hello.

THIS IS STILL THE THING THAT MAKES ME EXCITED AND YES!ITS GONNA START IN A FEW MINS TIME!MATCH VS PORTO WHICH IS SO IMPORTANT.



I REALLY CANT WAIT!! :)


anyway hahaha random stuff.'this is anfield' is really quite high one,i can barely touch it. (my sister cant reach it.LOL.)

well i was reading some rich brat's blog just now.and was discussing about them with cally just now.and omg the money they have is like monopoly's money to us la.

seeing their lifestyles,all about partying and clubbing and drinking and having fun and dressing prettily,i'm like,theres soooooo much more to life than all these!

but cant really blame them cos thats the way they are brought up.dont really need to work hard for anything in their lives before.having 12million houses at their disposal and long driveways. (all these can be only achieved in yahoo games).

like the days we spent walking home cos we have no more cash in our ezlink cards to take bus,and to think they have their own drivers?

and the number of holidays we spent working hard and waking up early to go for work,and they have all the time that they want to sleep and go to parties and dress prettily with expensive dresses that we cant even buy with our whole month of wages?

but all i can say is that i'm glad i'm me.i will work hard and make myself a millionaire.not spoonfeed by my parents.it'll be my own hard earned money.and the things that i see and sense and feel is way deeper than all the layers of makeup they have added together.



cheers to life with meaning,not superficially.

hey hey!

hahahaha.i'm a happy girl now.cos my cousin cooked half a pac of maggie for me.heeeee.so nice hor!

but anyway,nowadays i've been soakin up the presence of time magazines.hahaha.its really cool!

and i've been reading about the good and bad moral sides of human beings.

and its so interesting.

they were debating that this 'core of morality' is shared with animals,eg chimpanzee.and the things that they do is the sweetest la!

theres this woman who raised a chimpanzee at home.and it'll climb up her roof very often,so she got to coax it down.she offered food,scolded it,persuaded it and tried all sorts of ways,it just didnt want to come down.

but when she sat down and pretended to cry,the chimpanzee actually came down that instant and ran around the place looking for the 'offender',and it went to the woman and took her chin in his palm,as if to calm her and soothe her down.

after i read this i was like awwww can.that kind of empathy and such that you find in animals is sometimes even greater than mankind.

like,even if your friend really do feel down and all,sometimes we cant even find that kind of genuine concern.

those animals really make me go wow.and thinking,human really has got this thing huh.

this self-centeredness.and this issue on morality.

they were saying too that they did a research on little kids,when a teacher set a rule not to eat in classroom,but when the rule is lifted,they'll happily comply.but when the same teacher told them its okay to push another kid off the chair,they'll think,no the teacher shouldnt say that.

so time was saying we were born with a set of values,but our environments and cultures taught us how to apply them.

thats why we all end up different in our moral system.

hahaha.interesting article.

AND LOY.it was fun talking to you!!!!hahahaha.

AND LAM,i'm sorry.hahahaha.promise you'll not kill me after you know. :)

haahaha.surprise.tingting is not yet asleep at 4.51am.

england match la.aiyo.im very nervous for them can.esp today gerrard captain la.he'll be very disappointed.

its halftime now and england is trailing 2-0!if russia wins..then hosay la.just need a draw la.its so agonising to watch them play.with all the quality they have!

oh,and i just realised the wembley stadium which they are currently playing in now is one of the pictures pastor showed us.lol.

and while waiting for 2nd half,i searched for the pics!

correct right!i remember i was very amazed by the shops-inside-stadium idea that i screamed at it when it was showed.lol.

wooo the pretty arch.haahaha.

and wembley during 'live earth london'!omg!its like smaller than ants la!

lol.i personally think this is sooooooo cool.i'll immediately have this,'GO ENGLAND' feel after seeing it.but was thinking if its 'we are singapore',there wont be much kick.lol.

and remember the inside picture of a stadium pst showed us?its wembley too!it sits 90,000, cost 2,326,676,286 SGD to build!!omg!!

yayyyyyy 2nd half!!!omg.lets hope england learn the style of liverpool and do a magnificent comeback. :)

(and its pretty fun seeing the players sliding all around the muddy field and dirtying their jerseys with mud stains.lol.)

soccer always is an excuse to stay up late.heee.i can just migrate to london and adjust perfectly with my body clock screwed up like this.haha.

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WOO CROUCH JUST SCORED.CROUCHIE SAVES THE DAY.WOOOO.

tingting needs a job,seriously.

you know,i just dont understand WHY.one day it seems that all the jobs are available and sent dontknow how many resumes.and with good high paying ones too!

BUT.the next few days,there can be absolutely no more news from the companies,AND,even if i was shortlisted,the person who was supposed to give me info abt the interview just disappears!

and just when i thought i have a good job,and i contacted the person and all,they got to tell me that they have no more jobs available.





God!why?

i just need a good job!


BUT i will trust in You.You provide,and You know.i dont know why everything's been dragging for so long,and sometimes i'm real frustrated.i dont know why everything is like against my favour out there,but i know You are trying to teach me something precious.and yes,i'll trust in You.i'll fulfill my pledge.



i'll pray and pray and pray and pray.yes!

i was buying contact lens solution for xiaoting today.the guy who served me actually didnt do much but somehow,he touched me in a deep way.

he wasnt goodlooking at all,his complexion wasnt very good,his hair wasnt the in style,in another words,hes not very eloquent,just not your prince charming type.way off from it.but hes real polite and patient when teaching his staff.

but then,this image just for a moment,warmed my heart so so much.i just suddenly feel the love for him,in a godly way.and it just struck me that its so amazing that we can learn something from everyone.each and every person you pass by,you can actually learn something from them.they have something you dont,something which can edify you.

for a moment,truly understood why each of us is so precious.even though there may be billions of people on this earth,take heart that you are 1/10000000000 and that you have that something that people can learn from and is just so uniquely yours.

its like through all these small little things God was speaking and telling me.and sometimes when i am walking alone,looking and studying all the people around me,my heart just break,theres such a desire to give altar call and see them getting saved.

and God told me today,tingting,start by your friends,spread this love.

i walked out of the shop in such anticipation.i believe in a divine love that will change the world. :)

i loveeee this blogskin dont know why.lol.

it reminds me of ah xin.

and i love the way the time,date,day stand out.(omg so when you scroll down you can actually see that i blog at ungodly hours.hahaha.)

and i just love,the pictures,cos it really reminds me of ah xin.hahaha.

eh,i still think the previous post the "i didnt want to be ordinary" is so cool can.still thinking abt it.lol.

was reading a book today.and i was laughing at this cos it was pretty direct and straight forward and what i am feeling exactly.

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"whats wrong with that job you got, anyhow?"

i pictured the sales office, the steel desks, the dim, fluorescent lights.

"i didnt want to be ordinary."



hahaaaha.thats why i was so reluctant to apply for admin jobs or some data entry or sales promoter or some retail job,because i feel that theres not much breakthroughs needed and i wont be able to experience a whole new industry or have something extra that excites me,that opens and widens my eyes.office jobs are boring.

but well,after so many months of vain 'labour' in finding jobs,i give up.haaaha.alot people keep asking why am i slacking away and stuff,but eh,the truth is,i sent out thousands (exaggerating) of emails and resumes to various media related companies okay!aiya,but just that maybe the timing not right.so forget it.haha.

i was offered quite good admin jobs today.sent my resume over and waiting for reply.hee.one of them really excites and makes me go wow. :)

tomorrow,which in fact,is today,is my grandpa's 49th day.so my mum is going to the temple and all.yeah.cant believe time passed just like that.but i'm glad i DID make progress.haaaaha.




another para from the book which was quite interesting:

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"divorce" in latin:in truth, it comes from "divertere", which means "to divert".

i believe that.all divorce does is divert you, taking you away from everything you thought you knew and everything you thought you wanted and steering you into all kinds of other stuff, like discussions about your mother's girdle and whether she should marry someone else.

today's service was awesome.

i tell you a secret k.last time whenever Pst Ulf came,i'll fall asleep during one part of the sermon and i'll feel so guilty.i didnt understand back then why it was xiaoting's favouritest guest speaker,didnt understand why everyone just loves Pst Ulf.

but today when i went,i was determined to really pull something from the man of God.i didnt want to waste any more time,really wanted to listen to every word that he says.and the previous night i slept real late,and surprise!i didnt fall asleep nor feel any ounce of sleepiness at all today.

you know,everything comes from the heart.'a willing mind'.i really really wanted to learn something from Pst Ulf,and when he was preaching up there,i practically hung onto every word that he said.and i was so blessed.

some stuff actually i believe that most of us know or heard before.but i remembered darren in bs he said that sometimes,repeated sermons may be boring to some,but to him,it is even more important than any other sermons because God purposely repeated it so that we can catch something we didnt the last time.

i was totally blown away by what he preached.its like now,everything is a revelation to me.i'm gonna pray and pray and fast! :)

you know,today while praising God,Pst Ulf walked past us.and i have no idea why but i was so impacted that very instant.like whoosh!wow.that aura that he carries,i can even feel an unexplainable joy when he walked past.

and i told God,this is what i'm living for.everything.





you know what,these few months had been really stressful and really stretched me so much emotionally.i just cant believe that i have to go through all these.ytd i just cried and cried and cried.i almost couldnt take it anymore.

i gave up some very precious stuff that arent very right.and actually,i kinda miss my dad in a way.

theres alot of times when i walk alone and wondering wheres everyone?and looking around and found wounds that God needs to heal.

theres alot of times when i look back and wonder,actually what i went through/am going through,is actually really nothing compared to other people's troubles.but it is just something that i need God in.its a hole,that needs to be filled with His love.

and thank God,each and everytime i cry and cry out to God,Hes always there.comforting me.it may sound absurb to some,but hey,Hes so real to me.

right here right now,all i want to say is that,i wouldnt have made it so far without God and what He promised me.

yes,i still need God to heal me.emotionally.

and thank God that each time after every 'crying session',i'll be filled with joy and optimism.

yes Lord,i am willing.

hellooo.haahaha.i'm so happy nowadays.ever since building fund weekend.hee.

what i pledged was really by faith.i have no job yet,zero income,unstable pocket money.but yet,i believe i'll get a super job with high-paying salary,at the same time,i can learn and befriend more people. :)

i've been praying and praying and i know it'll come to pass.

i'm planning to fulfil my pledge in 4-5 months time.i'm really excited at pledging and i just cant wait to give and give.

every night before i fall asleep,i'll lie on my bed dreaming and visualizing the stadium.where the seats are,the super sound system,the uber big LED screen,the pretty ulterior,the pretty toilets! yes!i'm so excited by pretty toilets.hahaha.and all the crazy ideas just run through my mind.haha.

and i'll be like, God!I'm so thankful to be part of this! its so amazing and wow.

i'm so excited and hyped up.whatever that will happen in these few years.

so nowadays,i've been saving money.haha.like,returning home for dinner (can save alot!),asking my mum to help me buy stuff instead of me buying (lol,quite jian.but well,it saves alot too!lol).

yayyyyyyy.looking forward. :)

you know what?life sucks without the language bar.cant wait for my sis to come back tmr so i can use the laptop and use my chinese.

reflecting back,i realised this year,God,to me,is more of a fatherly figure than last year.maybe because of my lack in an earthly one.

and these few days,i feel such a closeness and intimacy that i've never felt before.

and i really cherish it.

i cant believe that 10mins of serious badminton (the rest of the time spent sitting down or just aimlessly aiming with my racket.haha.cos 3/4 of the time i miss it) with jj is making my right hand and legs ache like dontknowwhat.

tingting needs more exercise.