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if there is anything in life, that i am always finding it hard to come to terms with, is this word called 'change'. i am not a 'change' person. never am. i take a longgggg time to adapt to change. and i take an even longer time to prep myself to 'change'.

and even as i evaluated myself, i found that i can be so stuck in the past, hoping that things wont change, that it affected how i react presently. i am sometimes, in my own world so much so that i can like kinda psycho myself things havent changed. yeap, that phrase probably is for me to 'move on'.

and the one thing that is making me so apprehensive about going to china, is probably this word too. i am so afraid that when i return, so much will change. in my relationships, in anything. and that is one thing that is stopping me from going. and it sucks even more when i know, theres nothing i can do about it.

yeah i know. people can keep going on about how, change is good, change is the only constant, etc. being stuck in the past isnt good, we must look to the future etc. but come on, this is just me. this is one of my weak points. i am always caught off guard when it comes to changes. i always create my own perfect little world in my imagination when things havent changed.


i guess everyone's mad in their own way.

i've all along been very excited about fashion. guess i'm not those woahh fashion week/models/new collection etc kinda 'into' fashion, but just excited about being exposed to new ideas. but well, which girl isnt right?!

and i guess that was why i wanted to go to apparel design initially. but hmmm not my calling after all. hahaha.

and, i've always have alot of opinions about the clothes to wear/not to wear. normally on different situations i'm not that kind who'll voice out my opinion or feel strongly about something, but this is one area that i have my strong beliefs and ideas. (and i am always criticizing everyone on the streets on what they wear secretly in my heart, its my hobby. of course there are some i want to learn from, but in sg, hard to find!)

thus when a couple of years ago we all ventured into fashion bloggers era, i started following a few of them. and seen how each of them grew throughout. and some of them really have a special place in my heart. like i'll always yearn to look like them! (of course not being someone else la, but i really like their style) and i realised, i've collected more than 1000 pics in my comp!

i can just spend hoursssssss looking through all the pictures and visualizing myself in them, where can i get the exact pieces, how can i match the clothes in such a way etc. haha.

sigh. actually theres no point in this post la. just that i really wish i was a millionaire so i can just order away online and have awesome clothes :( but then again, if i was a millionaire, i wouldnt be tingting already. lol.

soooooooo i was making lots of mental notes about what clothes to still get to survive through winter in Wuhan. thats pretty much my motivation of going. thinking of that certain type of coat/knee high socks (oh yes i'm gonna wear that in china cos its not sg right?! lol!)/jeans etc. haha.

life's so exciting with pretty clothes! :D

oh well. i'm super distracted from doing work. well its not like the first day you know tingting huh. haha.


so hellooooo. havent been the most hardcore blogger ever since i started internship. funny how work sucks all the energy out of you. its not even funny already when you feel so drained you just wanna quit.

so anyhow. i'm doing my report and final presentation now. hopefully it goes well.. i hate doing stupid things like this honestly. like dissecting my whole internship and presenting 5 months worth of shit for people to be happy. i mean like, seriously?! i dont mind doing essays/reports about how like maybe the iPhone changed the world or stuff like that. rather than how erm, my internship helped me grow up in life. or like, how did CHS help me apply stuff that i learn in my internship. or like erm, how the industry is growing. sigh.

and its 5000 words worth! excluding the summary part. sigh.


so well. nothing's up with life recently. just that i have been pretty much hooked up on this new show that i found, called Cougar Town. it makes me such a happy girl i can stay home all day to finish it. but now i'm pretty dreading it cos i'm like, 5 episodes away from the ending and i dont like having any withdrawal symptoms so... i dont know what to do :(

after choinging this stupid thing, i've got a stupid 3D2N camp to attend next week. and minusing all these unnecessary stuff, i've got not much time left before i officially FLY. there are SO many things i wanna do! but time is not on my side!


its kinda scary that i'm flying off so soon. i dont wanna go :(
i'm only looking forward to all the winter clothing :(
superficial, i know.