hello.

10 months ago, at this exact place.

I have many questions bogging my head. 

But at the end, it is a journey of acceptance and surrender.

It hurts because it mattered, because I gave my all, I tried my best.

Nights when I question Him, why?

I've accepted I wouldn't be getting my answer now.

Life is lived forwards but understood backwards.

And in the wise words of someone I respect a lot,

One day, your heart will heal, and God will make sense of it all.

I am waiting for that day... Surviving on pure Grace.

And I'm beginning to gain a deeper understanding on: Be kind to one another, for everyone has their own battles to fight.

Sometimes, we think we know, but we REALLY don't. It's so different to have experienced something, and truly understand it deeper. 

It is one thing to read about something, think you understand a situation, but so different when you really understand what they are actually feeling through the incident. Life and relationships are so complicated, sometimes you really do not know what/how they are where they are, unless you are in their shoes. 

We all do need lots of grace in our lives... It's not easy.