hmmm.

new house.

therein lies new dreams, new hopes, new expectations for the future. time to grow up, time to take on more responsibilities, time to be more understanding. i dont know if its me, but everytime we move.. i feel alot. more than deciding the design etc.. it is about the change.. and the environment.. the people..

new insights.

spending alot of time with my mum and my sister recently. opened my eyes.. its not easy at all.. the sacrifices.. the love..



questions.. difficult.. can i?


alot of times.. i feel so disappointed. yep i do. many things.


but we all know that all things work together for good for those who love Him yeah?
i'll give you all my disappointments.. help me..

welcome to the world.

felt alot this afternoon.


i'm gonna be a better daughter, better student, better tingting.




after feeling so much.. watching the hills makes me really irritated by their problems. seriously.

如烟.

i didnt have internet for the past two days. and let me tell you.. its really bad.


i ended up doing mask.. and taking lonngggg baths to make up for it. and even sleeping earlier!


me and cousin were soooooo bored. that he suggested drinking. which i strongly resisted. then we started to throw pillows at each other.. and watched really senseless shows on tv.


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bizarre.
out of the world.


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have been meeting the contractor recently. am really excited for new house. gonna move 1st week of november.


first time i really get to design my own room. all of our rooms are gonna be platformed. and i'm SO gonna have a black bed/deep red bed. and sliding door wardrobe.


the contractor made the new house sounds really exciting. i'm really excited to see the end product. :)


i'm really thinking of painting my room pink.

"When you cant see His hand, trust His heart."
-PK.

ppr witht th vwls.

i really like The Hills opening. it kinda makes me v happy to watch it.
i really like Lauren and Whitney as well. i think they are soo prettyyyyyyyy. and they have nice clothessssssss.


after not watching GG for so long, i completely catch nothing.
but i am still very much in love with Serena's hair though. it all falls nicely just at all the right places.


and on monday, i'll have 3 new nail polish colours that sound exciting and happening. yay!

(no it doesnt sound bimbotic at all i know what you are thinking.)

does any of you can even guess what the title is about?? lol!
it kept me amused for quite some time of the day.



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i dont need popularity, i dont need to have alot alot alot of friends.
i dont need alot of attention, i dont need to talk alot.
i dont need to have a super happening life, i dont need to line my schedule up with parties and outings.


even as i realised things.. saw things..
these things irk me even more.. makes me even more repulsive.

no i dont need all that. thank you very much.

i'll be happy enough with a good book at home.
i'll be happy enough with a handful of real friends who'll stick with me thru thick and thin.
i'll be happy enough to just sit at the table laughing with my sister.

i'll be happy enough with God everyday of my life.

sianzxzzxxx.

siannzzzzz why am i feeling so sianzzzzx...



dont think dont think!!



不要想不要想！

hairily hair.

my bangs are obscuring half of my vision now. i see hair in front of me all the time.



but the other time when i attempted to trim it, it was so uneven that it was scary.


looking at the pictures that we took.. cant even make out my eyes seriously. it is just hair.



hmmmm.


i need to learn to sleep early.

feel the rain on your skin.

my day kinda starts at 12pm everyday.


have been watching The Hills lately. its really quite a bimbotic show. but well it is quite fun.

now i know why people like Lauren and no one likes Heidi and Spencer. lol.


and how the term 'Best Friend' is so overused and underrated in that show it makes me feel like barging in and re-act everything for them. but i feel so sad for Lauren. :( am only at season 2.









lovessss the feeling of finally having music while out alone. and being in my own world with my music again. :)
makes me happyyyyyy.


okay. today i'm gonna work hard hard k.

roads.

while waiting for the bunch of people. i had alot of time to spare. was at pasir ris. so just randomly thought of walking to my old house..


that feeling was funny though. you know when you are so used to a place, you'll create your own shortcuts and routes on how to walk home. so i was wandering through my own made up route back there..



saw that the bus stops had a new coat of blue paint..
those familiar passageways.. those familiar playgrounds.. familiar bridge..
but other than that.. nothing much changed.



walked through the whole park.. the canal.. saw the old apartment from a distance..




in life.. there are so many things we got to learn to let go.
it may seem hard at first. painful. very painful.

but when you get the chance to revisit that place, and that memory, and that same pathway..
you'll realise how much stronger you've grown.
nothing changed on the outside.
but something changed on the inside.


a nice half an hour spent with myself.

4D. :)

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wilson koh posted this on fb.

i miss the 4D peeps!

and what was ying elaine jolene and i thinking man?! whats up with the broomstick!

转眼间，我们都快要毕业3年了。