hello.

new house.

therein lies new dreams, new hopes, new expectations for the future. time to grow up, time to take on more responsibilities, time to be more understanding. i dont know if its me, but everytime we move.. i feel alot. more than deciding the design etc.. it is about the change.. and the environment.. the people..

new insights.

spending alot of time with my mum and my sister recently. opened my eyes.. its not easy at all.. the sacrifices.. the love..



questions.. difficult.. can i?


alot of times.. i feel so disappointed. yep i do. many things.


but we all know that all things work together for good for those who love Him yeah?
i'll give you all my disappointments.. help me..

i really like The Hills opening. it kinda makes me v happy to watch it.
i really like Lauren and Whitney as well. i think they are soo prettyyyyyyyy. and they have nice clothessssssss.


after not watching GG for so long, i completely catch nothing.
but i am still very much in love with Serena's hair though. it all falls nicely just at all the right places.


and on monday, i'll have 3 new nail polish colours that sound exciting and happening. yay!

(no it doesnt sound bimbotic at all i know what you are thinking.)

does any of you can even guess what the title is about?? lol!
it kept me amused for quite some time of the day.



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i dont need popularity, i dont need to have alot alot alot of friends.
i dont need alot of attention, i dont need to talk alot.
i dont need to have a super happening life, i dont need to line my schedule up with parties and outings.


even as i realised things.. saw things..
these things irk me even more.. makes me even more repulsive.

no i dont need all that. thank you very much.

i'll be happy enough with a good book at home.
i'll be happy enough with a handful of real friends who'll stick with me thru thick and thin.
i'll be happy enough to just sit at the table laughing with my sister.

i'll be happy enough with God everyday of my life.

sianzxzzxxx.

siannzzzzz why am i feeling so sianzzzzx...



dont think dont think!!



不要想不要想！

i will miss wong kt. :(


he has been irritatingly part of my life of the past 7 months.


sinking in..

my bangs are obscuring half of my vision now. i see hair in front of me all the time.



but the other time when i attempted to trim it, it was so uneven that it was scary.


looking at the pictures that we took.. cant even make out my eyes seriously. it is just hair.



hmmmm.


i need to learn to sleep early.

my day kinda starts at 12pm everyday.


have been watching The Hills lately. its really quite a bimbotic show. but well it is quite fun.

now i know why people like Lauren and no one likes Heidi and Spencer. lol.


and how the term 'Best Friend' is so overused and underrated in that show it makes me feel like barging in and re-act everything for them. but i feel so sad for Lauren. :( am only at season 2.









lovessss the feeling of finally having music while out alone. and being in my own world with my music again. :)
makes me happyyyyyy.


okay. today i'm gonna work hard hard k.

while waiting for the bunch of people. i had alot of time to spare. was at pasir ris. so just randomly thought of walking to my old house..


that feeling was funny though. you know when you are so used to a place, you'll create your own shortcuts and routes on how to walk home. so i was wandering through my own made up route back there..



saw that the bus stops had a new coat of blue paint..
those familiar passageways.. those familiar playgrounds.. familiar bridge..
but other than that.. nothing much changed.



walked through the whole park.. the canal.. saw the old apartment from a distance..




in life.. there are so many things we got to learn to let go.
it may seem hard at first. painful. very painful.

but when you get the chance to revisit that place, and that memory, and that same pathway..
you'll realise how much stronger you've grown.
nothing changed on the outside.
but something changed on the inside.


a nice half an hour spent with myself.

wilson koh posted this on fb.

i miss the 4D peeps!

and what was ying elaine jolene and i thinking man?! whats up with the broomstick!

转眼间，我们都快要毕业3年了。

《我》

还记得小时候

作文簿上的志愿

那天真的幻想

如今都到哪里躲藏

《生存以上生活以下》

小时候 只要看天空

枕著白云 就觉得全世界都拥有

长大了 拥有的更多

为何感觉 到越来越匮乏越贫穷

《一颗苹果》

我想到遥远遥远的以后会不会有人知道我

在这个寂寞的星球曾这样的活过

喔遥远遥远的以后天长和地久的尽头

应该没有人能抢走我永远的感动

《我心尚未崩坏的地方》

宁愿重伤也不愿悲伤

让伤痕变成了我的徽章

刺在我心脏 永远不忘

《如烟》

有没有那么一种永远　永远不改变　

拥抱过的美丽都　再也不破碎

让险峻岁月不能在脸上撒野　

让生离和死别都遥远　有谁能听见

《约翰蓝侬》

能不能暂时把你的梦想给我

在勇气快消失的时候

总有一天要人们叫我披头

最后没成功也作过最美的梦

《倔强》

当我和世界不一样

那就让我不一样

最美的愿望一定最疯狂

the songs arrangement was so deliberate and excellent. there is a story flow and you go through every emotion in the song.. to the max.

each concert, they have a certain theme.

that changes the world. that challenges the society. that gives our soul food for thought.

so this year.. it was the DNA theme.

“我好想复制一个新的自己，如果不行，那我要复制一个新的世界。”

一颗小红豆要挑战世界。 :)

you gotta give them credit for always bringing such positivity into this world. its not always that easy.

我在最后几首歌，还是落泪了。哈哈。

3h45min.

真希望每年都唱到那么爽。

i dont know how to say.. but.. i really really love mayday!

after the concert, went back to reread all the lyrics of the songs. and it gave me an even deeper insight.

always in amazement by that kinda songs that ahxin/mayday write.

looking forward to concert next year! though i dont know if i'll be in singapore or china. :( it'll be great if i can attend both side's though. haha.

(they sang ALL of my fave songs ever. including those that they dont normally sing! :):) )

finally finally watched up. it was a really touching movie. so simple and straightforward but it contains so much truth in it.


and i'm really amazed at how JLYX can just ramble off after the movie ended about everything that he learnt and saw. and abt society abt the old man's feelings and all. seriously i was like thinking in my heart thats really something i cant do. lol! i always need to process, to think, and to put words into the feelings that i've felt. and thats why i kept quiet okay.. haha. not that i'm slow.




was reminded of some random blog that i read before, that when you are a child, your emotions and feelings, your moods, your ambitions, your wants and needs, get so amplified and loud in a sense. that everything is shown so clearly on the child's face or actions. and throughout the whole movie.. saw russell's innocence and sincerity through his moods and actions.

and sometimes.. dont you just envy a child? their world is still yet 'corrupted' and yet 'influenced'. so simple and so pure. every agenda and every intention is good from the bottom of his heart. and i think it speaks alot about most adults today. when we grow up, we allow different things all around to get us. and our insecurities start to act up. our confidence is challenged. etc etc. and sometimes you just need such innocence to remind you of this.



and also, about dreams. these few days had alot of input abt dreams stuff. esp after mayday's concert. lol. yep. and one thing that really got me. is that.. no matter how big or how ridiculous or how impossible your dream sounds.. how far will you actually go?

and even as we grow up.. those dreams that we dreamt when we were young. those dreams that are out of the world. dreams that were birthed forth by passion. where are they? do we still actively pursue it? or do we allow ourselves to sink into mediocrity?



and what jx blogged abt Up got me too.

quote: "sometimes it is the most boring stuff that i remember the most"-russell.


when he said that in the movie i totally smiled. sometimes really.. it is the simplest of things that can bring such contentment and satisfaction. like for him, counting the cars while sitting on the curb. cute right?

yes we are made for greatness. yes we should aim high. yes we dream big. but no.. dont forget the simple things. dont forget the little things. those things that money truly cant buy. that even by counting cars, eating ice cream sitting on the curb.. it can be such a happy and fulfilling time spent. (and i guess its something that Voldemort wont understand as well. lol!)

and i think my future husband needs to enjoy doing 'boring' stuff too. cos i totally enjoy them. haha.





you know sometimes, a little kid can actually teach a grown up so much stuff. interesting huh?





kkkkk i should be zzzzzz-ing. gotta wake at 645am. :( going to school on teachers' day while everyone else is having holidays is the most sianest thing ever.