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The Strain - Chuck Hogan/Guillermo Del Toro


"I really don’t want to say anything about this book … I think it works best if you know nothing about the story before you read it and just let it freak you RIGHT out. I will tease the plotline a bit by saying that a mysterious incident befalls a plane full of people and figuring out what the hell is going on is freaky as hell. I have not been this disturbed from reading a book since I read Cormac McCarthy’s The Road. I had a hard time sleeping last night … it’s that good. I highly recommend it to all y’all." - PITNB


that was why i started reading the book i mentioned in the previous post.

and yes it is freaky like hell how the plot and story just reveal itself slowly.

i was soooo hooked from clementi to tampines. and as i turned the pages, at every twist of the story i was like with eyes wide open reading it that kinda thing.

yeap and thats why i just cant read it alone at home cos i'll have hair standing and all.

its seriously quite good. and i havent even reach the halfway mark yet!




and i'm pretty sure this book will end up as a movie!! cant wait!!

i am going to become bald soon seriously.

i drop hair like... erm.. a dog or something.


luckily my bed is black (still think its chioness), so cant see alotttt of dropped hair.
i think its because my hair is long = appears to look like alot when actually, its only 1 strand.



but sigh. depressing.

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am currently reading this book!

got to be one of the scariest book i've ever read! i dont dare to read alone when i'm at home, it creeps me! lol!

but its a nice try out of the usual genres that i normally read. :)

but this book is madddd heavy though. my shoulders were aching like mad when i carried it ard with my dear moleskin around orchard that day. still aching now!


but im so excited to complete it! :)

i think one of the greatest lesson anyone can learn is love.
not just love, but love from the heart.
and a love that sacrifices, and not one that is self-centered.


in this big big world that we live in, taking care of our own needs, looking out for ourselves, perhaps is the safest and the best way to survive isnt it?
and in turn, being self-centered.


but really, the greatest love is not kept, it is given.


and that is one of the greatest lessons i myself have to learn.
because true love and care can be felt.
heart to heart is appreciated n cherished.
peel away those layers and learn...

there is this thing that i feel really strongly against about.
and since its 4am and i cant fall asleep, i just thought i'll do a random post of it.


and that is, athletic shoes with jeans is a complete no NO!


(even if theres a cute baby girl)



(and by athletic shoes i mean these)



i cringe and sometimes i even shudder when i see people dressing like that. i'm sorry but athletic shoes are just not meant to be with jeans. girls/guys alike. guys MAYBE sometimes a little more forgivable but arghhh! they are meant for the gym/running etc! NOT for going out!!

i am very cek ark in this area just like how my name must be tingting and not ting ting.


this sudden rush was because i was reading some tabloid blog and i saw a celebrity wearing athletic shoes WITH jeans. and she looked SO GOOD from jeans up! and i was like woahhh. and then i looked down and saw the athletic shoes and i was like NOOOOOO! completely minus off ALL marks even if she got full marks.


i'm sorry if you are reading this and you happen to wear athletic shoes with jeans. this is just my honest opinions and seriously, there are 101 ways out there to pair shoes with jeans that will actually enhance and make your look great instead of these shoes.


okay now maybe i can fall asleep. but then again, if i fall asleep i wont be able to wake up.
arghhh. i shall do other random stuff instead.

alot of times how i wish 'i dont care' is effective.

cos seriously... 'i dont care' is like saying 'i do care very very much and thats why i dont wanna care'.


hah. im just saying...


but i really dont wanna care!

did research on Apple for one of the presentations n i love love love these following stuff:


1) In 1983, Steve Jobs lured John Sculley away from Pepsi-Cola to serve as Apple's CEO, asking, "Do you want to spend the rest of your life selling sugared water to children, or do you want a chance to change the world?"

2)


how inspiring is this ad!! its considered a masterpiece and what set Apple up to its success at the beginning! Be Different!

3) Steve Jobs: "There's an old Wayne Gretzky quote that I love. 'I skate to where the puck is going to be, not where it has been.' And we've always tried to do that at Apple. Since the very very beginning. And we always will."

loveeeeeeeee that quote!!!




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btw jiaxin, love how we share interests in hk drama, Apple, books etc. :) love you!

being girly now.


i seriously find it such a rush to buy nail polish.. i'm so addicted!! i keep buying and buying..!

the feeling of holding one in your hands... feeling of having new nail colours... woooo. haha.

hai but for now. i'm just gonna limit myself to colours that i know i'll stick by and not get sick of. heeeee.



this is my current fave fave fave. my private jet!
aiming for navy and brown next.. :)

because this sem was so awesome, here's another 3 more pics that i loveeee.



i loveeeeeee this picture!! haha. louis lovesss us. lol! last class of the sem :)



our v scary marketing presentation. haha. loveeee these people :) yx's amazing 1h transformation. lol!



loveeeee this grp presentation as well! hilarious!! :) (frm minmin's)



just saw tons of pics from caryn's fb. lol. our chio poster for photog!



yay now better go study for exam next week!!

i normally do have a high anger threshold level.



i normally do not cry unless something really provokes me.

this is one of the craziest sem i ever had. today while on the bus, i pondered and realised, this is the sem which kinda really taught me alot of new things. from totally new stuff to being reasonably okay with them. like knowing nuts about camera/photography, and now knowing at least all the basics and techniques. from knowing nothing about business/marketing etc, at least know i know whats the 4Ps and marketing mix etc.


i've really learnt alot.


and one of the most fulfilling modules is new media! photography. i had such fun in the class. though alot of times i felt SO discouraged and depressed cos i was really bad at taking pictures, but i must admit photography did teach me alot. from seeing things in a different angle and i've learnt to appreciate alot of things in real life.

now whenever i'm out and see a picture-perfect spot or a nice angle, i'll have the itch to immediately take that photo. and how one period of time, my whole mind was filled with 'perspective, shallow DOF, greater DOF, aperture etc etc' EVERYWHERE i go. take note of my surroundings and all.

and coming from me, i thought i wouldnt be that kind who'll say photography is cool. but after 20 weeks, i daresay that its one of the most touching form of communications out there. now, i've learnt how to appreciate stunning pictures, know how to value unique pictures cos people always see things from the camera's view, but not how it was taken. cos no one really knows what kinda difficulties the photographer has to go through.

seriously. now really pretty pictures blow me away even more. haha.

and so. we wrapped up our new media on tues :)


we also wrapped up our marketing today. it was one hell of a module. because it is the first ever business module we ever took. and alot of things, we were not used to it and not exposed to before.

so for today's presentation, well we didnt really prepare well. but it was okay.. learning experience. :)

and coming from me as well, i think marketing is cool! and evil in a way. cos its there everywhere and anywhere and you just fall into its traphole without knowing how and why. lol. and i think marketing is pretty exciting cos it challenges the boundaries and forces you to think out of the box. to express your creativity, and just to create.

its exciting to live in such times because now people are learning not to put boundaries on creativity and its so liberating. and exciting to see what people can come up with :)

so we'll wrap up presentation skills tmr, and on friday, globalization and intepretation.

jiayou!

here are some pictures:



love them! (a bit overdue). jasmine is so cute. heh.



my awesome new media team. so so proud :)

Bob Lee KS is one of the funniest teacher i've ever had. so direct, so into-your-face. but hes super cool and we love him :)


yayyyyyyyyyyy. two more days!!!!

one of the perks of having your own room - you can have your own k session even if its 3, 4am. :) been making my own playlist and singing very loudly.


i really wanna go for mayday's concert in april... sponsors anyone? :( it would be like the first ever concert i will be missing since i first started out with them.. makes me kinda sadddd... and it sounds amazingggg.. :( i know i always say money doesnt matter when it comes to mayday, but this time i do feel the pinch.. :( su will get me.


welcome to tingting's life. come home, KO till 11pm (i promise you you wont be able to get me during this time, that is how bad it is), wake up for dinner, watch the news, chiong work, then go to bathe at wee hours like 3-4am. and sleep.


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isnt it interesting that your mind and heart choose to capture and remember different scenes and images of our past and memories? depending on who you are and what you are like.

for eg, two different person + same past, you wont get the same memory and feelings.

even as you reencounter the different images and scenes in your mind, you'll come to realise just what kinda person you exactly are. the things that matter to you, the things that you deem precious. these things may not matter the same to another person.


our hearts capture different special moments in each of us which are dear to us. :)
some may fade away, but some are forever.

我要一所大房子
有很大的落地窗户
阳光洒在地板上
也温暖了我的被子

我要一所大房子
有很多很多的房间
一个房间有最快的网路
一个房间有很多的吉他
一个房间有我漂亮的衣服
一个房间住著朋友和他的爱人
一个房间一个房间
我也不知道该放些什么

我们晚上不睡觉
白天在床上思考
小狗在屋里奔跑
度过完美的一天
度过完美的一天


what a gorgeous houseeee. imagine waking up to that beauty every morning! with sunset n sunrise so visible outside your window! wonder where on earth all these pretty houses are?!
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this shocked me:

first time my adium notifications reached 208 msgs.

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i just finished my stuff but i'm afraid to sleep cos i wont be able to wake up. cos its only a while later that i need to get up. zzzzzzz.

i cant wait for CNY this year because it bids the deadlines goodbye and means i can enjoy my food.

Saturday - major rest day and major eating day.



my eyes are closingggg... howwwww...

i am being very serious here i am not even kidding.

i seriously think that the way powerpoint is done should be revolutionized. i just went to casually search to get some ideas, but i really shuddered at the quality of powerpoint design out there.

this is a very serious issue. powerpoint revolutionizing start with ourselves. and to be treated seriously. presentation is everything! (almost)


and everyone should just upgrade to keynote la. makes things x10000 easier and more beautiful.


be the best!!! stop lousy powerpointing!! join the campaign!!

昨日的单纯今天的实际像你
而你也早已不是你
我的心是一杯调和过的咖啡
怀念着往日淡薄的青草味
怀念着往日的坚持 和现在你我的改变


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来到了理工学院，才真正明白“个人观点”的重要性。
发现到每一个作业和呈现，最重要最关键的就是“个人观点”。
自己独特的看法和想法。


it also makes you realise just what kinda person you are. searching and finding that unique you. i think that process is pretty liberating. because you find out something about yourself that sets you apart from the rest. and how to be more confident and comfortable in your own skin.


and i pretty much think thats what poly is all about. and all those presentations, assignments, projects etc. they do push you in that direction. well to me at least.


letting the inner you shine :)
(sounds like a hair advertisement)

the marketing/photog/dannyyeo are making me a little crazyy already. and conlang is like the hardest module in our 3 yrs in NP.


grades are pretty much decided and finalised these few weeks.
FOCUSED.


i can do it.



then i can happily go for my internship already while the rest fly to china.


LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO!

sometimes i really wonder, how is it even possible that after such a long time... you just dont get it? how is it that... a heart can be so proud and so self-justifying? that how is it that i can be so numbed to all these anymore.. it doesnt strike me anymore like it used to. it is just facts to me. but i marvel... at your stubborness and your pride. at what expense? irreversible. and it doesnt affect only you, it affects a whole lot of people. forever. and the damage is way beyond imaginable. now what is there left to fight for? i remember very vividly what i wrote on the envelope that year. but i dont even carry such hope now. i dont even hope now. i shun and i avoid. i dont want to meet you. it irks me and it makes me feel uncomfortable. alot. i always cry at those same scenes and plotlines at every movie, and this, i guess not many will understand. and i guess thats the reason why i turn out this way too? was watching 'Taken', and how i wished for the same. and yeap, i teared at the end. i dont even know you. have you ever cared? have you ever loved? have you ever shown it? i dont know whats going to happen. this relationship.. has been mixed with so much hurts, cuts, wounds, disappointments, anger.. that it dissolves everything else. you played a cold role in my life. i wish i could say otherwise, i wish it was different. but nope. last year i cried alot about this. this time round... i guess it is numbed alr. good in a way. :)

goodbye to you then. :)


no one deserves to go through any of this.

sometimes i wonder how life would be if i had stayed in apparel design and fashion merchandising. this time, i would be like them, being overly stressed up with fyp, 3rd year and going to graduate soon.


i wonder how big a difference my life would turn out have i not jumped courses.

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and i agree with you, sometimes in conflicts and arguments, we become self-defensive and get overly victimized as ought to be.


play your own game, trying to compare who is more hurt, who is going thru a harder time, who is REALLY the victim. and getting the other party feeling bad, feeling remorseful.
but really, for what purpose?


i find myself doing that alot of times. and at the end of the day, i question myself and wonder why. isnt love all about unselfishness? and giving?


i think the more important thing is the friendship itself, not the individual.

hi, this has got to be the longest i've not blogged since the beginning of the year.


just thinking..


i remember watching The City, and this big shot was advising Whitney on some stuff. and she mentioned that, the most important relationship you can have in your whole life, is with yourself.


and that stuck with me.


because truth is, you practically live with this person 24/7, listening to this person's thoughts/feelings/emotions every single moment.

you gotta keep a healthy relationship with yourself. accept yourself, forgive yourself, love yourself, in order for you to have peace in your mind and to live things out to the fullest.

deal with insecurities issues, deal with inferior complexities, deal with pride, deal with ego. all boils down to the very relationship you have with yourself.

and having courage, having boldness, stepping out, faithfulness, because all of us has got 'that inner strength' in us to go the extra mile no matter what.


true?


i guess why i care so much and why i pick so much is because i'm pretty much still dealing with things on the inside of me. we all are.




too much sleep is meddling with my thoughts and mind now, not good...
isnt it odd that being sick and having all the time to sleep, makes you even more tired?!


sigh. better get to sleep before it gets worst.