hello.

hey you, living for tomorrow.
you sell your dreams for a pocket of change
hey you, smokin' up your sorrow.
just pointing fingers at someone to blame
hey you,screamin for attention.
once you get it you throw it away.

Try and find your better half now.
Open your eyes, and find yourself.

haaha okay i just realised that ashlee has got some meaningful stuff after all.first album.these are the things that stuck in my head.haa.the screamin for attention one is pretty true..no?once you get it you throw it away.haa.yeah.

my sunshine's all around. (=

haa my dad's not returnin yet.

home.family.that makes the most impt part in everyone's life..its like in what kind of environment you grow up in,you'll turn out to be who you are.

okay not sure why i'm sharin this.but..some things are happenin between my dad and some guys.i dont act affected.i dont think i am.but am i after all?i guess i am too immune by all these things that are happenin..till a point where i dont know that..i'm affected.because when the house is quiet,i'll always think like..why cant my dad act more sensibly?think of the family..?you know..he'll always always tell me off for being this and that.but..its just like..it reflects more of what a not understandin father he is..and not takin the effort to.its like these days hes off to china for almost weeks.and you know what?i feel happier without him.its not supposed to be like that right?i think i'm going through a phase where i dont feel affected but when everything's still..i know i am.imagine a family with both parents still alive but actin as if they are strangers.aint it better if they are separated?i know this is not the worst kind of case around..but when you are in this kind of situation..will you really stop to look at others?and i know too that friends talked to me abt it before..and i felt convinced.but then..it all goes back.

now is the time that a little bit of thing i get really pressurized.its like..a little bit of something i'll feel like cryin.why?like i've said,i dont feel affected.but i am.why this contradict?its like i'm really touchy nowadays..especially with our reputation really smelly with the guys in school now.i feel really frustrated.yes i know i should not.xt just lectured us today.and ya..it inspired me somehow.cos i remembered pst kong sayin before that if theres gossip,you know that you are doing something to stir them,or they'll not even bother.ya..so i'm still tryin to encourage myself.find new doors to be opened.

oh God,i just pray i will get through this.but even if i do..please do not let everything get back to square one again.but then again i realised..in all my life..the root of the problem never did solve and never will..

ahahaha.I CANNOT STAND FRANCE.MYGOODNESS.THEY ARE LIKE THE TEAM I'VE EVER FELT SO FRUSTRATED WATCHIN.the refree's tee so ugly.hahahaha.ohman.i feel so blessed to have scv.ahahaha.

JAPAN!all the way! (:

man.i feel so ke lian now.i got to go out of the house to do my quiet time.ahaha.or else my dad will nag.so exciting ey?hahahaha.i think so too.

GERRARD WILL SHAKE THE WC! :D

hmmm supposed to blog abt pos and things like that.but.decided to blog abt other things.

was talkin to yulan on the bus..i really love this kinda talk.she said jealousy is really a deadly weapon..its so true.and more than often jealousy also comes in.and spoil all the relationships.why do we have to be jealous?because we dont have security?you know i realised..God put different friends in our lives for different purposes.and to each individual,every friend hold a special value..not?just like i love how elaine and i still have strong bonds though we may not be together all the time,and how i really love huiying injectin some fun and laughters into my life.ying is so special too..words cannot say how.its just like,every friend holds a different value.so we need not be jealous what..theres nothing to be jealous of.you may be like this to this person and another may be like that to her,in the end,we are really this big big family.you need to know whats your special traits..

and ana really opened me up.nobody's alone or left out..if you think you are,do something abt it rather than sittin there and pityin yourself.being alone and being lonely is different in the sense that..you choose to be alone.life's about choices.if you will really look,there is really a whole group of people willin to talk to you and to play with you.why pity yourself by sayin you are left out..?its like.we all really love each other.thats why we are just a big big family together.

of course i will miss pos.but i choose not to dwell in all those 'i miss you' things.over is over.and theres memories of course.but hey,i would rather look forward to how all these friendships that i've made will grow.and bedok view people really stand out,they are unique themselves.and its not like we are snatchin anyone..we are all friends!in the end we all enjoy each other's company.and i really dont want all the relationships to go on and just disappear.cos i really wanna keep all of them.they are all so special to me.and i really learned a lot of things from ana..she really is such a great friend.and counsellor.and i really like talkin to her,cos its like each time can learn something different.and she said..instead of likin the company..we should really learn to appreciate each other and earn their respect instead of just likin the company and fun.i'm really so amazed by her..such a tall girl but so sensible.haa.

ya..and i really love this cell group.i really want to meet each and everyone up in heaven..and its really up to us to restore the cell's atmosphere.i dont believe we cant do anything..we have God..i really really miss the old eugene.i was so inspired by him last time know..hai

wow now really feel like tellin everyone: YOU MADE A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE.AND I REALLY DO APPRECIATE IT.

:) we are really a big big family together.

YOOHOO!

hey yoyoyo!heeee.hmmm.haa just went to eat with cally and linxi.kinda weird at first but after that kinda cool.hahahaah.hmmm..the prawn mee is not bad i guess.haha.ya.linxi is so funny,he kept laughin at ying's jokes to give her face.hahahaha.

ooh i love singin in the car!heee.its like so contained and so cool and its almost like a ktv.hahaha.which reminds me of going to sing.I WANNA SING.aiyo,please come date me to sing with me.hahaha.

DONT SAY GLUE...SAY YOOHOO!(:

hmmm..didnt get first for notice board.very disappointin..cos the judge said we didnt explain why we drew those things..but we got quite high marks.but well,i really think ours very creative!its one of the few most creative i have ever seen.ohyes.haha.and the guys were tryin to aim the hole to throw things in.and it looks fun.hahahaha.ohman,our notice board IS cool.heee.

okay im going.hahaha.this is quite a lan entry anyway.but well,see you soon!


YOOHOO!

HERE WE COME!

HEYO IM BACK HERE AGAIN!hahahahha.todays service was like great.haa.saw so many people healed.plus saw one guy actually got up of wheelchair.wow!haa.only God can.

hmmm..tryin real hard to do my work.but always,dont know where to start and sometimes,just dont feel like startin.but after that i will regret cos there aint much time left.scared my mid year will not turn out good.hai..

so many people heartbroken..get themselves in relationships.i still stand firm on the idea that our age shouldnt get into relationship.we are just too immature for it.but oftenly,of course i will wonder how will it be like if i am in one.but hey,to choose,i would rather not be in one.there are really so much out there in the world for me to enjoy,relationships come later.already so hectic in my life..cant imagine havin the burden of tryin to keep up with your bf.though i really think pastor kong and sun are so sweet.DAYAN IS LIKE SO CUTE.wah.haa.i wanna have a relationship like that next time.haa,will often wonder how will my bf be like and will start creatin this perfect man for myself.ahahaha.

ohman.friday just shared devotion.what i am really afraid is that,it is too casual or funny that people dont get my point or they just cant absorb the things in.haa.anyway i am seriously very surprised so many people laughed.its a very good memory i guess.haa.imagine me makin the school laugh before.hahaha.and its really very encouragin for people to tell you it was funny and good.ahaha.hey was really surprised my face didnt feel red and i wasnt nervous at all up there.and your voice will sound so weird in the mic.haha.but its pretty cool to have the whole school's attention to you,all eyes are lookin at you.its like..so cool.ahahaha.man,my attire was so neat that day.AHS SCHOOL SOCKS AND PINNED HAIR.haha.aiyo.

its really very cool to have God's love in your life.if you try to share the experience with non-believers,you will really get to witness this love in your life.like i shared with one of my friends,and i just started cryin..i felt so touched.plus i am really sad for all those who havent receive this great love.sometimes just feel like puttin this love into their hearts,so they can experience this themselves.its really like someone watchin over you always,and i talk to God as much as i can.God never fails to touch me even when my heart is at the hardest.never regretted being in His love,but God,i need to grow more in You.

heeee.monday amaths and i know cally hates that.haha.jiayou peeps!hee.ALL THE WAY FOR MID YEARS MAN.

ooh here we come!

HMMM..

hee.hmmm.hi.haha

liverpool lost to the gunners ytd and it was gerrard who gave it away.hai..nightmare.but i still stand firm on the idea that after losin,all the more should i wear the liverpool jersey.so i wore it twice this week.haha.next time see me wear jersey means they lose.hahaha.so sat got people keep starin at me chest where the 'carlsberg' lie..so a bit weird.hahaha.but got people like openly say what liverpool things one.today got two middle aged men started to talk in canto abt ars and ac milan..hahaha.so its kinda funny to wear liverpool jersey.

hai..tryin to reachout to those people.all it leaves a burden on me..a good one i guess.i'm like so worried..its like their lives are in my hands..if i can male that little bit of effort more,maybe they stand a chance to get saved..?(: stay positive!

OHMAN.MY DEAR AH SHIN WROTE A BOOK.hahaha.i'm so going to get it.hee.

ohman.i'm feelin giddy again..ytd's yakult ride really did me in..keep feelin giddy..

I'M OFF.SEE YOU.(:

pray for liverpool!

(:



i just suddenly felt so excited abt the prospect of GOING TO LONDON.my,i dont really mean London,but ANFIELD.ohmygoodness.it will be sucha goody.hee.nowadays i look at gerrard i will still be in awe of him..imagine if i'm like right there watchin him.wow.hee.pray that i'll meet him!think i will go crazy.haa.(:

okie,back to doing my stuff.good luck for geog!(:

FATIGUE

nowadays like so so so tired.and i just fall asleep in like everything.its quite irritating.

after sunday's service,i felt so annointed and ready to go all the way for Christ again..but just as i decided to,fatigue always gets me and i'm tryin real hard to fight it.i've prayed and its all thanks to God that i'm still awake.haa.i havent had a 8-hours sleep for like very long.and i didnt have the time to.its like..all full of things.so i will be so tired the next day.but i'll pray and God gives me the strength to still be hyper and put smiles on people's faces.haa.

truly there got to be a God up there.or i wont be moved to tears by the songs.i have always longed to grow more in Christ,but always,fatigue and things like that will get to me.i want so much to pray long at night,but i dont have a room to myself and its really difficult.so i'll have to wait till late to wait for both mum and sis in bedroom then i can start to pray.its really tiring..

God has really pampered me these past few days.and i'm really thankful..

hmmm,got to go do homework.haa.(: work hard!

TO..

hey my dear little friend,lets just forget everything okay?it has been tiring for BOTH of us,so lets just forget it.i still love you alot and i still trust you alot.so..ya,i'm sorry abt all the things i've said earlier.just forget abt it k.serious.

2006

haa.happy new year!aiyo it sounds like chinese new year.hahaha.

hmmm,i finally had the courage to tell my mama abt me being a christian.i've got mixed reactions from her,but i still dont think she wants me to go church.i just read that,we must hope for what we do not see,so that we can have perseverence.and i believe God wants me to learn something from this,You'll be with me,thru it all.i'm really afraid and scared and i've been trying to avoid my mama to talk abt this.i've always been tellin elaine they all to have faith and not be afraid if parents object things like that,and i cant really believe its me who is actually going through it all now.kinda unbelievable.haha.i was so afraid,and this mornin's service there's this line,and my heart will follow wholly after you,and i started to have faith again.

and after the service,i'm really excited abt 2006.i'm excited what God has in store for me and i'm excited abt being a 16-year-old,and excited abt sitting for o levels.means i will officially graduate and have an o level cert.cool hor!heee.next time job application the level of education can write o level le.haha.

God,i'm really scared..but You will be with me right?through it all,always.i'll start off 2006 with faith that You'll guide me out of this.and persuade my mum.

hmmm,just want to cheng qing that that article on band was what i wrote when i couldnt stand the stress and i just freaked out and i just wrote it.so..i'm not really feelin like that know,ut some of it is true.

i've done up my geog assignment!i think its so pretty.heee.cant wait to show people.my sis got back!i'm so happy to see her!and she bought pants!yay.hahaha.

may your new year be a fab one.(:

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The will of God will never take you
Where the grace of God cannot keep you,
Where the arms of God cannot support you,
Where the riches of God cannot supply your needs,
Where the power of God cannot endow you.

The will of God will never take you
Where the spirit of God cannot work through you,
Where the wisdom of God cannot teach you,
Where the army of God cannot protect you,
Where the hands of God cannot mold you.

The will of God will never take you
Where the love of God cannot enfold you,
Where the mercy of God cannot sustain you,
Where the peace of God cannot calm your fears,
Where the authority of God cannot overrule for you.

The will of God will never take you
Where the comfort of God cannot dry your tears,
Where the Word of God cannot feed you,
Where the miracles of God cannot be done for you,
Where the omnipresence of God cannot find you.

ohno..stumbled upon someone's blog and i thought it was very meaningful.esp 'the comfort of God cannot dry your tears'.cos it happened so very often in my life.(:

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