heello.hahaha.

hmmm dont like to write unhappy things when blogging.but.haiya.just had a revelation.maybe all those things that i THOUGHT or FELT..only to make me distracted.BE FOCUSED TINGTING!(without spacing.haa.)jx you should know!haaha.yeah.REVELATION sia.

just thinkin..something ying said very long ago still stuck wimme.haa.she said something like,i dont think i'll be close friends with you next time.i was pretty shocked then.cos i cannot imagine life without my close friends.and i was listenin to the radio recently..they were sayin,in friendships,you need to work hard too.work hard to build it up,to contact each other.and i seriously hope i will not lose contact with any of my close friends!so i was thinking..building relationships..quite tiring ya.but worth it.cos i think like..i have mature relationships with people whom i've been through lots.like elaine.haha.4years as friends.not easy ey.we argued before!and had done stupid things before.had our laughs.internal jokes.and ytd..when we were passin notes,i realised..our friendship is like mature until we just know.get it?those kind of we just know and i can feel that kinda level.haa yeah.and that period when i was so not close to you,really felt as if i lost my soulmate.hahaha.you are like this piece of me that i really need.aww..

and like ying.i daresay that shes the friend who most understands me.as in..shes always spot on on guessin my emos and things.and shes always injecting sense into me.4years as friends too!kinda amazing.used to argue over the little things.but now..its already like past those stages.and without you..my life will be missing some pieces too.you are always the one who brings me back down to earth.sometimes i will just feel BANG.when i'm talkin to you.cos sometimes the things you say really make realise alot of things.haha.ya.and its around you that i've learnt to really take criticisms and to learn from my mistakes.cos you never never fail to tell me whats wrong and what wrongs did i do and you'll complain or 'tell me off' in a way.and i'll learn and be a better person.even though it sometimes can be hard to take,but ard you,i've learnt how to.and still learnin.haa.yeah.

huiying also.you are like the happy part in my life.you always never fail to put a smile on my face.so your childishness also got good part!haahha.and believe it or not.all the arguements made me learn new things.like..aware of things.like the previous one.made me realised that i cannot take you guys for granted and its up to me to make an effort to socialise and talk to you guys.ya.and you build me up that way.so even though we may not understand each other that well.but you are so important in my life too.cos you are always so tough and strong,so things like the debt collectors..i wont worry anymore cos (i feel!) that no matter what..you'll always be there to help and you'll help me 出头.so i no need worry.hahaha. :)

and jiaxin!dont you think?i seriously think theres just this bond between us.this unbreakable bond.as in..i will take in comfort knowin that..somehow..you'll understand my problems.and like..i just let myself down in front of you.i dont need to care about anything..about having to explain or what.cos you just UNDERSTAND.haa ya thats how i feel.you are that special friend i'll always have.

cally!theres always special moments somehow.and i was really touched when you looked me up the other time.you know that troubled time.when we sat at some dark corner.haha.and you are always the one who give comments about the situation and more than often its like..so true.you can really be some psychologist la.and you can really like..make things sound sensible and is alright.somehow..dont know how explain.not having in depth talks with you now!hahaha.shall have it sometime.BUT.know that you made a difference. =)

friends are amazing creations dont ya think?haaha. :)

MY GRAMMAR A BIT CANT MAKE IT THESE DAYS.i'm like suddenly so not confident of my english.AND ORAL'S TMR.gosh.hahaha.