hey i really hope you'll read this.theres no other way i can talk to you now.

where and who told you that cell people dont like you?you felt it?hmmm..can i say that thats really what you think?i spoke to one of them today..and you know the reason why they dont wanna get close to you?cos they are scared that you suddenly will mood swing and erupt again.they dont even dare to crack a joke with you now..cos from time to time again you just suddenly give a black face.yes we do know the reasons why,but,the others dont.so naturally they dont dare to talk to you,and hence,you'll think that they dislike you.

and i know this will anger you.you said we didnt think about you.but the fact is we did..in the first place i agreed with eugene cos i thought we can go study as a cell group.but in the end you didnt want to study with him and yadayada.so i tried to solve it by telling eugene i'll go home.cos i remembered previously you said if we not going anywhere,you'll come my house.and i really thought you meant it.so i let down peter and eugene for your sake.so i went back to sit and told you and you just ignored me.hey..at that point of time i'm not disappointed ar?i felt sorry for you cos you cannot go and study at bedok so i opened my house for you even if i know we cant study.i was thinkin about you all along.and after that you really dont seem to care even if i went home,so i told eugene i'll go with them.and you know what?eugene seriously not not like you.

hmmm noone can see you are upset?we all did girl.we saw.we just let you be cos you are getting back to square one again.and if this continues..we just have to move on.