hello.

hahahaha.i think its very funny.cos nowadays my house use the mango shower gel thing.so after bathing i'll smell like a mango.haha.the toilet will also smell like a mango.lol.and nowadays my mum buys alot of mangoes.seriously.hahhaha!so i think its really so funny!hahaha!

haha.everytime i play solitaire i'll have this feeling that its so much like..life's crossroads.lol.like if theres one card but two ways to place it,you must choose either place and then sometimes if you are lucky,both can succeed,if not,only one can and you gotta choose.haahaha.

okay i think its pretty funny but thats what i think.haha.i am so bored that i'm actually playing solitaire.lol!then i'll get really frustrated when i get stuck.haha.so gotta deal all over again.

and i dont really know how to pronounce solitaire.haha!

hahaha.alot of friends called/smsed me after reading my previous entry.haha.was kinda amused.haha.even very weird people who dont usually call me,did.lol!

welll..actually these past few days very not tingting.cos i believe in every sad sad situation there'll always be another angle to look at it and turn it all around again.so i got so lost in my sorrow that i didnt bother.

so well,you dont need to worry about me anymore cos i'll be very very fine.haha.theres still alot of things for me to laugh at.haha. :)

anyway!omg!everytime i see SHE's new mv i'll have like..mixed feelings.hahaha.omggg ashin is soooo cuteee cann!!!hahaha!but then!his first kiss on screen!hahahaha.omg.haha.

i dont know what to wear tmr man..lol.

i left my house with my ipod and phone and wallet today..

then i sat beside the canal and stared and stared..playing slow songs..

and then i realised that i have been so wrong.so so wrong.

always thought that i'll move on,it'll be okay.but then..its actually the opposite.i have been shutting myself up in this area for so long.

so when i heard you crying your heart out outside my door,and i was crying too in my room,i was surprised by myself..how hardened my heart is.

so my tears just kept falling down..
and how i wished someone would just call me and be there for me.
i have never really opened up to anyone before in my life..esp in this area.till now.
i just needed someone to hear me..and not talk.not judge me.not criticise me.

its the first time in my life that i felt so..forsaken.
its as if i'm mute i cant talk i dont know what to reply you when you cried so heartbrokenly.

i am imperfect i still do need to learn a lot of things.

i sat there for hours.

in as much as i try to make everything look perfect,i realised in the end,i am still very much imperfect.was trying so hard to 'appear strong',but realised everything that i can do,theres a limit.

i still do fall sometimes.

i was so blessed talking to jackson today.seriously..learnt a lot of things and was wowed by alot of things.hahaha.we were randomly just telling each other what God is speaking to us recently then on the train just flip the Bible and stuff..and its so cool can.haha.and unknowingly,its at tanah merah already.

and i dont know about him,but he unknowingly spoke issues and problems right at where i'm most stuck at currently.and i was..amazed can.how God can just use people around me to remind me of things and we that should really carry the fear of God around.

eg. i realised that i have been making a lot of decisions without asking God and its only mine.and though i know its not right and stuff,God just used jackson to remind me so strongly the seriousness of it.why still ask God when i already made my decision?no wonder God didnt really speak to me these few days even though i really need it because i wasnt willing to give up what i've decided on.God's no fool.we need to come to a place of brokenness and total giving of our lives to God that we can truly experience.

and you'll come to realise too that you wont be genuinely happy when you make your own decisions.

so so so so blessed by Sermon On The Mount series.i learned so many things!and these few weeks its like,wow after wow after wow.and its only lesson 4!i'm so looking forward to weekends to come can.and to think xiaoting get to be around all these stuff EVERYDAY.omg.so cooool la!i want!

haa.its okay.i shall bring all the presence and stuff to my own room during my own quiet time. :)

"i can do all things".haha.emerge the slogan at the bottom. :)

i thank God that i can be part of this exciting church.am forever challenged and to bring myself up another level.

acquiesce
–verb (used without object), -esced, -esc·ing.
to assent tacitly; submit or comply silently or without protest; agree; consent

thats the title of one of oasis's song and i thought its really interesting.it was supposed to be a friendship song haha but it turned out more like a love song.

sometimes oasis write the most beautiful songs ever.

hahaha omg ke you lun having 2nd album soon!hahaha.it brings back lots of sec sch memories hahaha!though his hair is kinda..long.but i still think hes kinda cute!hahaha.but nobody ever agrees with me.lol.

ohman..all jc people are busy busy busy.

anyway!i think facade has got weird pronunciation.hahaha.so i'll try my best not to use that word at all.lol.cos i dont think i can pronounce it.hahaha!

all the little things..

-recently i bought new colour pencils and i was sharpening them when i was suddenly reminded of how we used to strive to have the sharpest colour pencils in primary school and the memory of that kinda innocence warmed my heart. :)

-today i drank my bubble tea on the way home and was thinking about some stuff when the drink finished and i didnt realise so i was pretty sad that i didnt cherish the pearls more.lol.and then i realised theres still one hidden in between all the ice and that made my night.haha

-when i walked into class today and saw all the different types of personalities and uniqueness and it amazed me..somehow.that each individual is trying to live their passion and stuff..

-when some random friend smsed and told me a joke that they are supposed to assign roles and they didnt bother so they had 1 leader and 5 assistant leaders.lol!

-when i was on the train today and i saw people seated and it fascinates me still that it just so happened that all of us met on the exact same train at that exact moment.and as if like for a few mins,our roads intersected,after that,we gotta branch out into all sorts of ways again.and i think its kinda amazing..hahaha.

all these made my day!hahaha. :)

WASSUP MAN.i'm back.hahaha.

hmmm in short,everything's happening so fast.these few days..full of discouragements misunderstandings and all.esp that night when my sis said some stuff.BUT.i realised everything happened so the next can happen.(LOL.chim sia!)and so,everything leads to another and so on.haha.

and cally,you dont know how big an encouragement your decision was.i was practically blown away and it came at the time when i most needed encouragement and some confirmation. :)i hope you'll start to realise and experience the kind of EXCITING life you'll get.heee.

YAY GOD IS SO SO GOOD.have been like crying so many times these few days.hahaha.in a good way!touched by God. :)

I WANT TO BE PART OF IT! :)

OMG OMG OMG.WE ARE GOING TO THE ATHENS.HAAAAHAHA.

ytd the match ended like,5.30am??and i gotta get up by 7 so i have only one plus hour sleep.but ITS ALL WORTH IT MAN.omg!i was practically screaming for joy!its the FINALS OF CHAMPIONS LEAGUE!and if we win,it'll be the sixth title!omggg ytd's penalties was so nerve wrecking!reina was awesome!hahaha.aiya,actually other than surina no one knows what i'm talking about but sharing joy!hahaha!through to finals!

today really no energy sia hahaha.sleep is really important.hahaha.i was sitting there and staring at the teacher and almost fell asleep.haha.

gotta do lots of research man.glamour!haha.

hahaha!this is one of the cooooolest music video i've ever seen!



broken social scene almost crime

haaaa today's the first day of school for only 3 hours.haha.

to be honest,i still seriously dont really like fashion and stuff.i dont know whats going on when i put that as my first choice now that i think back.always thought that fashion is so fake and so..materialistic.whats the true meaning of fashion?its such a on-the-surface thing that i dont really want to get into but now i am in it for 3 years.

was looking through some books in the library today.saw alot of people's definition of fashion and noticed one of them said fashion is only bad when people forget that the person wearing it is more important than what they are wearing.haaa.

i am still looking for something to break this mindset of mine.cos i'm still gotta be in it for 3 years so i might as well do something that others dont even think of.

ohwell..