before this thought slips away...

Been pondering quite a bit on paths and past nowadays. 

I hate that we constantly have a 'past' labeled to us. And the word 'past' is always associated with something negative. Yes, I get the whole 'oh the past is what makes us', 'we learn from our mistakes', 'we wouldn't be where we are if it's not for our past' thing. BUT isn't it tiring? 

Sometimes a lot of things I just wish I had the wisdom to decide otherwise then. Why is it that we always have to learn through mistakes and whatnot. The imperfection in us, seeking a kind of perfection. Why can't we be like pure snow, untainted and un-dirtied. Sometimes I just wish I could 'shake' off my past, as if nothing happened. As if in 22 years of my existence, I am who I am now not because of a 'past' and 'mistakes'.

Funny how God restores, erases, and washes our sins as white as snow, but we humans struggle so much to try to come to terms with that. That we are a new creation, and we have a new beginning. 

Please be assured that I'm not feeling particularly 'emotional' about this, but I was just thinking really hard in my head. Inevitably, this is how God made us. 

May we always have the wisdom to make the right decisions, and be led by the Spirit daily. Life is too short to live just for ourselves.