sometimes i wonder just how powerful can our thoughts and minds be.
how they manipulate our actions, and persuade us to think in a way we might regret.
how they control us.


i dont know if i'm really that scary, or am i just being too naive.
either one, i am not proud of it.
and everything just end up with me self blaming, and my self esteem goes plunging.


i read alot.
but how i wish i do have the ability to express how i feel with words perfectly.
because things always end up sounding wrong and i just always feel like a 5 year old fighting my case.


but on a basis of what?



i am not like that.
i am just too afraid.
i do need assurance from time to time.