hello.

haha.just ate like,12 guo tie.i'm like still hungry.i ate bar chor mee + bubble tea+the guo ties okay..i'm still so hungry.whats happening to your dear tingting??haahahaha.drinking yakult to repent from my sin.cos i'll run for the toilet later.haha.

well..went to buy soccer boots with yulan today.and all i can say that if that shoes are meant to be yours,it'll be yours.haha.then she was doing her pw and i thought the topic was pretty predictable but i dont think anyone has got a perfect answer for it.if i'm not wrong its something like,someone changing the world then write and do research about it but of course in the positive way.

if i rewrite the question,someone who changed the world that you look up to as well..who will you answer?haaa.such a predictable question but i always dont have an answer to it.

then i was thinking about the contrast of the ending of a day and the beginning of a day.of course new days new beginnings are good but dont you think so that alot people dont always end the day well to embrace a new day?

well..i've always liked the silence of the night better.i love to see the day ending and then just go to sleep..like how one by one my family goes to sleep,how the swimming pool's light goes off,and then i'll stand by the window and count how many lighted windows are there still left.haha.and wondering whats keeping them up still.

i dont know how to explain but i just thought the ending of a day and the beginning of another day the ironic and contrast is pretty interesting.how come we always look forward to a new day when all else fail?how come it doesnt occur to us that its as important to end off the day well too..?or because before dawn,everything's the darkest so we always look forward to a new day?

anyway,digressing,both of my fave hongkong dramas are ending soon.so saddening.. :(

HAHAHA.see the picture!hahaha.see the one i draw with red and here???hahahha!THAT IS MY SEAT FOR THE CONCERT MAN..ohmann..heeeee.. :) so sososo so very very happy. :)

好爱阿信写的这首歌：

我骄傲的破坏
我痛恨的平凡
才想起那些是我最爱
让盛夏去贪玩
把残酷的未来
狂放到光年外(而现在)
放弃规则放纵去爱
放肆自己放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯
让定律更简单
让秩序更混乱
这样的青春我才喜欢
我要我疯我要我爱就是
我要我疯我要我爱现在
一万首的mp3一万次疯狂的爱
灭不了一个渺小的孤单
盛夏的一场狂欢来到了光年之外
长大难道是人必经的溃烂
我不转弯我不转弯

《盛夏光年》

and i realised penny dai has got some cool stuff too i linked her space you can go and see. :)

刚刚在网上看五月天在新加坡的签唱会，每次看他们那种感觉…是无法形容的。看着他们卖命演出，好喜欢好喜欢他们哦…

spiritual stuff aside,they really really changed my life like a lot.my beliefs my aspirations my dreams..its really very amazing that they really really changed such a big part of me..at first I bought their album cos I thought the changing covers thing is cool and then I thought the album was pretty nice so I just continued buying and then don’t know how..their magic kicked in.

then i started to use the thinking part of me and how we can see the world in so many different angles.you can say its my first step of maturity..and things havent been the same since.

actually you can say that yanzi was like my first ever singer that i really idolized.cos she was the first one who really amazed me by her singing.then i wanted to be like her so i kept singing her songs.and then..hahaha.it was her that broke my first thought of stardom too cos my family was criticising me that i dont have a singer's voice so i actually sucked in singing then i remembered i was so heartbroken that time i cried big time until my mum gotta console me and say shes just kidding,which i till now,know shes telling the truth about my bad singing.hahhaha.

but really..mayday's like..magic.i practically gotta bite my fingers while watching them cos i'm really that extreme.and this certain yuan with them..like whenever my ipod's on shuffle mood,and i'm feeling down,somehow,it will always shuffle to mayday's songs and then i feel so good again.haha.

aiya..dont know how to describe la but its really cool to have a band or a certain musician you can connect to.its very soul fulfilling.its like chicken soup to your soul.haha.

haha.i tell you,one day,i will have the chance and time to tell them how much they changed my life. :) and surina,i will help you tell them you love them too.haha.

haaa.was watching renci just now..admit that its really quite touching.that kinda determination and love and endurance its like piercing through the tv into my heart kinda thing..hahaha sounds so poetic.but wells.hahaha.

anyway..i realised i really am not that affected by my family stuff.though when i see the cake in the fridge and the new plants and stuff,i will feel touched and sad and stuff but well..life goes on.i'm not adopting a 'living a too accepted life' policy but i just feel that seriously,i have nothing to be afraid of and scared or anything to fear of cos i know and i know and i know that i am already very blessed and though it will be valleys so deep that will soon come,but i just know that my daddy will be with me through everything.its really so so much more comforting to know that someone hurts and understands you completely.you dont even need to explain.after sy rogers service i was so so touched cos i can really practically feel God's pain when he sees me going through all these alone.and that alone is enough for me.

so now i can just throw aside everything and really to not think about it anymore cos somebody will settle it for me and then can fully focus on more pressing issues.i'm very determined to change what we have in a month's time.at least to see some improvements..it really burdens me to see everyone's condition like that.

theres so many things to do and i really hope theres still time.

well nowadays..'quitted' my job,(cos i'm not very sure yet i havent done the exit interview..haa.)and got myself a little notebook to write all the random stuff.and life's pretty much in the change..new cell group,new responsibilities,new environment,new challenges to face.can really feel that sudden change in everything..and sometimes,changes are like a very cold shower when the hot water breaks down and you realise a lot of things harshly.

but in anyway,its up to me to make the best of what comes my way.so i'm not complaining but leaving everything i hold closest to me to my dear father up there.. :)

i was watching the tv just now cos my mama watching some politics stuff then heard that USA gonna attack iran now after the iraq saga cos of dont know what reason.it was channel 52.then during the advertisement my mum switch to channel 51 then it was very passionately playing some hope and peace music.then i was thinking the contrast is pretty weird.

people with the most influential positions and the power to change systems and decisions but trying to complicate this world up and on the other side,the human nature of all beings is trying to use the soul and getting the message across that hope peace love is more important.its just like flesh vs soul.just like what pastor said,if only those with the power to validate can really use the leadership positions to try to change human nature,the world will be so much different.

but really,this battle of greed and lust of the flesh will always be in full force against the delicate human touch of every soul..and its so saddening..