hello.

haaha.agree with ying.communication.

haa.agree with jiaxin too.love ey.haaha.

man,today went xt's house.so fruitful!haa.yes.i hope to be a master in it.LOL.RV's still a problem though.RV RV.rivervalley.lol

FOCUS PEOPLE!I LOVE YA.

hey i really hope you'll read this.theres no other way i can talk to you now.

where and who told you that cell people dont like you?you felt it?hmmm..can i say that thats really what you think?i spoke to one of them today..and you know the reason why they dont wanna get close to you?cos they are scared that you suddenly will mood swing and erupt again.they dont even dare to crack a joke with you now..cos from time to time again you just suddenly give a black face.yes we do know the reasons why,but,the others dont.so naturally they dont dare to talk to you,and hence,you'll think that they dislike you.

and i know this will anger you.you said we didnt think about you.but the fact is we did..in the first place i agreed with eugene cos i thought we can go study as a cell group.but in the end you didnt want to study with him and yadayada.so i tried to solve it by telling eugene i'll go home.cos i remembered previously you said if we not going anywhere,you'll come my house.and i really thought you meant it.so i let down peter and eugene for your sake.so i went back to sit and told you and you just ignored me.hey..at that point of time i'm not disappointed ar?i felt sorry for you cos you cannot go and study at bedok so i opened my house for you even if i know we cant study.i was thinkin about you all along.and after that you really dont seem to care even if i went home,so i told eugene i'll go with them.and you know what?eugene seriously not not like you.

hmmm noone can see you are upset?we all did girl.we saw.we just let you be cos you are getting back to square one again.and if this continues..we just have to move on.

heyhey.haa.cell ytd was superb!really really blessed by it.i was trembling all over and the presence was so great that it was so overwhelming.i felt my whole body having those kinda electricity feel and for once,i actually felt numb.seriously.even my ears my legs,it was just all over.it was SO powerful.i couldnt even stretch my hands cos it was like..woahh..haa yeah.never felt like that before.never cried so hard before.and in that instant,wow,like all my pain healed.as in..seriously.wow the power!

and xt said that God will never ever leave me alone,even if both my parents abandon me.its just so simple.and i couldnt seem to realise it previously.isnt it so powerful?wow.haa.

been really blessed by the book ying lent me..been having so many revelations nowadays.like how worship's really entering into His gates..and this passage on love:

Know anyone who needs a cloak of love?
Have you ever heard of anyone gossip about someone you know?ever seen human jackals make a meal out of a fallen friend?"well,i heard that she..""oh but you didnt know that she..""let me tell you what a friend told me about him.."then all of a sudden,its your turn.everybody is picking your friend apart.what do you have to say?

here is what love says: Love says nothing. Love stays silent. "Love covers a multitide of sins" (1peter4:8). Love doesnt expose. It doesnt gossip.If love says anything, love speaks words of defense. words of kindness. words of protection.

...isnt is familiar?haa like how we often give in to gossips and just..gossip about our friend.we need to change,buddy.love's kind and protectful. :)

and theres this passage i got really blessed by too..

Common courtesy honours God and his children. "Do your best to live in peace with everyone" (rom12:18). Just do your best. You cant control their attitude,but you can manage yours.

...wasnt that so powerful?like..just do your best in your part.and thats all.we cant control others but we CAN control ourselves.

LOVE.so powerful.haa.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preseveres. Love never fails.

try changing the word 'love' with your name.do you become a liar?haa.try inserting 'Jesus'.

you love all your friends ey?think again.

i'm so looking forward to this new life i discovered in God. :) reaching out is so fun after all.

I'M LOVING IT.haaha.

and ohgosh.liverpool's match against west ham was so entertaining.truly the beautiful game.loved it!and when you are so passionately in love with the club you support,you'll seriously just label them as 'us'.like,we won!instead of liverpool won!cos you just feel so part of them.and that feeling's so cool.i really love my liverpool.'we' won westham!lol.

but it was a good game.we were the better team,even peter admits.gosh.haha.rare compliment.haha.

i'm loving crouch too!no matter how much people dislike or criticise him,i'm gotta stand by him and SOON,YOU GUYS WILL SEE HIM SHINE.hes like improving la! :)


---seriously,theres lots of people out there whos in need of our cloak of love.a little gesture can mean lots.

ahh..well.dad's overseas again.haaha.hmmm..aiya.everything will be okay.theres other joy in life that i can savour.hahaha.

wah,i love reaching out to sec1s man.so easy.hahaha.thats like revelation of the day.heee.

i thought this was quite true: "you cant change others' attitude,but you can manage yours." so we just do our best on our part to ensure we didnt do anything wrong,so theres nothing to be afraid of.haha.yeah.

man.i'm really loving busted's sleeping with the light on now.hahaa.its so lag to like busted now cos they like broke up last year.but!ohman.now then i realised,ohyes,they do have cuties.hahahahaa.

dont you think that for people,you'll always have a current hit in your life?like for now,its busted.previously it was joe pringle.more previously it was ke you lun.hahaha.yeahman. :)

raahh.pointless entry.

i'mfeelingveryverylousynow..idontknowhowtofixmyselfanymore.
andnomatterwhatanybodysaysicantkeepmyselfonmyfeet.
whosgonnacloakmewithacloakoflovenow?yeahiknowhecan.butfeelingsodriftedawayitseemshardto.amitoolostorsomething..?

why does it seem that i'm the only only one in the family whos affected by it all..?
no matter how i force myself not to..i still am.its there staring straight at my face..are you there?

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

heello.hahaha.

hmmm dont like to write unhappy things when blogging.but.haiya.just had a revelation.maybe all those things that i THOUGHT or FELT..only to make me distracted.BE FOCUSED TINGTING!(without spacing.haa.)jx you should know!haaha.yeah.REVELATION sia.

just thinkin..something ying said very long ago still stuck wimme.haa.she said something like,i dont think i'll be close friends with you next time.i was pretty shocked then.cos i cannot imagine life without my close friends.and i was listenin to the radio recently..they were sayin,in friendships,you need to work hard too.work hard to build it up,to contact each other.and i seriously hope i will not lose contact with any of my close friends!so i was thinking..building relationships..quite tiring ya.but worth it.cos i think like..i have mature relationships with people whom i've been through lots.like elaine.haha.4years as friends.not easy ey.we argued before!and had done stupid things before.had our laughs.internal jokes.and ytd..when we were passin notes,i realised..our friendship is like mature until we just know.get it?those kind of we just know and i can feel that kinda level.haa yeah.and that period when i was so not close to you,really felt as if i lost my soulmate.hahaha.you are like this piece of me that i really need.aww..

and like ying.i daresay that shes the friend who most understands me.as in..shes always spot on on guessin my emos and things.and shes always injecting sense into me.4years as friends too!kinda amazing.used to argue over the little things.but now..its already like past those stages.and without you..my life will be missing some pieces too.you are always the one who brings me back down to earth.sometimes i will just feel BANG.when i'm talkin to you.cos sometimes the things you say really make realise alot of things.haha.ya.and its around you that i've learnt to really take criticisms and to learn from my mistakes.cos you never never fail to tell me whats wrong and what wrongs did i do and you'll complain or 'tell me off' in a way.and i'll learn and be a better person.even though it sometimes can be hard to take,but ard you,i've learnt how to.and still learnin.haa.yeah.

huiying also.you are like the happy part in my life.you always never fail to put a smile on my face.so your childishness also got good part!haahha.and believe it or not.all the arguements made me learn new things.like..aware of things.like the previous one.made me realised that i cannot take you guys for granted and its up to me to make an effort to socialise and talk to you guys.ya.and you build me up that way.so even though we may not understand each other that well.but you are so important in my life too.cos you are always so tough and strong,so things like the debt collectors..i wont worry anymore cos (i feel!) that no matter what..you'll always be there to help and you'll help me 出头.so i no need worry.hahaha. :)

and jiaxin!dont you think?i seriously think theres just this bond between us.this unbreakable bond.as in..i will take in comfort knowin that..somehow..you'll understand my problems.and like..i just let myself down in front of you.i dont need to care about anything..about having to explain or what.cos you just UNDERSTAND.haa ya thats how i feel.you are that special friend i'll always have.

cally!theres always special moments somehow.and i was really touched when you looked me up the other time.you know that troubled time.when we sat at some dark corner.haha.and you are always the one who give comments about the situation and more than often its like..so true.you can really be some psychologist la.and you can really like..make things sound sensible and is alright.somehow..dont know how explain.not having in depth talks with you now!hahaha.shall have it sometime.BUT.know that you made a difference. =)

friends are amazing creations dont ya think?haaha. :)

MY GRAMMAR A BIT CANT MAKE IT THESE DAYS.i'm like suddenly so not confident of my english.AND ORAL'S TMR.gosh.hahaha.