i dont know why is this getting to me now.. but. i'm affected. as i said before in my previous post.. i am a super emotional being.. and these things.. get to me..

i know.. i shouldnt be feeling more than anything cos it has been the situation for so many years.. but i just cant help it...

i.. just.. really.. want.. to be happy..

when a woman falls in love.. she gives everything. her vulnerability, her secrets, her imperfections, her weaknesses. but she also gives her best. her concern, her care, her love.

every woman wants the same things. to be loved. to be appreciated of the things she sacrificed and gave, often things that are unknown.

when a marriage or a relationship falls apart.. it is the emotional scars she has to deal with. it is scary.. knowing that these unknowing things creep into our hearts and minds and leave such a deep impression. it is certainly not easy. to pull out all these hurts from the very root. and still be haunted and reminded of every good time they've spent together.

i guess no one will truly understand the pain.. until they've been through it. how the heart hardens.. and how it shuts down..

people say its not easy. but do they really know how not easy is not easy?