hello.

98th post.haaa.

today God's presence is like wow.actually i was tearing at the 2nd praise song already.i was thinking about man falling short of the glory of God.and how sad it is that people around me still dare to give stupid excuses for not coming to church.oversleeping,dont feel like coming,traffic jams,mum last min ask to do something,sick..when i heard all the stupid excuses this morning i was so so grieved..

God,why??

let my life bring You honour,let my words bring You praise

this is my number 97th post only sia.

today was like..a roller coaster.haha.felt so emo felt so sorry felt so fake felt so..important?

realised that..little things do matter so damn much.like maybe a hi or a bye or even a how are you.

its like..sometimes we are so busy with what we are doing that we..forget.

how can we?

haaaaha.my sis bought mika'a album and i'm like reminded of jiaxin and i was laughing too.haha.and i think his songs are pretty cute.haha.and omg i love the album's graphics and all!haaaa.so colourful.

haaha.i have no idea what to blog about but jiaxin wanted me to so..here i am.hahaha.and jx!you actually said i'm pretty again!hahaha.

next week starting school sia so weird.

and today is pretty weird.haa.rushed down to meet our dear yingying then rushed down to bs realised we dont really have time to eat so we bought like hundreds worth of old chang kee and stuff ourselves all the way to riverwalk.and i'm still having my sore throat one lor!hahaha.but the whole thing was kinda funny.hahaha

tmr i have like slots for meeting everyone haaha so in between the slots i actually have nothing to do.

hahaha.this is such a useless post.

haaaa.was thinking about what a cab driver said to me before.'well,life is like that,you just gotta accept it'.he was going on about his bankruptcy and stuff.how a millionaire became a cab driver.

'well,life is like that,you just gotta accept it'.doesnt it irk you to hear this?haaa.it irked me so much when i heard him say this.

thats why i think adopting a too 'accept life' policy is so yuck.theres no purpose anymore.as if treating life as a tiresome thing and just get on with it and be done with it kinda thing.

i dont know how to explain.but i just think that sometimes,people's mindset is so wrong.theres so much more than just, 'like that'.

wah..i'm like so pretty now.hahaha.keep looking into the mirror.haha.eh sounds so bhb but then!seriously!with my hair all nicely done with 101 bottles of hairspray on it and my makeup done by a very nice guy!hahaha.

the whole shoot was an experience la..really what the people say you just gotta do.not going into details but i was pretty uncomfortable and all..cos after all,i'm still quite conservative like yingying.haahahaha.okay maybe not.but you get the idea la huh.

free highlights ey..sounds so good.haha.i seriously hope he'll get in cos he has got lots of potential but then,him getting in means i'm getting in too..so..its kinda scary.

wah pro makeup people so pro man.just anyhow anyhow you'll look so pretty.hahahaa.then i forgot to bring anything to clean the makeup so i was walking down the streets with thick makeup so it was kinda embarrassing..hahaha.

i sound so shallow in this post man.haaaha.but of course you guys agree i'm not right?lol. :)

haha.just ate like,12 guo tie.i'm like still hungry.i ate bar chor mee + bubble tea+the guo ties okay..i'm still so hungry.whats happening to your dear tingting??haahahaha.drinking yakult to repent from my sin.cos i'll run for the toilet later.haha.

well..went to buy soccer boots with yulan today.and all i can say that if that shoes are meant to be yours,it'll be yours.haha.then she was doing her pw and i thought the topic was pretty predictable but i dont think anyone has got a perfect answer for it.if i'm not wrong its something like,someone changing the world then write and do research about it but of course in the positive way.

if i rewrite the question,someone who changed the world that you look up to as well..who will you answer?haaa.such a predictable question but i always dont have an answer to it.

then i was thinking about the contrast of the ending of a day and the beginning of a day.of course new days new beginnings are good but dont you think so that alot people dont always end the day well to embrace a new day?

well..i've always liked the silence of the night better.i love to see the day ending and then just go to sleep..like how one by one my family goes to sleep,how the swimming pool's light goes off,and then i'll stand by the window and count how many lighted windows are there still left.haha.and wondering whats keeping them up still.

i dont know how to explain but i just thought the ending of a day and the beginning of another day the ironic and contrast is pretty interesting.how come we always look forward to a new day when all else fail?how come it doesnt occur to us that its as important to end off the day well too..?or because before dawn,everything's the darkest so we always look forward to a new day?

anyway,digressing,both of my fave hongkong dramas are ending soon.so saddening.. :(

HAHAHA.see the picture!hahaha.see the one i draw with red and here???hahahha!THAT IS MY SEAT FOR THE CONCERT MAN..ohmann..heeeee.. :) so sososo so very very happy. :)

好爱阿信写的这首歌：

我骄傲的破坏
我痛恨的平凡
才想起那些是我最爱
让盛夏去贪玩
把残酷的未来
狂放到光年外(而现在)
放弃规则放纵去爱
放肆自己放空未来
我不转弯我不转弯
让定律更简单
让秩序更混乱
这样的青春我才喜欢
我要我疯我要我爱就是
我要我疯我要我爱现在
一万首的mp3一万次疯狂的爱
灭不了一个渺小的孤单
盛夏的一场狂欢来到了光年之外
长大难道是人必经的溃烂
我不转弯我不转弯

《盛夏光年》

and i realised penny dai has got some cool stuff too i linked her space you can go and see. :)

刚刚在网上看五月天在新加坡的签唱会，每次看他们那种感觉…是无法形容的。看着他们卖命演出，好喜欢好喜欢他们哦…

spiritual stuff aside,they really really changed my life like a lot.my beliefs my aspirations my dreams..its really very amazing that they really really changed such a big part of me..at first I bought their album cos I thought the changing covers thing is cool and then I thought the album was pretty nice so I just continued buying and then don’t know how..their magic kicked in.

then i started to use the thinking part of me and how we can see the world in so many different angles.you can say its my first step of maturity..and things havent been the same since.

actually you can say that yanzi was like my first ever singer that i really idolized.cos she was the first one who really amazed me by her singing.then i wanted to be like her so i kept singing her songs.and then..hahaha.it was her that broke my first thought of stardom too cos my family was criticising me that i dont have a singer's voice so i actually sucked in singing then i remembered i was so heartbroken that time i cried big time until my mum gotta console me and say shes just kidding,which i till now,know shes telling the truth about my bad singing.hahhaha.

but really..mayday's like..magic.i practically gotta bite my fingers while watching them cos i'm really that extreme.and this certain yuan with them..like whenever my ipod's on shuffle mood,and i'm feeling down,somehow,it will always shuffle to mayday's songs and then i feel so good again.haha.

aiya..dont know how to describe la but its really cool to have a band or a certain musician you can connect to.its very soul fulfilling.its like chicken soup to your soul.haha.

haha.i tell you,one day,i will have the chance and time to tell them how much they changed my life. :) and surina,i will help you tell them you love them too.haha.

haaa.was watching renci just now..admit that its really quite touching.that kinda determination and love and endurance its like piercing through the tv into my heart kinda thing..hahaha sounds so poetic.but wells.hahaha.

anyway..i realised i really am not that affected by my family stuff.though when i see the cake in the fridge and the new plants and stuff,i will feel touched and sad and stuff but well..life goes on.i'm not adopting a 'living a too accepted life' policy but i just feel that seriously,i have nothing to be afraid of and scared or anything to fear of cos i know and i know and i know that i am already very blessed and though it will be valleys so deep that will soon come,but i just know that my daddy will be with me through everything.its really so so much more comforting to know that someone hurts and understands you completely.you dont even need to explain.after sy rogers service i was so so touched cos i can really practically feel God's pain when he sees me going through all these alone.and that alone is enough for me.

so now i can just throw aside everything and really to not think about it anymore cos somebody will settle it for me and then can fully focus on more pressing issues.i'm very determined to change what we have in a month's time.at least to see some improvements..it really burdens me to see everyone's condition like that.

theres so many things to do and i really hope theres still time.

well nowadays..'quitted' my job,(cos i'm not very sure yet i havent done the exit interview..haa.)and got myself a little notebook to write all the random stuff.and life's pretty much in the change..new cell group,new responsibilities,new environment,new challenges to face.can really feel that sudden change in everything..and sometimes,changes are like a very cold shower when the hot water breaks down and you realise a lot of things harshly.

but in anyway,its up to me to make the best of what comes my way.so i'm not complaining but leaving everything i hold closest to me to my dear father up there.. :)

i was watching the tv just now cos my mama watching some politics stuff then heard that USA gonna attack iran now after the iraq saga cos of dont know what reason.it was channel 52.then during the advertisement my mum switch to channel 51 then it was very passionately playing some hope and peace music.then i was thinking the contrast is pretty weird.

people with the most influential positions and the power to change systems and decisions but trying to complicate this world up and on the other side,the human nature of all beings is trying to use the soul and getting the message across that hope peace love is more important.its just like flesh vs soul.just like what pastor said,if only those with the power to validate can really use the leadership positions to try to change human nature,the world will be so much different.

but really,this battle of greed and lust of the flesh will always be in full force against the delicate human touch of every soul..and its so saddening..