FATIGUE

nowadays like so so so tired.and i just fall asleep in like everything.its quite irritating.

after sunday's service,i felt so annointed and ready to go all the way for Christ again..but just as i decided to,fatigue always gets me and i'm tryin real hard to fight it.i've prayed and its all thanks to God that i'm still awake.haa.i havent had a 8-hours sleep for like very long.and i didnt have the time to.its like..all full of things.so i will be so tired the next day.but i'll pray and God gives me the strength to still be hyper and put smiles on people's faces.haa.

truly there got to be a God up there.or i wont be moved to tears by the songs.i have always longed to grow more in Christ,but always,fatigue and things like that will get to me.i want so much to pray long at night,but i dont have a room to myself and its really difficult.so i'll have to wait till late to wait for both mum and sis in bedroom then i can start to pray.its really tiring..

God has really pampered me these past few days.and i'm really thankful..

hmmm,got to go do homework.haa.(: work hard!

TO..

hey my dear little friend,lets just forget everything okay?it has been tiring for BOTH of us,so lets just forget it.i still love you alot and i still trust you alot.so..ya,i'm sorry abt all the things i've said earlier.just forget abt it k.serious.

2006

haa.happy new year!aiyo it sounds like chinese new year.hahaha.

hmmm,i finally had the courage to tell my mama abt me being a christian.i've got mixed reactions from her,but i still dont think she wants me to go church.i just read that,we must hope for what we do not see,so that we can have perseverence.and i believe God wants me to learn something from this,You'll be with me,thru it all.i'm really afraid and scared and i've been trying to avoid my mama to talk abt this.i've always been tellin elaine they all to have faith and not be afraid if parents object things like that,and i cant really believe its me who is actually going through it all now.kinda unbelievable.haha.i was so afraid,and this mornin's service there's this line,and my heart will follow wholly after you,and i started to have faith again.

and after the service,i'm really excited abt 2006.i'm excited what God has in store for me and i'm excited abt being a 16-year-old,and excited abt sitting for o levels.means i will officially graduate and have an o level cert.cool hor!heee.next time job application the level of education can write o level le.haha.

God,i'm really scared..but You will be with me right?through it all,always.i'll start off 2006 with faith that You'll guide me out of this.and persuade my mum.

hmmm,just want to cheng qing that that article on band was what i wrote when i couldnt stand the stress and i just freaked out and i just wrote it.so..i'm not really feelin like that know,ut some of it is true.

i've done up my geog assignment!i think its so pretty.heee.cant wait to show people.my sis got back!i'm so happy to see her!and she bought pants!yay.hahaha.

may your new year be a fab one.(: