hello.

oh can i just say! i adore/love these!! SOOOO prettyyyy!! sooooo niceee!!

i should just wear all pink someday. i think i can pull off lor.


okay im really going off now.

listening to niu nai again.. reminded me of early sec sch days. when i crazily went after energy.

i cut out every newspaper article that i find, every magazine that includes them (even if its just a small little 2cmx2cm pic i'll also buy), and i used to memorize and rap every song of theirs (ya last time i really rap with them). have this whole stack of magazines with them on cover. i collected every single thing possible with 'energy' on it.

cut out the whole class' 《星期五周报》 with elaine to send alot of coupons over to win concert tickets. wasted dont know how many stamps. (and we won).

saved up to buy their albums, to buy toro's book. screamed over them. do all sorts of girly fan stuff. and i used to keep a small notebook on stuff abt them. but its in one of those boxes now though. however my sis n mum opposed, i still went after them crazily.


but well i guess its a phase of life which is nice to revisit and think back.. those crazy stuff..

i guess every girl has got their girly fan phase?
energy was really hot then you know.. they knew how to dance and all.. and write songs.

was sad that they changed after E3 though. funny memories. :)

年轻的故事都一样
真正精彩都写在最后一行
对失败认真的欣赏
房子要盖得漂亮就狠狠的打下木桩..
heyyy come onnn

lol.

layers..

heart to heart..
the truth..


normal?
change?


reconnecting..

beyond all the layers.. beyond all the pretense..
let the heart speak and cry..

it has healing powers.
for every crack, wound, cut.

have you heard of chin mei chin confectionary? haha. its a v famous shop from katong. and i used to go there every two weeks when i was young. all of their cakes/puffs are super yummy. their cream puffs are especially so. it is always sold out.


so now i'm happily eating one of the choco puff thing my mum bought. so yummy! :)



and this time, 倔强 played again on my shuffled list. haha. so random.



okayyyyyy i'm left with 200 words!! :) :)

i am so tired.. physically. but spiritually and mentally so excited and awake. haha. the contrast.
the past 4 days of waking up early and all has really been so impactful and powerful.
and for the first time ever, i was always super early for classes. :)



finally done with mini chinese lit test. while studying for it, impresses me alot that there is so much to talk about and to express about in literature. it is really a very beautiful topic. there is always something deeper, there is always something more.


once there is an attitude and mindset change, the things that you do, they become so so enjoyable. i dont really mind studying for literature test anytime, given ample time. i love how the different characters and images speak volumes. and they signify a certain type of people or society that can be seen at modern times. they are all interlinked.


and once again, i am so happy and fulfilled to be studying chinese, really. more than that i know this is where God has placed me. and slowly i am discovering my strengths and weaknesses in the process. it is ever so fulfilling.



yes. your vision molds you.

waking up at 535 + praying in the morning +
breakfast with funny people + loads of time to spare and do stuff +
random morning/afternoon at starbucks + macbook in hand +
drink nearby + alone with music =
most enjoyable thing in the world even though u seem to have loads of things to rush for.

:)

and its only 1248pm! haha. will make it fruitfullllll!

was feeling so tired, so cek ark and so sticky n hot. and i was kinda on the verge to extreme irritation cos the weather was like !!! hot. and then i went to the fridge, opened and found this:




which totally made my day. (or night). haha. its my fave packet drink ever! from sec sch. and normally its chrysanthemum, which i hate. but today its soy bean! and one whole row of them! haha.


funny how those small little things can cheer you up.



had a rare saturday out with xt n dong! its like one of the times when i didnt have anything on, xt didnt need to rush down to all sorts of places, and dong is out from camp! (and ying who totally went to sleep).

i had soooooo much fun today.. it was soooo enjoyable. i predict this is going to be kinda the rare few times. haha.



kkkkkkk off to finish off stuff and getting up early tmr! :)


(oh nowadays i really think that center alignment is like the coolest thing ever. left alignment is like so ugly! lol.)

i felt that today, my attitude was really challenged. even in the midst of all the confusion and rush, it just impressed in my heart that, yes yes i must not not forget.. never ever.. and i was humbled once again. and it just taught me something again - that preparation is everything. its not about the moment, its about the journey to that moment.
and i'm truly sorry for ever having any lousy attitude.


it is always a blessing to serve when pastor tan is preaching. i always learn something new about him. today was no exception. even as i was wow-ing and all with joanna over the coms set. and she said, "if you can follow pastor tan, you can follow anyone else." and yes.. its so true.. and throughout the whole BS we were both "wahh that is so true!!" and "wowwww so cool!" to each other. lol. :)


sitting there, point after point, verses after verses and i was so wowed. it drilled something in me. and sat there with tears in my eyes and flowing.. even as i was so far away and in that fish tank.. but wow.. His presence and power.. and was reminded once again.. :)

and like what sihui said, we can all identify at one stage or another.




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if u are reading this, shing and weiwen. haha! thanks soooo much again! so sorry i was really lag today. haha. cos before that was super rushed n all before SOS started. so i was a bit slow in realising. but wow man!!! i was soooo surprised!!! thank you sooo much!!! :) :) hahaha. sorry la i 'accidentally' opened that sms. hahaha!

i LOVE her hair!

and to quote some random comment, its hard not to envy anything richie.




i'm craving for some sort of vanilla float now..

thanks to all who smsed/facebooked/called. (elaine's virtual cake. haha!) :)

thanks to my dearest classmates, who bought a cake and sang happy birthday to me on tues night's class which i totally didnt expect! :)

thanks darren huang, for smsing n reminding the whole team. haha. when i woke up i was so shocked to see so many smses. haha. and thanks for picking team present too. haha. :)

thanks to dearest jiaxin, for spending 5hours with me. you have no idea how blessed and happy i was. more than the food/cafe/place/things, it is really the love that i felt.. and yes! your surprises really did surprise me. loved the cafe, loved the bookstore. you have no idea how much i actually enjoyed myself. thanks for the treat, thanks for the 'choose any book you want'. :) thanks for taking time out to spend my 19th with me. loveeeeeeeeee you lam! yes your letter will come!! :)

thanks to xiaoting, yulan, jonathan, marwin, weijian, kt. i was really surprised by the surprise. unexpected and i think its really cool! really thanks for the effort. i was really vvvv blessed. :)

thanks to yulan, yingying, cally, angelina for the present.. i know you all really discussed and planned and all. really thanks alot! :)

thanks to jonathan and marwin.. haha. you guys are really jokers. i laugh everytime i think of the failed hints and attempts. haha. and thanks for the 'waxing', 'sky diving', and leggings. hahaha. really thanks for the effort.. :)

thanks to surina for the about to come present.. you are really one friend that i appreciate alot too.. you are always there to encourage, always there to appreciate, always there to listen and give your support. and you always never fail to show your love for your friends.. touches me so much.. love youuuu! :)

thanks to yulan, yingying, cally, angelina, xiaoting, mx, weijian, jonathan, marwin, kt for the dinner + timbre. thanks for the treat + nonsense + dedication + your time. thanks for taking time out to spend with me on my 19th. :)

and though they wont see this, but also thanks to three more people.. donglin! i was so happy and touched that he called! though it was like, only two phonecalls, but i could really feel his happiness love and all.. it was soo touching. :)

kt! haha. the card was sooo hilarious and he really was very nice. made sure i felt okay and all. and treated me cab home! that means - money for his bags n shoes and all..! really big sacrifice man. lol.

and peter! omggg. when i reached home and found that mail package for me. i didnt think he would really buy! i was just joking with him a couple of weeks back.. and when i opened, A LIVERPOOL JERSEY!! i was sooooooooo touched!! and a selfmade card!! and wah the things that he wrote made me wanna cry.. peter never ever forgets eugene or my birthday every year.. and he would send very funny things over each year.. and its sooo heartwarming.. :)


Thank You. :)
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had a good reflection. learnt quite alot today. despite all the things that happened.. despite every emotion that went thru me.. but i'm truly blessed with such great people around me. and gratefulness just filled me..


was even thinking.. is it even worth anything at all..
but after everything, it is not even about what i get back.. but its about still giving my 100%..


突然间.. 杨君伟说过的..闪过..
真诚..真心关心..
其实就是这么容易.. 简单..
又有几个人真正理解？

但我知道.. 今天后.. 我会更加努力做到那一点..


thanks to everyone.. it was a great 19th. :)

haha. everyone is still so cute. and everyone is still so funny. haha.


ooohhh my playlist shuffled to a really nice song now! (holds a concert and strumming the guitar in my head now. hahaha.)



barca 2-0 up now against man u. just sent a smiley face to tk. haha!!