hello.

hahaha.watched a movie.cool hor?in the middle of prelims.hahaha.

watched simple life again just now.i'm sort of dreading finish watching it so i'm like,one episode at a time now.hahaha.

emaths is quite okay,and i really really hope i'll get my first a1 in how many years.hahaha.and!its so amazing!i've been craving for meiji that tube chocos,and i found it on my table!think my sis bought it.hahaha.

biological clock is so screwed but i think its going back to normal cos i was feeling tired ytd at 11pm.so its a good sign.hahaha.

and dear jiaxin,happy sweet sixteen!though things didnt turn out all the well,but,we really enjoyed it and it was so fun and everything.your house darn cosy la!hahaha.that hug was so warm too.hahaha.

OH.YANZI'S NEW SONG.BUT SOMEHOW I DONT REALLY THINK ITS THAT NICE.ITS..SO SO.NOT CATCHY.KINDA DISAPPOINTED BUT WELL,I'M SURE THE REST OF THE ALBUM WILL BE GOOD.ONE DOWN ONE MORE TO GO!WHERES MAYDAY??

hahaha.uploaded youtube.but its like self-entertaining for myself to watch only.hahaha.cos i dont think anyone will wanna watch.

i shall put up simple life's youtube.ohman am i addicted or what.its so darn funny!!its like my motivation for the whole day.hahaha.a nice break from studies. :)

PHYYSSIICCSS.not gonna let myself slack anymore!

ooh prelims prelims.mugging hard?haa.why is it that all the people around me and me included,dont feel anything?as in seriously.we are still like slacking away.haa.ohno,we must start feeling anxious.its not a good thing.haaha.

i only slept for 5 hours for two days.isnt that amazing.hahaha.

the prospect of going london is like so real now.as in..london man.how many people get the chance to go?i mean,i'm not showing off or what,but its LONDON.ohman.my london bridge's gonna fall down like london london london.haahahaha.and i'll be praying to bump into gerrard somewhere.HAHA.dont worry,i'll buy things.even if its one pathetic stone along the pavement,i'll just find something to give. :)

yes,i must work hard to go to london proudly.ahaha.like,after Os most prestigious prize.aiya.dont know what i describing la.haha.

SLEEP.THEN MUG.A1 FOR EMATHS.thats a MUST.

haa.here using my sis new laptop.not sylish one.ibm.but hey,its durable.haaaha.

to those who have been worried or what.really THANKS.haaha.seriously.but i'm really okay now.i guess i'm that type who gets affected but i wont let it dwell or let myself have a reason to still be sad.so i'll move on.so when those things come back again,i'll be affected again and i'll move on again.so is it a good thing or a bad thing?haa.hope its more towards the good side.

anyway.i dont know or not you'll read this.but hmmm..call yourself too insensitive or think too much.but..theres really no need to be angry over such stuff what.hey yes,perhaps its really our fault not formally inviting you,but hey,friends for two years already lei,you think we really dont love you or not want you to be included meh?as in..its so troublesome and so tiring like every little thing,ohyes,must remember to tell everyone and invite them.sometimes if you wanna come with us or what,can just ask where we going and just come ma.we dont mind nobody minds.isnt it always like that?as in you always think that you are not invited,you feel left out blahblah,but hey,thats really your own.we didnt ever.and you are always always angry when we didnt ask you to what and what.yes we can change and be more understanding but why cant it be the other way round,you put yourself into our shoes and dont read too much into those little careless things that we didnt do?

and you are not online.thats not a new friend.thats someone you know.its a mini misunderstanding.but for goodness sake,its so tiring to always have to think abt you,think for you.why not you stand in our shoes and think for us?you arent always the angel ya..do you know how disappointed and all cally and i were when you ran off with them today when you could have stayed to be with us instead of them??

okay i hate reading long posts but i'm always posting long posts.haa.

JIAXIN.thanks for your concern.as in..seriously.you are just so into details and its so touching.like today,you asked if i wanna go study.i was so touched.haaha.the thought that came into my mind was like..you didnt want to leave me alone right?haha.thats what i thought la.and i truly appreciate that!love you! :)

OHMAN.INTERNET'S AFFECTING THE TV FOR SOME REASON.GOT TO GO COS MAMA WANNA WATCH HER FAVE HEALING HANDS III.AHHAHA.

something happened at home again.i'm so so tired of all these.i dont feel like caring,but i must.and i just sent an e-mail to my dad.probably the longest convo i've ever talked to him.haa.

everything's not alright here..but i'll hang on..

i know i'm going through all these for a reason.

hey.hahaa.you know..its so hard not to be like a hypocrite.you always see friendster profiles,people's hate list:hypocrites.but i feel like asking them,are you sure you havent been one?everyone's bound to be a hypocrite sometime in your life..not?witnessed some myself.this friend,always say she wont this she wont that,she'll be so loyal.but hey,she run to other friends at the first opportunity and just dont seem to like our presence after that.isnt that being so hypocritical..?

and sometimes when you know something that you do is against what you believe,but you still do it.is that hypocritical?i dont know..but for myself.i find things that i am hypocritical about.like how i said i will never ever say bad things or badmouth abt my friend again,but i still do.oh yes,thats darn hypocritical.

but i guess,being a hypocrite is one thing,but being a hypocrite and knowing you are one and so,you change,is another thing.so hey,dont 'hate' all the hypocrites out there.cos you may well be one too.sub-consciously or not.

does it make sense?haa.i just dont know how to express myself.

haha.was talking to xt just now.about the kingdom of god and our church.and yes,i do realised,its only in our church that mediocre and lukewarm christians they do not stay and linger for long.its only those who has got no attitude problems and who really loves god who'll stay.cos one can remain in their other church for 10years and still be the same..

ohcomeon!church's about you conforming to the rules of god and to change and be who god wants you to be.not you come and be the king yourself and think that the whole world must give in.if people choose to just stay stagnant and not change..the rest got to move on.theres so much more out there to do..not just stay stagnant and wait for people to change.xt said that god is not hard up on people,yes he does still love them but at the end of the day,god gave you choices.you choose your path.stay and see your life transform,or choose not to and see your life in a complete mess.as in seriously man.the rest just got to move on.teachable attitude yeah.

so my dear friend,please choose the correct path and really think through.theres nothing we can help if you yourself not willing to change.

HAHA.NEW LAYOUT.HAA.COS IWAS SICK OF THE LAST ONE.THIS IS KINDA COOL RIGHT.

but as usual..i removed all the pics and things and TADA! a plain and nice and simple one! :) i love simple blog.leaves room for imagination.LOL.

music part is kinda screwed.dont know how to and lazy to change it. :)

hey.forgot to add.ashin's blog right.is really amazing.as in..that blog's music is insects erm giving out noise.but.sometime darn cool that he said-hes still alive.and can still hear this kind of sound.what can he still ask for in life?

SO COOL.gosh.

ooh i just realised that once you clicked on the song and after that you gotta stay there to listen to the song or it'll stop.hahaha.too bad.lazy go adjust.

http://blog.yam.com/ashin

aww..was reading it.its like so cool?and i was actually tearing when i read it.cos background music's mayday's too.i really really really REALLY love mayday!(anyway, that website's in chinese.haa.sorry jx) as in..dont you think that ashin's really a very very depthy person?as in..the things he said really made me think.and..mayday's songs like..got hidden meaning one lor.haa.as in..it appears to be some sweet song to girlfriend,but,its really like..look deeper hor,its so cool.like..theres one song that i'll never ever forget..

about how when we were young,we always like..wanna fly out to the outerspace or be some famous person,and it was so naive and innocent,but as we grew up..where were all the dreams..?we all forgot about them.as life gets harder,we forget all our past memories that used to make us so so happy and contented.and we just give up so easily nowadays..its kinda sad..haa.yes their songs always make me emo.

i love people who are very depthy.haa.cos i and this certain friend,we always talk,but its always lame stuff.so one day i said i dont want to be so hahaha then go off,so we started talking more about life..and its really so amazing.its like..really can learn things from everyone.no matter how young or old that person is.

ohyes,i wanna grow up to be someone with depth.haa.like ashin.
and xt and i were talking,she and me included,believe mayday will get saved.haa. :)

i love being alive.haa does it make sense?haha.

ohmy.its so amazing.just a phonecall and a 'yes' and shes saved!and not one but two!our cellgroup finally broke through!its SO amazing!!whats more was that they are so very open!its just like..yes.and its like that!ohgosh!!GOD'S AMAZING!!

ohman..i'm just happy i'm just delirious.hahaha.think wrong usage.but still!i really didnt know that..people really ARE so open out there!and we as labourers are just slacking!imagine a school of 1000plus people,bound to have more like them!!

but of course.we cant be complacent.PRAY that they'll really get integrated! :)

GOD'S SUPERBLY FANTASTICALLY EXTRAORDINARY AMAZING!!