hello.

i think it is very ridiculous that i'm having bad muscle aches.my legs.my arms a little.

it shows how high the concert was right.haha.no its not because i dont exercise,it's seriously 3hours of jumping.

my sister even worst.she has muscle aches all over, stomach, arms, and legs.hahaha.so funny.

我要在这里再说一次。

《倔强》真的是个很棒的歌。没夸张。


‘逆风的方向更适合飞翔’

im back from mayday's concert.

extremely exhausted now.you have no idea how much fats you lose when you attend such a concert.

thankfully, this year my seat is not bad at all.haha.second row,and its like,just in front of the platform thing that they will run.

every member walked past me except for guan you. it was a very refreshing concert. i actually took pictures to show you how close i was but i m lazy to post it.

今年空前绝后的表演真的非常棒。亲切感100%。

但今年和去年的差别蛮大的。记得去年，阿信如走在我前面就想晕的感觉。但今年，纯粹是抱着一种兴奋，只想让自己的思想被刺激。去年抱着‘歌迷’的身份，今年，不晓得是什么身份，但真的不同。

整个演唱会是真情流露，很感人。阿信不知最近受了什么打击，今天唱歌特别有感觉。《温柔》，还是无人能比。

今天在唱倔强时，我落泪了。太感动了。无法形容的一种感动。自己在想我是否有一天会有那五月天的疯狂来追自己的梦。当场看着那五位男生傻傻的追着摇滚梦，很有感染力。

每次看五月天，心中都会一直explode on the inside。

总觉得今年和去年比，不同的是我觉得我有向那个梦小踏了那么一步。自己还不是很清楚是什么梦，但我知道，我在往对的方向。

他们简直改变了我的生命。没夸张。



最后，阿信说：“明年见。” :)


i cant wait for their next album.i know its gonna be a breakthrough album once again.



i just love mayday la. how?

just the second week and there seems to be overwhelming work.

really thanks for taking time out to call me just now. you made me realise things and i've never seen things this way before..


just now was just thinking through all the things that are coming my way. things that i want to do, things i've yet to do, things i should have done, things that i didnt do well enough, things that i did half-heartedly.. theres so many things i want to do. so many things i expect of myself.

life is so busy nowadays.


but i'm really excited. this time, it feels different.

i pray that i'll never forget this feeling.

those were the days.classic pictures that i took from my friendster.

so i was reading up on archaeologists' findings.and omg its super cool.haha.was reading on pre-adamic races.and all those chimology names really freaked me out.haha.

and anyhow,i stumbled across this article which amazed me as well.

this is a baby mammoth unearthed in 2007 in Russian Arctic.

for that one second.

i felt so overwhelmed.

everyone was talking to me online.


everyone was calling me.


everyone was smsing me.


everything was running through my mind.

听着陈绮贞的‘小步舞曲’第一句是‘天空突然下起倾盆大雨’。一唱后，天空果然突然下起倾盆大雨。

《小步舞曲》
天空突然下起倾盆大雨
恋人在屋檐下相偎相依
移动我的脚步轻松躲雨
人潮拥挤握住湿热的手心
再也不愿想起不快乐的旋律
呼吸这一秒的空气

还有多少回忆
藏着多少秘密
在我心里翻来覆去
什么叫做爱情
还有多少回忆
藏着多少秘密
在你心里我也许
只是你欣赏的风景

夜晚静静等着电话响起
时间躺在他去年寄来的信
空荡的风叫我播放着舞曲
旋转这一秒的孤寂

还有多少回忆
藏着多少秘密
在你心里我也许
是你轻快的游戏
还有多少回忆
藏着多少秘密
在你心里我也许
只是你缓慢的练习
音乐响起我一个人演出重覆的舞曲

是一首很美的歌。很轻松。很简单。

ytd we went to catch '都是当兵惹的祸'. it was a funny show.quite fresh.one of the first few times i stepped into a theatre. :)

and heres all my lovely coursemates.but sadly, i'm in a different class from them.haha.

okay i am gonna rave about my course again.

seriously i am so happily going to school everyday.i learn really cool stuff everyday.and i learn new stuff everyday.and i love how my lecturers challenge us to think in another way and to have our own perspective on everything.

and i love how our assignments, we got to think and evaluate, with original ideas and points. i really think its very cool lei. it challenges my mind to think everyday, even very minute topic like 'shaking hands', we got to present on how it affects different aspects of the needs of human beings.

i lovvveeee it man. :)

i think my previous post is abit exaggerating hahaha.

like what xiaoting said, only a part of it is applicable to my situation.hahaha.

anyway i think the world is full of touching people.my course manager is really niceee.maybe next time i'll be a chinese teacher too.hahaaa.just kidding.

since God did a miracle for me by putting me in chinese studies, i shall study real hard!

i'll be a chinese scholar! :)

最近在读‘神的孩子都在跳舞’，村上春树著。但有点读不懂耶。。他的表达方式很另类。


最近也在听“倔强”。真的觉得它完完全全形容了我报读中文系的艰辛。哈哈。夸张。

“当我和世界不一样
那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说就是以刚克刚
我如果对自己不行
如果对自己说谎
即使别人原谅 我也不能原谅

最美的愿望一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神 在我活的地方

我和我最后的倔强
握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂
就算失望不能绝望

我和我骄傲的倔强
我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂
就这一次我和我的倔强

对 爱我的人别紧张
我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏 眼神越是发光
你不在乎我的过往
看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过才能出现凤凰

逆风的方向更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡 只怕自己投降”

真的真是个超棒的歌。


nowadays every lesson is conducted in chinese.i've been hearing so much chinese that i think its so funny.haha.so today psychology was in english and all of us were yipeeing cos its our first english lesson.haha.

school is awesome. :)

i love school.it was awesome.i've learnt much and connected much too. :)

i am super excited you know.really.everything that the teacher said today,i just wanna learn everything as much as i can.

my language may not be as superb as some of the students,but i believe that i can make it.


and..i'm feeling so happy now.i've been searching for this certain song for quite sometime now and i thought i dont have it in my itunes,but i went to listen some of the tracks and i realised i do have it.its like a jigsaw piece fitting into place.. :)






ps. i have a really good timetable i feel.i have no school on fridays! yipee! :) and i dont have lessons next mon too, so i'll have a 4day break.haha.

wah

i really cant wait to do all the essays in the world.i really cant wait to read all the books in the world.and i really cant wait to soak myself in the student days again.i really cant wait to take exams too.

i am really super excited for monday.seriously.


whenever i think of monday i'll be smiling. :)




ahhhhhh!! i am starting school! yay!!!!

you know i'm still in shock.like today when i went down np to submit those stuff, i had an inkling that they would say "ooh! sorry sorry it wasnt you who got accepted!".hahahaha.

seriously everything is so surreal, seeing my name printed on the envelope and having an online acct thing with their student portal net.hahaaa.

i'm really very grateful.seriously.




and baptism photos!since cally is not uploading i shall do it. :)

GOD IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!

seriously its like this immense relief.

nowadays every waking moment,its constantly on my mind.sleeping,walking,talking,eating.seriously every moment.

and its like, God seriously answers prayers you know.i've never prayed so hard for anything before.

and really,it was so impossible a few days ago.but God, saved the day.


i really dont know what to say lei seriously.

just now as i was brushing my teeth i was smiling too.

i'm just so happy.


and soooo grateful. :) God is so good.

4-2 to liverpool.

seriously this kinda match.is not good for health.

you know that kind of intense emotion one has to go through during that 90mins?

but yes!!!

V for VICTORY! :) :)

oreo cheesecake,
guo tie with lots of vinegar,
mr bean's pearly soya,
polar's tuna puff,
vivio's sashimi,
cookies n cream icecream.

i'm so hungry.

its kinda scary actually.

i dont know why i did the things that i did.

and how was i supposed to know things would turn out this bad.

theres no warning signs at all.

please keep me in your prayers.

"do you know what is eternity?

eternity means having no fear. no financial difficulties, no obstacles, no family problems. that no matter what happens, you close your eyes, and when you open them, the next thing you know is that God is there."

this came as a revelation to me while helping out in SOT on friday.

the power of eternity is really wow.

“十字军从东方凯旋 献上最美的诗篇
你的魔法爱情的霸权 为你臣服为你捍卫”

so what does it mean?its 香水 by 五月天.

i wiki-ed it and i realised that it means "Crusades".

wow and i learnt so much.

part of why Crusades were started because the Muslims got more and more successful in conquering Middle East and North Africa, and eventually, one of the heads ordered for destruction of the places which included Church of the Holy Sepulchre, where the ground it stands is the Hill of Calvary where Jesus was crucified, died, buried.

and so, the crusaders set out to retake the Holy Land, staging wars against the Muslims.

and this was where 'remission of sins' was much debated, where some thought that by retaking Jerusalem, they would go straight to heaven.

some thought that if they die fighting for Jerusalem, they'll have the 'remission of sins'. which had a bit of controversy in it because it means that if they succeeded in retaking, they wont be able to claim it.

so in modern times, basically 'crusade' means campaigns to 'root out evil'.

okay,my whole point of this whole post (a bit too much to take in hor) is that,isnt it amazing? that..the blood of Jesus, the name of Jesus, they are all so precious.

that you dont need debates,you dont need to go to war now,you dont need all the chaos, to receive this precious gift.contrary to what people believed then.

now,we only need to believe, then we can have the everlasting life like what John 3:16 said.

:)

you know just now when i received eugene's 6-smses-long sms,i was so touched that i nearly did cry.

seriously,with this guy,i've experienced all the highs and lows. times when he wasnt very nice, and times when he was super nice. and me,eugene,peter started out as "bro"s.hahaha.

but then again, its all worth it.seeing lives changed.little by little. :)

you know nowadays.i'm so easily affected.i feel heavy all the time.i feel lost,i feel undecided.at times, i even dont want to face reality.

you know they say, 'chase after your dreams'.
these few days, let me tell you, i've felt a pinch of that feeling.
i've been chasing my dream.i am chasing my dream.



these few days, God has been so good.
there were so many times i dont know what to do, i cried and cried and God just showed up.

just now i was just sitting there, feeling overwhelmed,and heavy hearted again.i stopped all that i was doing, grab a notebook and my bible and i just told God everything, i talked to him, told him how afraid i am.and tears just flowed down my cheeks.

yes i do love God.
there'll come a point in your life, that you'll realise.
He cares the most, He loves you the most, He understands you the most, He sees your passion burning like no one does, He sees your desires and dreams, He sees your broken heart and cries with you, He is just there with you.

i was sitting there, crying, scared. and God was there. His presence. it broke my heart.

it is just a love.so overwhelming.

that reaches out to your deepest sorrow, and begins to heal. it is not pushy. it is gentle. when everything just fits perfectly.


the most comforting thing is that, He understands. and He is God, what can He not do?


i know you will be there for me.

yayyy my mood got instantly lifted.

cos i just finished emailing yay yay!

yep,me and loy bought adorable notepads from topshop.and its so pretty.

we were extremely motivated by pastor tan, so we decided to start our to do list.we will see our progress this sunday.hee.

we are all surrounded by love dont you think?

wheeee.I LOVE YOU ALL YOU PEOPLE.haha.extremely touched by some of you who went all the way out to ensure that i'm fine. :)



ps. I LOVE SUSHI FROM VIVO MARKETPLACE. its cheap the wasabi is WOW enough its filling its generous its NICE!

i crave their sushi every day.seriously. :)

and cally i love you everyday too!muahaha.

那感觉。。很矛盾。很复杂。很不知所措。很无奈。很无助。

这几天，心情一直在‘希望’与‘没希望’两边拉扯。

那种惊吓，真的很虚假。

此刻，心情很莫名地乱。


我知道，我真的知道。
现在，只有你明白，只有你能。

我自从那件事后，第一次又感觉到前方看不到路。





"God will never waste any experience that you go through.."