was so decorated in christmas stuff then. it was sooooo warm. though it was chilly and cold.. but it was superrrrrr heartwarming really. the christmas spirit!!


Trafalgar Square! i remember we were there.. and there was this group of people singing christmas carols. seriously everytime i think back, it gives me this warm feeling deep in my heart. and lots of people standing around listening to them. and i was just listening to them too and twirling around with the music and singing out loud the songs, so carefree, with my loved ones around me. :)


buckingham palace! their changing of guards thing is a really really grand thing. unlike our singapore ones. haha. and luckily! i got to witness it the other time! its really cool.



okayyyy i can go on and on. i really miss london! it is just this deep longing inside me.. to want to go back!

i remember that moment while we were about to land at heathrow airport, i was tearing! haha.


i shall make it an annual trip to london next time when i'm rich. i loveeee london so much. i shall buy a big mansion there and go there every summer and winter. hahaha! it'll be right smack in the central area and where all the christmas feel will overflow into my house. haha.


i shall also buy a castle in liverpool (lol!). so i can go visit each time after london, and own an e-season ticket, to watch pool LIVE. haha. and i shall buy one of those private boxes thing in the stadium, while eating lunch can watch the match happening down below. haha.

i shall also buy a house next to gerrard's. just for the sake of being close to his family. hahaha!


imagination is powerful one okay. it shall come to pass someday. haha.

okay enough!

YES just finished writing to dear lam jiaxin.

just want to say that. i'm really v thankful and appreciative and amazed that we keep this habit of writing to each other till now. you know how very precious it is? haha. like who in the world still write to one another?? haha. and to think we started doing this like in sec 3?? so it has been 4 years of writing! omg. haha.

i think if i were to compile them all it'll fill one whole drawer. haha. and its really cool. cos i was recalling. and through all these letters right, i realised you've been with me through all my ups and downs in my life. big small things. we will just write it out in the letters. and isnt it amazing?

we dont get to meet up that often. but using words.. we are still in touch and very much connected. and that in itself, is something that is precious and seriously lacking of in this world. and thats why no matter how lazy i am, i'll still pick up my pen and reply you. :)

i've tried this with other people as well, but it seems that after all these years, you are the only one still faithfully replying my letters. haha. no matter how busy you are!

and you know how very exciting it is, to come home seeing a letter addressed to yourself? haha. i loveeee it! haha.


so yes, cherish you lots lam jiaxin. though you are super busy now, but you are remembered. :)

and your big day is coming. you better leave time out for us! haha. or you are so dead.

hahaha. wowww a post for you lei lam jiaxin. hahaha.

JIAYOU HOR!! :)

"since lam got curls everything is possible." lol.

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haha. just a lot of random stuff running thru my mind.

glad i've got the chance to talk to you today loy. it was good? haha. glad also that you chose to call me. though we didnt come up with any solutions, but i know you'll do the right thing. yeah? haha.

and yeah. something else changed as well. but i feel that in the long run, its good. :)

and i realised sometimes, physical presence is very important as well. not only just being there, but being there physically. as i realised last friday. thanks. :)


just suddenly i feel so thankful for everything. yes. for all the friendships in my life. :)
thank You. :) really really from the bottom of my heart.

hahaha. i'm feeling like this currently. happy and..colourful? lol.


dont you think jellybeans are amazing. the small little ones with so many colours to brighten any one's day. but on its own, its quite ugly. together, its so pretty. :)

aiya. actually after talking it out realised its nothing much.


the hardest hurdle of all, i managed to get past it. haha. now it seems like everything is much easier. :)


PTL man. to think i was so afraid and i prayed so hard and all. hahaha.





SIX MORE DAYS! :)

i summoned all my courage today. it was hard to face. could have ignored it. but i know it cannot go unnoticed any longer.

its hard. these few weeks. hard to control my imaginations sometimes. it runs wild.



but however the outcome, i know i'm in good hands.


give me more strength and courage wont You?

i have something vv amazing to say..

i went to the gym this morning! :)


arent you just proud of zhangtingting. hahaha.


seriously its kinda my first time in a gym. so i was so green and all about all the machines and equipments. i was looking like an idiot wondering how to use all those.

but i felt so good after that! i felt so fresh and awake and alive. its really cool! it has been long since i felt so so fresh. haha. its good to sweat it out. i was so excited that after the gyming session i actually smsed my mum and sister to tell them i went to the gym! hahaha.


seriously, morning prayer really rocks. it somehow gives me alot more hours to do my stuff, and to discipline myself to really wake up early.

wah can you imagine a life waking up early to pray, after that go exercise. how zai is that! haha.


okayyy i predict tmr i'm gonna have bad muscle aches. muahaha.

you know what they say, people change.

i for one, didnt quite get about this until just suddenly i recalled back and yes. people change.

you changed. or rather, didnt change, but towards us, you did. couldnt help but stop and think. you changed in a way that none of us thought possible. we were wrong. as i was reading, i felt that the person i knew since so long ago, was so different now. the progress to you, was hard.

and i switched to another, and reading another. and i felt so familiar, at ease.


and that banged something into me.

sometimes, just sometimes, though change is the only constant thing in the world,

staying the same is really a very rare kind of happiness and blessing.


that same old smile, that same old style of talking, that same ugly pose, that same contagious laughter, that same person i used to know, that familiarity.

where are you?

aiya. not the best picture of torres. hahaha. but i tried my best.haha.

WOOO. im really really excited for the new season.

i am soooo excited!

haha. okay even though its 1-0 win only. BUT! its only starting. hahaha.

can you feeel my excitementttt..!?

epl title here we comeeeee..!


i love what the online website says about the liverpool crest: its not just a badge, its a family crest. :)


ps. super chio right! i love the grey and red jersey!!!

final reminder and new phone bill just came!

two-in-one.

and its not cheap..its in the hundreds.


i seriously dread every month from around 6-10th cos its not a happy thing to come home facing the always three digits phone bills.

ahhhhh.

GOD!!

multiply multiply my money!

it is starting, it is starting!

this weekend.



wooo. i'm so excited. this year i've not been following them as much as i wish to. so this new season i'm super excited for it.

i tell you, we'll win the treble this season. EPL, champs league, FA cup.

believe?

hahaha.

yes i do! its not gonna be 18years EPL-less, its gonna be our title!

:)



very ugly meh? i love it lei! i really like the colours. haha.

if you are feeling rich, i actually wear kids' size M. hahaha.

see la look at her expression. so funny. hahaha. we are proud singaporeans! :)


haha inside the hall thing.lol.why we so enthu har.haha.but it was FUN! haha.


the rest of them.


and thennn rushed down for the 60sec fame thing.hahaha!!unforgettable experience!lol.


eh ying's one not v obvious. but it was superrrrr funny!! hahaha.


hahaha some random mascot thing we took at central.



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sooo we were having steamboat at home today.

“今天庆祝什么为什么吃火锅？”

“庆祝北京奥林匹克 lor”

“huh，国庆 lei？”

“aiya，那个只是sidedish而已。”

hahahahaha! aiya maybe you dont find it funny. but i laughed like dont know what when my uncle said that. hahaha.

cos people were like watching NDP, then our whole family very excitedly watching olympics swimming. hahaha. so cute man.

you know, august marks the month that i'm officially 1 year in chorus board. still remember last year when i said i wanted to join, xiaoting was asking, you sure a not? haha.

but i guess it has been a greaatttt journey. more than i can imagine. christmas, easter, FOP, and so many more. made some great friends as well.

maybe because its holidays. so i'm in a very 'evaluating' mood. seeing how the past 7 months have been. lots of encounters/ experiences in a different way. be it friends around me, or me.

not so much of a 'feeling' year. it has been a 'testing' year. tested how i trusted God when i couldnt see my future ahead. and tested just how much i love God. and many situations, my reactions to it. last year was more of a 'feeling' year. emotions, thoughts, hurts.



maybe its me la. but i realised, as i grow older, things that happened are so much more happening. i think the events that happened this year or last year, more than equalled all that happened in 16 years.

okay la. a bit duh. since theres this taking more responsibility of your life kinda thing once you enter 17.

and it dawned on me, how close i am to really being an adult.

soon, there wont be mama to run to anymore. and soon, i got to learn to be financially independent. my sister became independent quite young, around 20. i'm so so far from being even financially stable.


i think this stage is pretty interesting. how each of us start to detach ourselves slowly from the supporting pillar and build an empire of our own.


i'm going to be super rich in the future. :)
better start being good friends with me now okay. hahaha.

you know how very near my beloved ipod was from death? it was just inches away. this morning it died while i tried connecting it to the laptop. stuck at 'do not disconnect' message. i was kinda freaked out. then i tried again just now, it totally died on me. i couldnt even switch it on. its only 2.5 years old and still counting! then i said a short prayer for it. and tadah! its back alive again!

i'm so relieved man. i depend so heavily on my ipod. i cant live without it seriously. thank God! :)

'last lecture' with dear shishuen (is that how you spell it? haha.).




shes really cute la.coming up with all the funny poses.haha.

i've enjoyed her lessons. its very different from all the other lessons i've attended. she encourages and really makes you feel good about yourself. she gives very constructive comments about you, and she has that thing about her, that can really identify and see people's good points.. :)

she taught me to be thick-skinned. yes she did. i used to be super shy and all. thats why i'll keep laughing in front of everyone. but i've learnt to let go and just be myself in front of others. its quite a big step for me actually. :)


hahaha picture from weeks ago. me, yun jie, and caryn. classes would be boringgg without you guys! haha.

its actually my mugmate/toiletmate/chiongmate/discipline mistress' birthday today. but i'm still not gonna wish her yet.hahaha.



just now was discussing with phileo, yes. 'This Is Our God' and 'Roadmaps and Revelations' have got to be the best worship albums i've heard so far. :)

FOP 08 :)


HAHA. THE TAG.


I LOVE HIM! HE IS SO CUTE! :) the rubberband guitarist. :)


our divine meeting with reuben morgan. haha.


HAHAHA. THANKS AH PHILEO. the cute reuben morgan's graphics assistant or something like that. he uses white macbook, ipod, so hes super cool. :) and he does cool graphics with the ball thing on sat, and the SUPER COOL lighting on sunday. :) and he has got super cool big glasses. :) and he has got his cool way saying 'aweeeesome'. and he is super encouraging and super nice as well. lol. okay enough. HES NATHAN. lol


SAM DE JONG. ANOTHER DIVINE MEETING. HAHAHA. just as i was talking with sheila about him. HES SUPERRRR COOL AND CUTE LA. should go read parachute's blog. they are a bunch of cool guys. can see substance, brokenness, and humbleness in them. :)


"take take take it all, take take take it all" hahaha. DEAN USSHER. HES COOL TOO. HAHA. (not the PINK guitarist) hahaha.


and the two pictures i can kill phileo for:

ehhhhhh you never ask omega to take wimme la. sad can. and i dont have an individual pic with reuben also la. and you got everything. tskkkk. you and "your reuben morgan". hmph.




yeahhh self-timed! :) me phileo reeve.

FOP has been funnnn. though i was sick, tired, BUT I HAD SO MUCH FUN. thanks to 'best friend' phileo. hahaha. we were like, chasing, walking all ard the place. hahaha.

and to think i started out not really excited cos i dont know parachute band, and i didnt know reuben morgan is from hillsong until last week's BS when issac and ying told me. and at the end of the week i was all excited spotting targets to take pics with.


i enjoyed the p&w sooooo much for the three days. though i was in the backstage room, but hey, God never shortchanges. i felt His presence strong, and i was tearing and all while running backup as well.

and for the last day! every ounce of me wanted to run out and jump and sing with all of the people out there! it was aweessomeee (in nathan's slang)!


but yeah, how i wish i can serve all over again. it has been an amazing, fun, happy three days. and all the details right down to the Capital Letters. learnt stuff, enjoyed company. :)

amazinggg la. God is amazingggg and awweesomee! from glory to glory. up till this level, and i wonder what's next in store. :)



Jesus, we're living for Your name! :)

much tear has been shed this week.
in frustration, in stress, in tough times, in sad times.




but this whole week ended,
with me shedding tears of joy, gratefulness.


on the way home in the bus,
staring out the window with 'This Is Our God' album playing,
tears just kept flowing and flowing.


this whole week, i've been attacked physically mentally emotionally. been stretched in my faith.
but in all, it has been amazing.

it ended with a bang.

You left me broken,
You made me realised just how big You are, just how strong You are.

i am willing to go through all these ten times more,
just to witness the realness of my saving God.




Jesus, how can i live without You?

i'll never ever forget this.

i came online to say that..

TOMORROW/TODAY is the last service! which i'm super super excited/looking forward to!


AND MY GOD has been AMAZING to me this whole week!


FOP HAVE BEEN AMAZING.


and that i'm superrrr happy. :)


tuesday is coming soon soon! and i am gonna make sure nothing happens on that day!


:) :) :)

ps. dont you think its extremely heartwarming when you use 'God' with a 'my' in front? like, 'My God', 'My Jesus'. :)



My God saves! :)