hey you, living for tomorrow.
you sell your dreams for a pocket of change
hey you, smokin' up your sorrow.
just pointing fingers at someone to blame
hey you,screamin for attention.
once you get it you throw it away.

Try and find your better half now.
Open your eyes, and find yourself.

haaha okay i just realised that ashlee has got some meaningful stuff after all.first album.these are the things that stuck in my head.haa.the screamin for attention one is pretty true..no?once you get it you throw it away.haa.yeah.

my sunshine's all around. (=

haa my dad's not returnin yet.

home.family.that makes the most impt part in everyone's life..its like in what kind of environment you grow up in,you'll turn out to be who you are.

okay not sure why i'm sharin this.but..some things are happenin between my dad and some guys.i dont act affected.i dont think i am.but am i after all?i guess i am too immune by all these things that are happenin..till a point where i dont know that..i'm affected.because when the house is quiet,i'll always think like..why cant my dad act more sensibly?think of the family..?you know..he'll always always tell me off for being this and that.but..its just like..it reflects more of what a not understandin father he is..and not takin the effort to.its like these days hes off to china for almost weeks.and you know what?i feel happier without him.its not supposed to be like that right?i think i'm going through a phase where i dont feel affected but when everything's still..i know i am.imagine a family with both parents still alive but actin as if they are strangers.aint it better if they are separated?i know this is not the worst kind of case around..but when you are in this kind of situation..will you really stop to look at others?and i know too that friends talked to me abt it before..and i felt convinced.but then..it all goes back.

now is the time that a little bit of thing i get really pressurized.its like..a little bit of something i'll feel like cryin.why?like i've said,i dont feel affected.but i am.why this contradict?its like i'm really touchy nowadays..especially with our reputation really smelly with the guys in school now.i feel really frustrated.yes i know i should not.xt just lectured us today.and ya..it inspired me somehow.cos i remembered pst kong sayin before that if theres gossip,you know that you are doing something to stir them,or they'll not even bother.ya..so i'm still tryin to encourage myself.find new doors to be opened.

oh God,i just pray i will get through this.but even if i do..please do not let everything get back to square one again.but then again i realised..in all my life..the root of the problem never did solve and never will..