hello.

There are just some people close to your heart. So so close to your heart.

And you realize that God placed them there for a reason. 

To you, 

God alone knows your pain. He collects the tears you have shed throughout your 22 years of life. He tears and hurts together with you when you recall every bad memory of your life. He understands your need for time and space, that you need time to heal and be ready. He understands, and He is always patiently waiting for the day till you are ready to.

He is patiently waiting to embrace you in His arms. To tell you just how much He loves you. To tell you that you've been such a brave and courageous girl. To tell you He sees your pain, and is sorry to see you go through all these by yourself, alone and away from your family in another country. 

He wants to let you know that He is the story writer of your life. He holds the pen, and He is slowly writing a beautiful story out of your life. To Him, it might even be the most beautiful story He has ever written in the entire universe, cos to Him, each and every child is His favorite.

We've been through similar things. I understand that pain... through and through. My heart aches for you each time, because I know exactly how it hurts. I know how much it takes for you to say that you will start forgiving. I know because I've been there.

God placed you in my life, to go through my hardest and darkest moments together with me. God placed me in your life, and I will always be here as a friend and a cheerleader, to go through your darkest moments.

To me, the greatest consolation of it all is that God is with us. Every valley, pain, struggle, hurt. We will find strength in Him together.

I love you my dear friend. You are the best friend anyone can ask for. Even without mentioning anything here, I know you know that I'm talking to you.