hello.

i am such a mess. if only i cease to exist.





i hate...



i yelled and i screamed and i cried.



exchange anyone?

i get highly IRRITATED when people dont reply my smses!!


if you can and you saw my message why cant you reply?!
causing unnecessary trouble only.




ahhhhhh!!
just ranting.

im so tired..


of 2009.

spent my xmas... sleeping. haha. ko-ed that for the first time, had 4 calls and i didnt wake.


woke up to delicious smell, sis bf cooked dinner.
pasta + cheesy garlic mussels + salad complete with discovery channel and family.
nice :)

sis bf thinks i'm a walking ghost. lollllll.



i'm a little sianed doing cards already. this year is like the most massive cards production ever. lollll. but wellll.. :)


been long since no cg before reporting time. heh. shall reward myself with pearly soya tmr. :)



i'm turning old, officially.
must be nights and nights of sleeplessness and all those, shoulders and back been hurting like crazy these past few days. this morning woke up with bad aches all over. not helping when i'm always carrying such heavy stuff on my shoulders. :(

felt as if i went for a workout or something. lol. need a massage badly!

when pastor finished preaching, i teared.
hardened hearts, refusal... vs soft hearts...



"christmas is all about giving Jesus space in your heart"
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after all the whinings, realised it is actually quite a good thing to be busy during xmas. :)




back to busyyyyy.

so my mum is in hongkong now for 7 days.and she abandoned 2 kids here in sg.


life kinda sucks without mama around.but its definitely x1000 more peaceful.and i'm enjoying it before she comes back (lol).



so that means.. now everyday i gotta do chores.

ytd i cleaned the floor, my sis laundry.
today i laundry, my sis floor.


i hate cleaning the floor. its my most hated chore ever. i would rather wash bowls.but i realise like that ah... alternating, wed+fri would be my turn, my sis only got thurs left before mama comes back. :(


thats kinda sad.

in the span of a few days,
tingting mopped the floor, changed my bedsheets, cleaned the toilet, did the laundry, going to wash my bedsheets and hang it to dry (eh queen size bedsheet okay very hard to hang please).



okay la. doesnt sound v wow. but then its alot for miss zhang tingting who is pretty much very pampered okay. lol.


and actually its pretty much exciting to see the house clean. lol.

i dont even want to start saying just how disappointed i am....






in liverpool..



sigh.

sometimes i think even i myself dont understand my thoughts and feelings.


just pray for some normalcy and simplicity now.



it is way beyond saturation...



... not good enough?

.................................................

heh. i called changi airport starbucks at 6am in the morning to ask for the prices for 10 drinks. hahaha. i think its so funny.


looking at the mess in my room, realised what kinda person i am.
-did marketing, notes strewn all across my bed and floor.
-continued with cards making, materials occupy another half of bed n floor.
lol. ended up with a reallllll mess to clear up.


but happyyyyy! managed to accomplish my jobs.


running on very low sleep level now. slept only 0.5h ytd, now completely no have.



one more photog portfolio and done for half of the sem!
though it doesnt seem like there can be much rest, but!




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was a little disappointed with myself today actually. thought that i had already given up long before i tried, and its negative! if i could have been more positive abt it, it could have been better. but well. its a lesson learnt. reflected upon myself. i will do better next time!





now a cuppa starbucks would be good!

THANK YOU WONG KT. FOR THESE FEW NIGHTS OF SUPPORT.
THOUGH YOU ARE TIRED AND ALL.
AND EVEN THOUGH I ANYHOW REPLY YOU, YOU ARE STILL THERE!
AND WHEN I :( YOU PEI-ED ME.

haha. ohmy so touching.




k back to my world of marketing mix and branding strategies. :( sad stuff.
thank God i'm not in business course.

danny yeo's presentations ALWAYS give me the jitters.
i ALWAYS feel super nervous before my turn.
(especially for tmr..!)


dreadsssss..
can i not present tomorrow? :(



but its in a good way la i guess. his criteria and all always challenge me to get out of my comfort zone and try things that i normally dont do.




(prays that i do well tomorrow)

i'm doing anything but.