hello.

heyy this is my 200th post!which i think is only 1/3 of huiying's.haha.

i shall do a post of my 2007 too.haha.cos i like reflecting and thinking back the stuff that i went through.

this year has got to be the most unusual and weird and funny and craziest year yet.haha.

for example,i didnt know how but i summoned enough courage to withdraw from school and become a 'dropout'.there was such a 'rebellious' feeling inside me towards my old course.i know i dont want i just know.it was sooooooooo torturous to stay.i just had to go.haha.

and yeah,family wise,i know everything's much better now on my side.i know i did make an effort.so if anyone ask me,hey arent you sad or are you okay?,i can stand up strong and say that ohyes,i did make an effort to change circumstance.i did.sometimes against my wishes,but through all these months,i did.bonding outings,dinners,lunches,stayins,i've done all.and the relationships between all of us improved tremendously. :)

and just want to shoutout to my dear fellow sunday girls.(and i dont care, we are all sunday girls!) you know i just realised its really very heartwarming to know that you girls will always be there.and if no one remembers my birthday,you girls will.and plan all sorts of ridiculous surprises that no one will ever think of.and each and every birthday is so memorable because of you girls.i think if we think back,we can sure remember each of our birthdays.









end to the past,hello to the new.



新的一年了。有怎样的新希望？



对于‘新’这个字，有些人会有恐惧，有些人却非常欢迎。







但我们都可以有机会什么都能从新再来。



就像冲了凉一样，香喷喷地迎接‘新’。







我没什么好说的。。





谢谢你，
每次跌倒你都扶我起来，
害怕时你都会紧握着我的手，
心碎时你抱着我一起哭，
失落时总给我无人能比的安慰，

叛逆时你还是无声地爱着我。

你

是我的全部。

谢谢你，有个美满的２００７，期待与你共度２００８。

“飞过人间的无常，才懂爱才是宝藏”

this morning has got to be the worst,struggling to stay awake and battling the flu virus.

i was so so so so drained out.thought that after christmas can finally rest cos no more rehearsals.but no!its back to work.

just now while working,pasting some stuff,i fell asleep,holding a glue and dripping glue all over.just now i was replying angel's sms and i fell asleep while typing halfway too.not once,but thrice.

and i forgot to take my medicine this morning.

God!i need all the strength and energy!and healing too please.

ytd i stayed up to help ying with some stuff.almost halfway done,then very cek arkly my internet cant work so i couldnt get to hotmail and send to her.

tmr after work i'm gonna run straight home and sleep!

its gonna be merry merry christmas soon!

i cant wait!

this morning woke up feeling a bit wrong and nua and having a bad sore throat so i skipped rehearsals today,dont wanna risk cos the next few days is very important.

after a much needed sleep-in i'm feeling lots better now.its been so long since i can sleep in,no need to worry about anything.

actually come to think of it,the life that i have now is so much different from last time,so slack and really nothing to do.now is like,waking up early for work,after that rehearsals,sat sun filled with church stuff.and i actually like busying myself.at least theres purpose.

have learnt loads over these few rehearsals.the excellence of things in this place,the perfectest performance,people fussing over minute stuff that normally people wont even notice.and to think that all these little things add up to such a great production.

the drama that you'll see,is actually lots of people's hard work and sweat and sacrifice.putting up such a big production aint easy.and its my privilege to be able to witness it.

很欣赏很欣赏创作歌手。

更欣赏像陈绮贞，蔡健雅这类的创作女歌手。可以随意拿起吉他，就这样弹一首又一首动人的歌曲。在台上，散发出那种独特的魅力。唱着自己写的歌与当时的心情，希望台下有某个人能了解。



刚读了蔡健雅新专辑的歌词，她应该经历过不少才可以写出这些歌吧。。

有时侯觉得歌词是创作人一种抒发感情的方法。把“想太多”变成一首首感人的歌。


又再一次觉得，人生，总得经历过每一个感受，才算精彩吧。

这是五月天的信念。渐渐也成为我的。


就像阿信。相信３２岁的他，应该经历了不少。





最近又掀起一阵五月天风。又从新爱上了他们。为爱而生的他们。






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你说，婷婷有一天能不能像陈绮贞＋蔡健雅＋阿信呢？:)
有一点在做梦。哈哈。

i admit,i've not been reading ah xin's blog faithfully for quite some time.so while i was idling ard just now,decided to drop by.and my,i was so impacted by this post.

i dont know why but tears just filled my eyes.because yes,i understand what hes driving at,i really do.and with all my heart,that kind of serenity,is so ____ to me. (i dont know which word to fill in to describe that feeling).

he was talking about the 'Church of the Light' that was featured in Fish's new song, 崇拜's mv.it was designed by this famous Japanese architect Tadao Ando.

i remembered when i first saw the mv a couple of weeks ago,i was so impacted by the serenity of the whole feel of the mv,and how it just pierces through to the audience.and the stunning cross that hung above the water.in short,its a very impactful mv.i think the lyrics is wonderfully written too.

i read on wikipedia that many people commented that the church felt so empty,and it was disturbing.but Ando explained that the 'emptiness' is meant to be something different,a special feeling to transfer people into the spiritual realm,letting the emptiness invading the people's heart so there is room to be filled with the 'spiritual'.

i was so wowed by the whole idea,the whole blog post,the whole mv.

ibm is really a nice place to work in.surprisingly every morning i do not have the usual "i dont feel like waking up" thoughts at all.at most i'll lie in bed for a couple of mins more then get up for work.the people are all very nice!at least i think,for a sk warrior,i wont have any politics going on at my side la.haha.

and all the men so gentlemen la!they'll hold the doors open for you and let you go first that kind.kinda surprising.but my colleagues dont agree with me.haha.

oh,ibm has got this free massage for all employees every tues from 5-6pm.they invite semi-blind people to massage,and i happened to be at the place ytd to monitor.and they are so heartwarming!

their leader is not as blind i guess,so they'll depend on him for directions and such.its so cute when they put their hands on each other's shoulders like a train then they go toilet together and go everywhere together,looking out for each other.

and they are such a happy bunch of people,they'll laugh and chat and be merry in everything that they do.

and they were walking to the mrt together,and seeing them being so dependent on their leader is so touching..if i must close my eyes and just follow a leader blindly,there'll be doubts and fears.but their trust in the leader is so commendable.

they just moved everywhere as a group and help each other out.and it warmed my heart so much ytd. :)

OOOHHH

YESTERDAY WAS AH XIN'S BIRTHDAY!! DEC 6TH!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH XIN!!!!!


haha.if he one day technorati his name he'll find my blog.lol.

work is so slack la.i finished my mail two days in a row.today even before 11am,just 2 hours after reporting.

then now,i'm slacking away,doing odd jobs here and there.

i've been online shopping.hahaha.and reading blogs,and doing stuff here and there.and sharing online shopping experience with my colleague,who is a mother and she online shops.hahaha.

they listen to 933 everyday (yes!lol) so i've been havin my mini singing session at work everyday.and most of time they are too busy to care about me.lol.

so now.....waiting for lunch time!

after which they'll start giving me stuff to do.cos i think the outside people noticed i've been slacking.for two days.lol.

helloooooo.

oh btw i added the archives part cos i like to go back and read all my previous entries.haahaha.

i miss my mum!

i spent so much time with her last week,shopping for her dress and long sleeves.and it was pretty fun!the thing with shoppin with your mum is that you'll have unlimited source of money.hahaha.whatever i touched,she'll say,if i like then buy it.hahaha.quite cute and fun.

she bought this really stylo dress.haha.i shall help my mum revamp her wardrobe.haha.

she'll only be back next mon!i miss her calling me every evening and ask how about my dinner.and i can always save a lot of money by asking her to dabao.haha.



i remember on sat night,i felt so lonely and sad that i started crying and couldnt fall asleep.i went to bed at 1am ended up sleeping at 3+am.

because my cousins and my aunt and my uncle were all happily playing mahjong downstairs like what a proper family should do,sharing jokes,laughing,passin ard food,and watching the telly together.

and my sis were real late home that night cos she had some production stuff to do.my mum was alr overseas.i smsed my sis saying its so lonely ask her what time shes coming back.i smsed my mum telling her i cant fall asleep what with everyone not by my side,and that i really miss her peanut porridge.

that night was real scary.cos its really one of the nights i really felt so lonely and just didnt belong anywhere.cant forget that feeling.plus the aircon was merciless that night,blasting away when its 25degrees.cold+lonely=not good.haha.



but well,its all over now. :) i guess everyone's got a depressed moment in their lives once in a while right..what matters is that you pick yourself up and face this world with courage again.