today's service was awesome.

i tell you a secret k.last time whenever Pst Ulf came,i'll fall asleep during one part of the sermon and i'll feel so guilty.i didnt understand back then why it was xiaoting's favouritest guest speaker,didnt understand why everyone just loves Pst Ulf.

but today when i went,i was determined to really pull something from the man of God.i didnt want to waste any more time,really wanted to listen to every word that he says.and the previous night i slept real late,and surprise!i didnt fall asleep nor feel any ounce of sleepiness at all today.

you know,everything comes from the heart.'a willing mind'.i really really wanted to learn something from Pst Ulf,and when he was preaching up there,i practically hung onto every word that he said.and i was so blessed.

some stuff actually i believe that most of us know or heard before.but i remembered darren in bs he said that sometimes,repeated sermons may be boring to some,but to him,it is even more important than any other sermons because God purposely repeated it so that we can catch something we didnt the last time.

i was totally blown away by what he preached.its like now,everything is a revelation to me.i'm gonna pray and pray and fast! :)

you know,today while praising God,Pst Ulf walked past us.and i have no idea why but i was so impacted that very instant.like whoosh!wow.that aura that he carries,i can even feel an unexplainable joy when he walked past.

and i told God,this is what i'm living for.everything.





you know what,these few months had been really stressful and really stretched me so much emotionally.i just cant believe that i have to go through all these.ytd i just cried and cried and cried.i almost couldnt take it anymore.

i gave up some very precious stuff that arent very right.and actually,i kinda miss my dad in a way.

theres alot of times when i walk alone and wondering wheres everyone?and looking around and found wounds that God needs to heal.

theres alot of times when i look back and wonder,actually what i went through/am going through,is actually really nothing compared to other people's troubles.but it is just something that i need God in.its a hole,that needs to be filled with His love.

and thank God,each and everytime i cry and cry out to God,Hes always there.comforting me.it may sound absurb to some,but hey,Hes so real to me.

right here right now,all i want to say is that,i wouldnt have made it so far without God and what He promised me.

yes,i still need God to heal me.emotionally.

and thank God that each time after every 'crying session',i'll be filled with joy and optimism.

yes Lord,i am willing.